Ritual ~ Oneness

This morning I created a ritual honoring the Solstice. Creating ritual, whether with others or yourself alone is a tool for bringing your full mind, body and heart together as One. The way of God moments. My sharing.

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In our lower garden, which is a portal, I placed my very large Rose quartz which has traveled along side me for several years.

Creating a circle around this beautiful stone, I welcomed it back to the earth, to remember its beginnings, to be fed by the longest day of the year, to be released of the old and to be allowing of the new.

 

Standing the West I thanked the winds- those dancing spaces of air which nudge us, redirect us, push us and carry us. I thanked the Sun, Its strength, fire and heights of Light it shares.

Standing in the North I thanked the Wisdom. I thanked ancestors of mine, this land, the families whom have lived here before me.

Standing in the East I thanked the peace. I thanked my teachers - from parents to children, to husband, to teachers, to clients and students.

Standing in the South I thanked the land, the flowers, the blossoms, every critter, those I see and cannot see. I called upon my power animals - the deer, the great blue heron, the white egret, the hawk and expressed my gratitude for being with me, teaching me and guiding me at all times.

Walking around the circle once more, creating markers in the wet grass, I stood in the heat of the sun, climbing to its highest point of the year and shared my deepest devotions to all who have come before me and celebrated this day in Light, Love & Truth.

Feeling the presence of God moving as me. I stood blessed.

Now, I am off to officiate at a graveside ritual-remembering a life well lived of a grand matriarch, four days shy of her 96th year she left her body on 1-11-11. Ritual. Connections. Oneness.

 

with my love and gratitude,

Deborah

What Would You Do....?

With all the rain in the Northeast these past few weeks, day dreaming has been a constant past time.  I could be self righteous, say I have been using the spiritual gift of imagination, have been visioning, have been manifesting....... and I have, but in all my humanness; I have been day dreaming. I have been experiencing a constant interior philosophical conversation - all going on in my mind and heart non-stop......what would I do?

I do not know any one who does not want to have more money, to win the lottery, to strike it huge in the financial freedom monetary line of manifestations. I am included. But recently it has been different. After you buy your dream home and new cars - then what? After you help out family and friends - then what? I have been quite enticed by the gifts that people like Oprah and Ellen have instituted with their wealth, connections and imagination in order to create platforms for others. Ellen just started her own record label; 11:11. And many of us are aware of the accomplishments of Oprah. My heart has gone to what would I do? What would I create in order for others to benefit?

Seriously. Many of us say we would give money here and there. We would feed, we would clothe, we would tithe, we would give much of it away - but isn't  it greater and just as important a gift to create something others can benefit from in order to grow, explore, substantiate, use as a foundation or as I like to see it; a platform from which to jump off from? ..something which lives on beyond our homes, stuff and our life itself? Ellen's record label benefits all. She loves music, talent has a place to express and grow, others reap the joy of the music..... people get to live their dreams, new jobs are created........ I like the idea of buying homes for friends; but what platform could I create? It's a big serious question.

I immediately contemplate our education system in our society, and how to help many to benefit - how to create a platform from which teachers could feel supported.  (There is also a certain puppeteer I would like to support and get her in every school across the universe!) I think of holistic health care; how to educate, make available to others on a grand scale opportunities to choose holistic options when their bodies, minds and spirits are in crisis. I think of various boards I have sat on and how if they had the funds, their voices could be more effectual. I vision creations of redefining boards and choosing where to place monies for the arts, for creating, for choices of freedoms.  What type of platform in order to benefit the masses?  How to teach others to fish, rather than simply giving them the net full of fish?

When we seriously contemplate this, as well as the joy of simply gifting, it begins to create awareness's of bigness. We tend to think small. It takes Oprah's and Ellen's to guide us and example for us the gift of grand.

And of course, it is always about God. This is in all ways about the gifts of teaching and making available opportunities for others to indulge in the non physical aspects of life - to learn individually that there is a non physical greatness awaiting their awareness and when one sees it, feels it and allows the cords of light to infiltrate their minds and then to let their imaginations run wild with the gift of affecting others, creating for the benefit of humankind; well it has the potential to change everything.

What would you do....?

Do We Rejoice?

Of recent world events I am feeling ashamed and sad for many who I know and do not know. The publicity, joy and time the media, in news and entertainment as well as those I see on FB are giving to the joy of the death of another human is at moments more than I can bare. Allowing it to enter my energy field allows for deep contemplation of loving, Oneness and right mindedness.


Although I do not like it, I do believe there can be such lack of knowing God that what we are looking at is ‘evil’. (LIVE back words.) There is no doubt that historically, we have witnessed such deep and dark souls in human form that they violate the gift of life with a vengeance unknown to most that our fear and lack of comprehension of such choices leave us nothing else but to permanently renounce and ‘kill; to take the life breathe from them, in order for a life of living to exist.

As much of a woman of God as I am, as much as I live my life aligned with do no harm – I do see that in this world there will always be polarity. There will always be the dark and light, the extremes of lack and fullness. It is how it is here on this earth plane. In as much as I work with less formidable lack in my ministry and healing practice, there has been occasion to bring out a more aggressive mind set in order to denounce inappropriate behaviors, beliefs and/or energies. I do not like it, but I do understand.

With the above stated, there does exist such darkness and lack of Love that one cannot meet that energy in Love. We must meet that energy where that energy resides.

And after we meet it there, after persons who have taken on the role of killer and killed, after the souls who chose to be in the authoritative space of having to watch another human have the life breathe taken from them, after we know that hundreds have died at the hand of another being, after we believe all that we are told, after we send in highly trained beings to vanquish, (on one level) evil from our lives – should we rejoice?

“Mother, Father, God – the Infinite Universal Presence, the Creator and ALL which is Created – we ask You to dwell among us and through us that those who are unaware of You as their Source are healed and within them the cellular memory of You is made manifest for them to breathe as their pure life force. Our Sacred Oneness is that which You are and as we embody through our minds and allow You to reach deep into our hearts -- we DO renounce all that is lack of God. Our prayers go to each of us – to Your global community, that we may not rejoice in the loss of a life – but that we may continue to stay on a path of righteousness, of seeking You, of love and loving. That we may continue to seek out the loving goodness in all beings and for those who are protecting us - in the physical and non-physical - from that which has not yet been made aware of You –– we pray their safety.”

Happiness

I am humbled by many of my clients - yet none so deeply as a young woman I have been working with for several months. Upon her most recent appointment, when asked what her intention was for this particular session, she answered; 'more happiness'.

The session proceeded to be immense. The gravity of the work was beyond - simply beyond. The amount of release from old ways was huge - the energetic largeness of the work was incredible - I swept and swept and moved and moved old cords, emotional baggage carried for lifetimes filled the room; heat, volume, density was undeniable. If there is an equivalent - several sessions in one, perhaps. I had no words - and neither did she.

Since that experience, I have contemplated the simple prayer of happiness. We can become so deliberate, focused and controlling over what we think God should be/do for us - we often can hear ourselves telling God what we think we should want or have. It came to me, that the more finite we are in our prayers; the less room there is for God.

When we can trust God with all our hearts, what more can there be to affirm, but happiness. I am happy. Today, I am happy. More happiness, God & thank you.

Such a simple prayer - such a beautifully naive and full opportunity to allow for the Creator to do Its creating in our lives.

I hope you will take time today to contemplate the idea of  the simple prayer of 'more happiness.' - with relief in the trusting of Gods will.

Grandmother Wisdom

The past few weeks, month, year - have been at times, unruly. There are days when we feel we are being turned inside out - upheavel comes to mind. The world appears to be in crisis - and we are in its center. How do we flow, let it be, allow for the Light?

Yesterday morning, the 19th, I awoke a new. Be that it is Spring, Easter, Passover - all of this and more - it all feels quite signifcant. The recent fool moon tore away at us all our relationship 'garbage'. It provoked and allowed us to see ourselves in relationship, how we sound, how we are, how we react, respond, act. Grandmother Moon allowed for the great and glorious strength of Grandmother Spider to enhance our souls - to dance its web throughout our thoughts and lead us to its center. This moon also held the Light and Power for us to see and let go of all negativty we speak of. Like a waterfall our own negative words come to the surface and we see our wounds and ask the Wisdom of the Grandmothers to bless us. Grandmother wisdom can wrap around our souls and allow the Divine Feminine to step to the front and center in our being.

As I was given the blessings of this wisdom, I heard my own voice of annoyance, of aggravation - my ego view of the male energies - as I stepped into the initiation of the Grandmother wisdom I saw  lack perceptions leave, I knew I no longer would feed my soul with what had in the past been fuel for my expansion. My heart opened to a new fullness of the Divine Feminine, to the intuit of our world.

If it caused me annoyance or aggravation it may no longer be part of my journey. I had to forgive myself for feeding my heart such draining experiences. I acknowledge how the journey into was driven by these forces and without them I would not be here. There is an odd and joyous revelation to the path we come to know which in itself is Holy in all its humanly perceived negativity.

I no longer dance with annoyance or aggravation. My partner is the wisdom of the Grandmother, the Grace of Spider Medicine. The web is woven through our hearts - connecting, circling, enhancing the qualities of loving what is and leaving all else alone.

http://www.animalspirits.com/index11.html


with great love, Deborah

100 % Responsibility

My Aries fire has been lit up lately, as it has been universally, causing all our individual ‘stuff’ to be brought to the surface like rockets going off. The undertones of anger are immense and the laughter of freedom from previous density is often. It is amazing, exhausting and encouraging witnessing the effects of our planet shifting into a full 5th dimensional civilization.

In the midst of this journey which is giving an opportunity for our vulnerabilities to surface, I see one of my greatest flaws; it is that I assume.

I assume one knows this, or one is coming from here or one presently understands such and such. We all know what ‘assume’ means, and it gets me into uncomfortable spots. I do not like beginning at the beginning – I prefer to take off from where I am at – but I all too often forget, others may not be on the same page and yes, I am not on their page either. This can cause either painful communication breakdowns as well as heightened awareness and love brought about through joining together in the humor of the separation itself.

I have witnessed my assuming experience in high volume this past week. I have been at fault (or at love, depending on your perception!) for assuming souls were at a similar spiritual space as I, assuming others all ready were living from The Law of Creative Presence, the Law which expresses to us the great mirror of reflection – empowering us to take 100 % responsibility for our lives. Since I have found myself in this space of awkwardness and assumption, it feels like a perfect time to share the meaning, practice and awareness of 100 % responsibility and what this means – for that Is the core of the teachings, guidance & foundation of The Amethyst Light Ministry.

100 % responsibility is birthed of unconditional love for ones self and humankind.

Like many ministers, I have given several Sunday sermons on ‘forgiveness’. The verbiage and message are based from my personal life experience of being brought up in an alcoholic home with many empty spaces, addictions, fears and obsessions. The sermon message is; I am not responsible for what  another does; but I am fully responsible for how I respond, act and be in any situation. I also had learned that one can never run away from what is ours to grow from. (One may say lesson here, but I do not like that. Lesson sounds as if one is a child and has to pass such and such…) We each come here with the same purpose; to learn to love. In this purpose, we each choose life plots in order to open our hearts to unconditional love. Some learn thru abuse, others thru personal addiction, illness, others thru relationships, perhaps love, success, wealth, poverty, etc.

In order for a soul to grow through and into love, God asks of us to believe/do two things:

1. Own our choice to be in this expereince.

Many hear this and react with, ‘you blame me for this? You think I chose this? This is them doing it, not me’.

I believe we choose life themes/paths prior to coming here into this incarnation. I believe that we are constantly choosing and creating through our beliefs and that we can make a shift from creating unconsciously to creating consciously through our individual use of The Law (of God, Attraction, Creativity.)

The Law is the great mirror. We draw to us - as we witness our exterior we need only look within to see how and why it is present.

How did I draw this experience into my reality?

A button is pushed – anger rises; uncomfortable-ness is the feeling, hurt, fear, and angst – a button is pushed. The understanding of The Law teaches us we have a wound which has been re-opened, scraped, touched, bruised once again, in other wards, shown to us – when a button is pushed. This is OUR wound, not theirs – they are the messenger only – we say thank you for exposing this to me again, showing me this is still part of my vibrational field and now I CAN DO my work around this which is crying out to be whole.

As I do my work, as I open to a clearer alignment with God, with unconditional love -- bridges to wholeness are created, my vibration is raised, freedom is Spirits gift to an a awareness of love.

When finding one’s self in a situation of discomfort, in order to move through it and beyond it, we need only take responsibility for having chosen it. I chose it before I came here or I chose it unconsciously by my beliefs, or I chose it because my old wound is not yet healed and it is pretty loud and showing itself to me once again – I chose it.

As I seek within myself and see my beliefs, my stories - I choose to change them through forgiveness, acceptance and compassion.

Through faith in God we can see our way through any situation. It is in seeing our way through an experience, not around it, that an alignment of love is possible. If we leave a relationship or experience before we align with love and gratitude within our lives for the experience, we will meet up with it again and again – same plot, new players.

In having faith in The Law, ‘so above, as below/as within, without’ - we are then empowered through owning our conscious or unconscious choice to be in a particular experience.

When one does not take responsibility for an experience they fall victim to another person or experience and then their ability to act, choose or heal is not available to them.

This action of 100% responsibility does not make a horrible experience good, or a terrible experience better, or an uncomfortable experience less uncomfortable. IT DOES however allow us the room to appreciate seeing it with more clarity and asking; what is mine to do here? Owning our choice here allows us to not be angry at the other, but to say thank you for playing this role in my life that I can know my strength, my power, my faith, my ability to forgive, to love and/or to feel.

2. To own our responsibility before we leave the situation.

Here is the key – to own it before we leave, walk, slam a door, bolt, say good bye, run away or quit. If not, we leave a situation before we can forgive, be grateful for it, appreciate where it brought us and we miss an ( not THE only) opportunity to heal the wound.

Yes, one can leave and do the work afterwards; but the fact is, The Law will continually bring you into similar situations in order for you to be fully present in the midst of them and to ride the wave through them; into love.

“I once told a friend, I was going to get through my relationship with my mother into love this lifetime, because I was **&^&^ sure I was NOT going to have to do another life with this expereince again!” (I am happy to say we did.)

As others have pointed out, does this mean you want me to stay in an abusive situation just to get the lesson?

No, I want you to understand The Law, make it work FOR you, so you can stand fully present and see what is yours to see, shift what is yours to shift within you, in order to move forward more empowered, more loving and less a victim to your own wounds.

Because I grew into a young mindless adult coming from the home I came from, I married yet another version of my parents. My wound called us forward. It was perfect! It had to get worse, before I grew spiritually enough for it to get better; but it got better than ever! I reached a space in my heart where I am so grateful to the souls who were my parents, for all their addictions, dysfunctions and conditional loving – without them I would not be who I am; and for that I know I am eternally grateful. Forgiveness to myself for choosing such a path! – forgiveness to the souls who were my parents, my first husband; for having had to have them be the people they were, so I could become I who I wanted to be -- gratitude all over the place! Forgiveness and joy!

Can you see how the most challenging of your situations is simply the same exact opportunity over and over again? If you can see this, try this:


1. Vision your soul, a presence of energy.


2. Imagine a spiral going around it, beginning at the (your feet) bottom, heading upwards, a perfect spiral, getting smaller, tighter as it elevates to a peak above your head.


3. The beginning is your birth in this carnation.


4. The peak is your God Realization Union.


5. In the bottom part of the spiral see a situation, experiences and the way you handled them. Watch as the spiral moves upward…..all the time you growing spiritually, becoming more enlightened…..and similar situations happening…..and you moving through them with a bit more ease and grace each time…….


6. Until above the center of the spiral you handle an issue of ego, of love, of illness, of abuse, of victimhood, of addiction; with 100 % responsibility.


7. You will no longer need to have that type, that theme of an experience.

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I want this sharing to support you know than you know. Every one of you, who has ever been upset with me for saying 100 % responsibility, thank you. Because of you, I am sharing this. My prayer and intention is I know someone is going to benefit from this writing. In my years of spiritual practice, as a seeker, minister, counselor, healer and teacher; I have witnessed hundreds of souls raise themselves from personal pain and restriction through understanding The Law and creating through taking 100 % responsibility for their role in the play of their life.

With big love, Deborah

I cannot change you – I can only change me.

I am not responsible for you – I am 100% responsible for me.

Hello Chaos

(I guide my clients to speak to their wounds, as they are pure energy and a life force unto themselves. This is a prayer-rant that I recently wrote for a beloved. They are to be said outloud, daily, unitl you feel your energetic vibration shift.  Perhaps this may support others journeys, so it is being shared.)



Hello chaos. I recognize you. You were what my family of origin used as their experience of motivation – you and all your ‘pure crazy’ got them to move – got them to change – go them to shift – got them to see. Chaos – you belong to them, not me. You are a re-action, not a re-sponse.


I do not choose you. I choose to re-spond to life. I see what you are what you were - I see more fully now how you are. You are in my cellular memory as my re-action to being here, to life – but I no longer choose you. I no longer choose the manic, crazy, chaotic experience of you.

Reaction is a cellular experience.

Response is my choice.

I recognize you Chaos, but I no longer want you. And more importantly I no longer need you. I can see how you have served me, in your appearance of too much, not enough, too hard, too this and not enough of that – but no more. You are born of fear and lack of faith.

YOU, Chaos, who motivated my family and use to be the prime instigator for my life is no longer needed. You, Chaos, have served me well – you created an artist. You helped to create me. But, Good bye. I have found Choice. I like Choice. It is stronger than you, more flexible than you, deeper than you, wider than you, higher than you. It serves me in a more productive way, in a more self loving way. Choice.

To my little girl who grew up in the house on the hill; I love you madly. You are me and now, I want you to know, we no longer choose Chaos. We no longer NEED chaos. We choose to speak up. We no longer have to speak up OVER the chaos or through the chaos. We no longer have to be crazy, or wild, or extreme to be seen or noticed or loved.

We can choose to be crazy, wild and perhaps a bit extreme if we WANT to – but those are part of chaos and now, now my little being and now my grown up woman; We choose to CHOOSE.

I am motivated by love. I am motivated by what feels good to me. I am motivated by what brings me joy. I am motivated by life, laughter, love, kindness and talk. Yes, talk. I have a voice. I speak in order to be seen. I do not have to yell, or scream or use any form of chaos to be heard. I am heard. Clearly and freely and lovingly.


Good bye Chaos

Hello Choice.