The Light of Magic

If I could only have one dream, one prayer, one desire - it would be and is - may no one ever miss the magic.

This season of light constantly reminds us of magic. The awe in faces of all  ages when in darkness and light appears is a daily breath of joy. Watching a community tree lighting, or a Jew lighting their menorah for Hanukah each evening, or children seeing the Christmas tree go on or even myself, at 59, rising early and lighting the holiday tree in the dark living room and sitting, and being, in the wonder of the Light.

When my mother in law had Alzheimer's my husband and I would drive her each evening (for it was always new to her & therefore, constant authentic joy!)  around the neighborhood to see the holiday lights. It was quite extravagant, in suburban Boston, to see the multi lit cull-de-sacs, the reindeer, Santa Clauses of all sizes, the colors, the whites, the blinking, the trees! It was a feast for the soul. This drive conjured up the feeling of pure magic, in each of us.

I have given much thought to the words light and magic this season. How important the word Light is - we use it in so many different manners - and all good, all positive, all beneficial. Light emerges from the darkness. Lightness makes graceful the burdens. The Light of God. Walk Lightly. Tread Lightly. Light as in weight, Light as  in God, Light as in the Sun, Light as in to see, Star Light, Light, Light, Light.

And Magic!! The Magi, the magic of the Season, Magical. I ask this often; do you believe in Magic? Is a miracle the outcome, the effect of magic?   And does it take Light to create a miracle, is Light the juju for magic?

And what exactly is magic.al? The relief of our burdens? The moment when we can breathe again? Pure joy emanating from our hearts? God tears in our eyes?

Magic for me is the same as a miracle; that which I cannot do myself. That which I alone cannot create. That which I know God did, my angels performed, Divine Intervention was the cause......that which happens as I pray, that which feels like soul food, that which breaks my heart wide open and it feels good! It can be a moment - it can be a evening. It can be with a random stranger or no one else is in the room. BUT, there is a deep knowing, that other than human logic was at work; and those moments, those breaths, those experiences - I want these for everyone.

Divine Anticipation!

One of the many things I find humorous on this planet earth is communication. I so understand why words do not work. I yearn for the non verbal, thought only communicant of the 'other side'. (I expect that to be much more clear!) One of the other aspects of this in body trip is how I think I have clearly and rather well, I might add, communicated my beliefs and thoughts around a subject and the  BAHM!  My more than words can say 'loved Beloveds' address me in a personal heartfelt note/email and I can see; I failed. Or I most certainly missed the mark I meant to convey. So, I am humbled to send this what I pray will clarify my intentions of my previous blog(which I thought was SO good!1??!! - ha-ha on me) to everyone. Because, I do know we are in this as One, and that if two of my closest congregants did not read my intention clearly, there probably are more of you out there. AND I REALLY want you to hear this.

For me, the issue is, I want you to hear what I am feeling. I am feeling excited at the prospect of what next! I am feeling that this HUGE shift we are each in the midst of is EXCITING! I am feeling we are all standing at the cusp of greatness, of the Golden Age - and there is NOTHING to do. ...just be in it and seek your joy.

The loving, sweet email responses to my previous post I received were so beautiful and had so much love and caring in them, my heart was purring. Beloveds apologized for not being able to send money, to how I can do my work to get more clients & exposure, to support groups, etc. ALL and every suggestion ONLY from their love and respect for me and I am deeply blessed by them.

What I was trying to say was, the letting go of, the knowing a cycle of anything is done, over, complete; is not a bad, need to fix, do it better, different, other thing. I am not hanging on. I am in awe of this change. Throughout my ministry I have always known and believed God sends people to me. If God wants a soul to find me; they do. This huge and abrupt shift is a gift from God which has not yet been unwrapped! I know this because I know the many who have been influenced and inspired by this ministry. I know for a fact that if God wanted me to serve others in the way I have been for many years; I would be doing that right now, as often as I have been for the several years. This is not a place of fear my friends; it is a space of Divine anticipation. My life has shown me over and over again; when one door closes, a LARGER and GREATER door awaits; ALL-WAYS. Through my (almost) 60 years around the sun, I have learned through many humbling experiences, that it is not about doing something right, or being good, or anything like that; there is no judgment - everything has a cycle of life. It is nature. Relationships do not always end because there is a wrong, a bad, a fault;  in fact, when we are brutally honest with ourselves, we wanted it to end, we questioned it, we let doubt enter the building; and then things became difficult - and then we blame the difficulty - rather than admit, I really was done. Did I question my counseling/healing work at any point before this door closed? Yes, I did.

Because my personal healing & counseling practice literally stopped; clients canceled, people who owed me never sent checks, appointments went from an average of 20 - 30 hours a week to none - three; I then wrote a year end letter to my Beloveds to check in and see IF there was still a calling for this/my work. My inquiry was not a call for help; but an opportunity to see if this way of being in my life was still desired by enough people for it to be supported.  I have seen that there is not enough support, enough of a desire. This is good information. This does not disappoint me, does not make me fear; it allows me to say okay. To know that I, as in me, has done all I know to do spiritually, prayerfully and on the linear plane to create this ministry; then I am able to let go of any fear around the releasing of it. What do I really want? Where I am truly?  The truth is, it will never be a full release, because I am always serving God first in my heart, from my life, as my life; it is all I know. But what does change, is where I place my intentions, my energy and I am able to release any holds/cords; all in order for God to have a better, easier, more graceful way of redirecting me to where I am to be now.

Thank you each, you know who you are, for your beautiful, love filled emails. Instead of personal emails, I wrote this response, so all can share. We are in this together my friends. My life is amazing. I am and have been so richly blessed, it floors me, brings me to my knees on all the many diverse riches God has bestowed upon me. I know I am in Gods favor - as we all are; but we must let go of fear and anticipate abundance of all kinds in order for this to manifest. And this experience my friends, is done through our faith, our hearts & our being-ness;  not our doing-ness.

'Thank you Mother, Father, God for this incredibly amazing day of love and abundance. May I feel Your every direction, Your every nudge, Your every lead. May I let go of the old and allow  renewal to fill every cell of my body; for the greater is yet to come!'

Time of Restoration

These are new times. It appears things are falling apart, becoming outdated as quickly as we say yes to it, old ways of being, previous interests, that which we are/were hooked into; are no longer working. During the past ten years or so, many have written about old paradigms falling away, no longer working constructs, institutions of longevity no longer functioning, serving or being purposeful - and now we are living it personally. We are standing in the midst of volatile personal change: shedding, detaching, peeling, molting, reformation, letting go of, overhauling, improvement, rectification. The word which has been brought to my attention is 'restorative'. Restorative meaning recuperative and renewal.  Eventually, after a time of upheaval; soothing, invigorating and uplifting will emerge. But first comes the draining facet; where many souls are right now.

Where there is change, if we hold on to old paradigms it is draining. It is the old; hold on and get pulled or let go and ride the wave! Our government is the perfect example of this truth. It is a law of nature. Life is change. That which worked for us years ago, may not work for us now. That which even worked yesterday, may not be positive for us today. Nothing is stagnant. Nothing. There is life  force, God force in all things - and IT is always moving, growing, expanding, releasing, becoming something different than it just was.

The phrase 'let go and let God' has never, in my life, been more relevant. Since I was a child I knew I had to let God handle it. No matter what IT was. I first had this six year old epiphany sitting in between my parents on a cold seat of an original wooden pew at the Second Congregational Church in West Boxford, MA; as the passionate minister was displaying his evangelistic tone with hands raised and black flowing fabric moving rapidly from his arms - his demeanor appeared out of character for this sedate group of New Englanders (and I liked him very much)  - but the view through my child like eyes was that no one else was moving, my mother sat very staid & erect to my right, in a perfect years of modeling back straight mode, not moving her head for fear her magnificent hat would fall; I assumed. Yet my father not only was staid, but asleep. And the entire congregation knew it; for he snored like a mac truck. It was my job to let him sleep, but when he made a gurgling, sinus like, too loud people are starring at us noise; to nudge him, as to not embarrass himself ( or my mother). After several nudges I realized; God, this is up to you. If I fell asleep, I'd be in real trouble!

One of very best gifts we can offer one another is our honesty without self judgment. For years we have each worked on not judging others. We have listened to ourselves through the still small voices of the nasty guides speaking internal comments - which we would never confess to out loud. But now, now is the time to speak our truth without self incrimination, without making ourselves wrong or right, without passing a good or bad, should or could have flag on our own lives. We have worked at being unconditional to and with others; and now, the call is, we MUST be unconditional with our selves as well.

Being a person people confess to and share their fears with is always a sensitive space to hold; one I have been honored to be in. Holding others as they die, comforting families, discussing why suicide, seeing yet another person with cancer, hearing of the death of a child, the struggles of our young men, the pain of being a teenager, the unraveling of marriages, the ideas of what some people do to others, the idea of abuse, emotional turmoil and the list is some days down right infinite. During the holidays is traditionally a challenging time for many. Our emotional baggage is on display for others and our selves to see. Our pains and our joys are triggered with an immensity beyond our human intelligence. Our hearts are opened through the love which embraces our world during this season of darkness and light. And now, in this time of our human journey, we are seeing from the inside out, rather than witnessing the pain and joy of others, many are feeling the lifelong journeys of their own souls discomfort, here in this human body. What worked for us for years, as in jobs, purpose, work - and what we thought were our desires, our dreams, our needs and our wants; is all disintegrating,  dismantling, draining away from us, through us; preparing us for new.

I deeply believe we are in this thing called Life together; and we need one another. I recently read an analogy of each person being a drop of God - and like a symphony, each singular instrument is lovely; but together they are a breathtaking sound of glorious majesty! We each are drops of Godness, and as we come together in this journey we become more than we were apart. When we find love, we are more in partnership through commitment than we were alone. I do believe this is why people seek love of another, rather desperately at times; in order to become more with more Godness, than they were without it. We who love God, who have personal relationships with God know of this love. We know that when we sit in the quiet of a room, void of distraction of our humanness; we can become aware of God, of the greatness of the universal Life force of Love - and it can redeem us - it can rejuvenate us to a state of peace. We who are aware of the love of God know this when we sing out loud in praise & worship. We who know the love of God know this in the quiet moments of holding space for another soul as they leave their human body and travel home to God. When you know the love of God a precious moment of that love can take place at the grocery store, with a stranger asking for help, with a gift of a few dollars to another human in need, or when you watch a child see the magic of the holidays. God is in all things at all times; it happens everywhere. ...that moment, that breath of joy when all else falls way. When we know the love of God through an undeniable and unexplainable faith; one knows that the human spirit is God stuff goodness; and we prevail.

My favorite book of the Bible has always been REVELATIONS. The symbolism is grand, the story of good vs. evil is played out in a movie like largeness, with drama and leading roles. Rainbows, seven seals, seven angels, crystals, jasper, carnelian, emerald, trumpets, seas, 24 white robed elders and fire.  As I look at the bible as the spiritual allegory for mans journey, I have always seen the final book as the crème de la crème. What this book supports for me is that our human journey, no matter how painful, how difficult, how challenging; is worth it.

So, here we are. Some of us like myself, having had work we loved for 30 or more years and all of sudden, it stopped. Ceased. With no human explanation. Obviously something greater than i at work here. So here we are, like myself, with dreams and intentions not being seen after having done everything one knows to do. So here we are, like myself, having asked for support but not receiving it in the way I had imagined. So here we are; letting go of the old, or rather watching it through our faith in that which has not yet been revealed be removed from our lives; and trusting. Trusting the journey of renewal; of letting the old go by, creating space for the new. Trusting - that when the molting, releasing, peeling away of previous and present personal constructs is complete;  we shall be at PEACE; made new, restored.

Time of Emergence

Advent. Some refer to it as the time of emergence. It is a most beautiful time of year. My favorite. From the light of the oil lamp, to the light of the Christ, to the light of birth, to the winter solstice; we celebrate renewal. And is that not what we do every day; renew? Our faith gives us the insight to continually renew our selves, our lives and our days.

The meaning of the weeks and candles are different depending on who you speak with; here we use the Christian traditional candles.

Advent is made up of the four Sundays prior to Christmas Day. Traditionally, the first week is known as prophecy - it is explained by words like anticipation, expectation. Do you ever feel that? You have a new idea, a desire and your mind, heart and body can be filled with anticipation....., visceral, physical, emotional.........waiting for it to be seen, revealed in your experience? The second week is known as LOVE. I often think of how after we have had a wonderful idea, have planted a seed of thought; we need to love it, nourish it, to help it grow. Between the second and third week I believe we gain clarity. When we love, and sit with that, wisdom blesses us and we can choose; this or that? After clarity we march into - the third week of JOY - sometimes called the Shepherds' Candle, joy is what we feel as we watch the idea grow. We may see how God is bringing all our ducks in a row, bring us all which we need, want, in order to harvest our dream. This tells and assures us we have aligned with the consciousness of the Christ. It is a joyful process! During this time we stand in awe of Gods Grace & Goodness. The fourth week is the PEACE candle, perhaps known as the angel candle. When we know our dream is right here, so close, almost touchable...when our intention is being revealed; we allow our selves to be at peace, the peace which passeth all understanding. The final week is the center, Christ candle. The celebration of the birth, the revelation, the manifestation.

I do not believe there is right or wrong flow to these ideas. PEACE may be your second week - finding and settling into that inner upper room in order help the seeds to manifest.  For me this is about much more than the order of the candles. This represents the Law of God.

The law that what we ask for, we will see. The law that what we pay attention to grows. The law and teaching that we must find and be at inner peace in order to see our dreams manifest. The laws which state that Joy is a gift from God and that Love is the great nurturer of all things. When I light the final Christ candle, for me it is not about the birth of the Christ child; but about the birth of Christ through and as us - as we become and merge with our faith, the Christ vibration fills us and we have revealed in our lives; joy. In our lives; LIGHT!

PEACE - WILD ANTICIPATION - JOYFUL PRESENCE - LOVE; The Christ.

PROPHECY - ANGELS - SHEPERDING - PEACE; The Christ.

The Christ;  LOVE - PEACE - JOYFUL Sound - EXPECTING GRACE!

Any order, any time. any day, any thing.

Blessed Season of Light to you & yours.
Rev. Deborah Evans Hogan

day before Thanksgivng, why rush?

1:27 am, up since midnight. contemplating where everyone will sit Thursday. I had announced we were having a buffet and 20 souls could disperse at will around our rambling house. But now I am questioning my choice. I mean, how is that - togetherness?  It feels disjointed. So, in the wee hours of the day, I am rather enjoying being by myself in our old farmhouse, getting creative with make shift tables and where to put all the pies.

my point is, it is all good. I am not frazzled. I am enjoying the planning, the prep, the all of it. I am not in a hurry. this is new for me. only took 59 years to get here; and 40 years of hosting holidays. some of us are slower than others.

why do we rush so much? in the spiritual - meditative - prayerful - breathing deeply - yoga world we speak all the time, as the foundation for sanity with-in the chaos of this earth plane; to be present. there are so many ways to be this - so many facets of our lives within which we may practice. when we can tune down, slow down the interior race track on all things, our exterior will reflect this.

 I have thought about it for the last two months, as it appears daily in the outer world I am always 'slow' - when I looked for Halloween items, Thanksgiving was out; when I went to find Thanksgiving items, Christmas was out. At this pace, CVS and Home Goods should have Valentine's day out by December 15. We are each in such a hurry. The chaos of marketing pushes our buttons to get it all done now, first, before - get IT all done so fast, if you blink you'll miss the next holiday. And what about this Black Friday gimmick? http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Black_Friday_(shopping)

I thought about this today when a dear client, at the very youthful midst of her early twenties, shared frustration at not yet having her dream home, and feeling unwilling to compromise.

There is the disease of now. I find students and others, my old self included, can find the idea of manifestation and visioning seductive; so I can have, what I want, NOW.

But what about the ride? What about the journey? What about all the good, juicy, interesting things we can find about ourselves in the midst of dreaming? And what about knowing where we are is okay. And when we are okay where we are, it gets better and better. In a spiritual context when we are seeking outside, we are not where we are. And energetically, when we 'diss' where we are, we cannot attract where we want to be.

I made a deal with myself this year. No rushing. The dying mums are still outside by the front door. They will not be replaced by anything pretty, green and fresh until after Dec 1. This means my Thanksgiving guests are going to walk by dead plants.  Isn't that what fall is; the slow going within, the letting go, the dying of the old? Do we rush because what we see, where we are, is too unattractive to find any goodness in it? Or are we afraid we will miss the next best thing? Or that someone will 'beat us to it" - to what???!!! Or do we feel that our determination to manifest and create is a sign that we are good students of life, or status, or are we concerned of how we look to others?

I only know what I know for me. It has taken me many years to let go of my determination when it is going 'against' - and to embrace my fullness of being present with what is. I have learned that I will never get to B successfully, smoothly and abundantly until I am okay with A. I don't have to LOVE A - I can still have my dream of B - but I will always find some good in A......so I do not move too quickly through or even bypass and miss,  all the blessings this life has to offer me.

Greetings from my world! Been a while, I realize. Life, as everyone is saying, LIFE!

This has been quite a summer - no matter what moves you; ascension discussions, politics, the weather, family, healthcare, world crisis,religion, energy, spirituality; there is always something to dish about. For me, it is and has been not the immediate, but the larger focus; how do we see the blessing in all this, how are we allowing the good to be our guide, how do we faith our way through whatever the experience is at the moment? How do I reframe it for myself as well as others?

Right now, and this summer has been a rush of ascension symptoms. If this term is new to you, it refers to our individual responses of our individual consciousness' expanding into LOVE, under and with the great umbrellas of what is happening in the energetic over soul of our Universe. Simply, are we allowing the Good to permeate our lives? 

The most recent experience has been one of individuals being challenged to be true to
themselves. We each have certain beliefs which we use as a foundation for our lives. This has especially been showing up in whatever are our relationships, no matter what the relationship. weather it is personal, work, animal or human. We may feel challenged to accommodate another. We may be asked to do our work differently, not a huge shift, a very slight one, BUT it is a huge calling to stand firm in what we have made our own truth. At any other time or place in Life none of these would be such a huge experience, but now; if you are NOT true to yourself, you will get a spiritual 2x4 bump on the butt.  Examples:

- you are a black and white photographer only, it is what moves you, it is your passion, and a close friend wants to be your client, but please use color. You do it, and they come out awful, they are not happy with
them. Or they are happy and you do not want your name on them because you know they are not good.

***be honest, suggest a great color photographer for your friend.

- you are a therapist, and an old and dear
client wants to come to you for only an  hour, BUT the way you work, the way you have learned works best for you is a mix of many modalities which takes 2-3 hours. BUT you WANT to accommodate them.


- you only work from noon to 6. a client begs for an 8:00 am appointment.

***be honest, you are not available, but you will help them find or you will recommend others that you trust.

- you are no longer taking new patients, you get call from an old client who needs you.

- you have learned that in conversations it is best for you to wait until you are asked to enter it, to be invited, and one night you jump in. ( and this does not turnout well.)

- you have promised yourself you WILL manifest your new home. BUT others doubt, they tell you it is impossible to find such and such....and you feel fear rising...and you only look at what you do not want and it feels horrible.

- you make any promise to yourself; to not drink wine at the next family gathering, to not eat such and such, to only make choices which enhance your life, not pull you down; and then you balk, then you are untrue to yourself; and you wonder why the experience turned out so terribly.

At this moment in time, we cannot be untrue to ourselves. We CAN spend time shifting our consciousness and making a different choice; BUT it MUST be done with intention and in a conscious manner. NOT done out of fear, only shifted out of love. 

Only make choices out of love.

Do not betray yourself.

Show up on your life as YOU ARE! If you do not, the Good awaiting you cannot find you.

This is the same law used throughout all choice making. Remember when you were young and wanted so desperately for that boy or girl to like you and you went and wore clothes, or faked interests, JUST to get them to like you? BUT THEY WERE NOT LIKING YOU! You were not being YOU.

Please, be you the kind, loving, magnificent self you came here to be. 

Infinite Blessings & Love, Deborah 

how far can you think?

last evening i sat on our porch watching the fireflies dance and admiring the almost full moon bathe the fields in light. in these moments I know the great mystery.

this morning i sit on the same porch, in gratitude for the air which is circulating. i wonder if the leaves and limbs and brush are grateful for the movement? i wonder if  when the curtains blow and move they feel anything? if life force is in all things, then why not?

i wonder why the birds bathe in the dirt, fluttering their wings as if in water? does the dirt help to remove sticky stuff?

i wonder if when the birds are in the birdbath, are they singing with gratitude for the wetness and coolness against their teeny bodies?

i wonder, when I step outside and the mother deer rises from the fields, does she hear me sharply as I open the slider door or do her instincts tell her to raise herself from sleep? I wonder, does the baby speckled fawn consciously follow the mother or stand and jump off of her own knowing?

i wonder why every one does not realize that it is the love connection we seek. I wonder why it is so unclear with wounded distractions that one cannot simply see that love is why we are here and love is what every person seeks. it is in love and loving that we are aware of our innate connection with God.

i wonder if at any time on earth, will all souls realize together, that the Love of God is all we are seeking - that any other love falls short.

i wonder how many people realize that addictions/distractions - (sexual, drug, alcohol, lying, food, pain, etc.) - are ways to distract one from the fact that they are avoiding opening their hearts to God?

i wonder how many truly feel the love of God, of the Great Mystery in their lives as the One, the connection of all connections.

i understand why we each have to walk our own paths and do our own journey and that no one else can do it for us - and I wonder, would we have humanness without the need to evolve?  would there still be a cosmic need for the human form if we did not require THIS journey to support our individual and therefore collective involution?

i believe that the ones who make it tough for us on earth, who challenge our egos, who dislike us, who hurt us: we love the most when not in body. they help us to evolve in love. this allows me gratitude for/ to them.

i believe that when we hate, anger and condemn we are building disease in our own human instrument.

i love you through the love I am aware with God. it is the only way to truly love.

how far can you think?

Ridin' the River!

July 2013

In Honor of my beloved clients/congregants:

July 2013 may go down in spiritual involution history as a mega month.  The level of potential the universal overlay has expanded to is so very immense, so filled with love, so deep, wide and of such pure unconditional love; that every cell of your being is being touched. We have before us, in this moment, every opportunity to become all which we have dreamed we could ever be.

Then why is it so difficult? Why is this pain in the butt issue resurfacing itself again when you thought it was over? Why can you not get OVER or through that particular experience? Why can you know something SO well intellectually, but NOT get to the shift you KNOW is possible? Why? Why? Why?

Understand this: the massive heat waves are reflections of what is happening in the universal overlay. Think about it. Imagine a pressure cooker………………………

Imagine this: You are going down a river in a boat. You are in it all by yourself. You can see the end…you can sense there is a finish…the stream is carrying you – you realize if you try to control it, another words fighting or going against the nature of the ride, you will rock the boat, you may tip over – so you sit and watch. You may hit some rough spots, watch them go by. You may lose some items from the boat as you bash the rocks or a wave takes them or the rapids carry you. But you keep holding your center. Your hands are on the seat, you breathe, you imagine the end. You imagine the calmness, the gentleness of the drifting into the settled feeling of the end of this ride. You imagine the moment when the bottom of your boat touches land and the movement of the waves, the turbulence of the river itself, the very nature of the water against rocks; ceases. No more jets, no more unexpected waterfalls, no more rocks, no more rapids.

Was it worth the ride?

All you can do is watch. Keep your center. You cannot get out and move the rocks. You cannot stop the rapids – they are part of the nature of the river. The nature of change is discomfort, especially when you hold on too tight. People hold on too tight when they lack faith, when they try to control. Change CAN be rather entertaining – when we let go and let God.

This stream of God consciousness is all around you and has avenues of life force pouring through you – it is always moving, always calling, always beckoning you towards and as it – BUT if you are in the way – well, can you say spiritual 2 x 4?

*You know you are in the way if you are in pain.

*You know you are in the way if you are emotionally attached to anything.

*You are in the way if you are trying to figure out what to do.

*You know you are in the way if your story hasn’t changed.

*You are in the way if you’re wondering what your next move should be.

*You are in the way if you are ‘worried’ about anything.

 

Oh, you’re a rock. I see you.

Oh, you’re a rapid. I feel you.

Oh, you’re a jetty…..look at you swirl the boat around.

 

LET GO AND LET GOD. No matter what it is, do it.

Last week a client asked me how come always have time for her? Why aren’t  I busier?

I am busy. Very busy. My schedule is full. BUT I let God handle my schedule. It is always perfect. I never worry what if, will I have time, how many clients? I also never time hard boiled eggs. I always get a prod when they are done. HAND IT OVER.

 

Take yourself out of it. That is what the river ride teaches us. You may not have conscious control over the ride, but you DO have choice as to how you see it and that perception will instantly shift how you experience it.  And that experience will in turn shift your vibration and your future experiences.

 

Intellectual understanding is the first level of getting something – of understanding the laws I offer. BUT change does not happen at the level of understanding. Change happens at the level of vibration. The feeling level. The emotional level. The vibe level. The God connection level.

The moment many are experiencing is the moment of understanding intellectually – but not yet embodying.  The moment many are experiencing is that they have the mind part – they FEEL relief when with me, when we talk – BUT in the everyday they have yet to let go and let God. How do I do that? Tell me what to do Deborah and I will do it! 

Change your face – look at something different. Pray. Meditate upon the good. Give to others what you wish for. Do anything which brings you JOY. Faith is a practice.  Knowing something intellectually and the spiritual path of unraveling  is like learning the piano – you can play a piece well when it is front of you – practice goes well, you learn more and more the more you practice – but at the moment you are onstage – you freeze. Or now is like college – okay, you have a degree, good for you – know go learn how to use it. Now is what happens when someone is very smart – mind  intelligence is good, it is on the road map to the heart – but not until you let go and fly will you  know God…or know what you REALLY know at a deep level.

In this moment in time, many are experiencing a rough ride, an intense ride focused on a long term kernel at the bottom of the popcorn bowl.  That one piece which is left uncooked and if you gnash down on it will break a tooth. Don’t. Let it be. Trust. Now is the time to let go and fly – to watch God work miracles. Step out of the way – give it over.

*You will know you have handed something over when you truly do not think about it anymore.

*You will know you have handed something over when your answer is, God is in charge of this. Not me.

*LOVE is the bridge. Intellectual understanding leads us to practice, practice leads us to Love, love leads us to trust and trust brings us to letting go.

We are in the letting go facet  – the hardest part. The most profound part.  Up till this point you have practiced – now, you are in the big leagues! You may have practiced on things which you were not that attached to, you may have practiced with folks you did not have emotional connection with, you may have practiced with experiences which you could take or leave – BUT NOW you can take all the faith you can muster and give it over, this important something, this experience, this painful whatever it is – and behold God.

 

Recent Ascension Symptoms:

* The moment you make a decision to do something, you forget.

* The moment you decide to go there, (wherever there is) you forget why.

* The moment you try to have control over your schedule, SOMETHING comes in and messes it up!

* You are in pain about something; physical or emotional.

* Sleeplessness.

* You feel strongly / attached about a choice YOU made and then BAMM ! An outside something changes it. (You are in the WAY!)

* LightBeings are finding increased sensitivities to foods – knowing what you can and cannot take in your body.

* LightBeings are hearing another voice, which is not referred to as a guide or from spirit(non-physical) realm, but their own higher voice, their own innate wisdom…...the wisdom of God, the wisdom which IS.

 

If you have been on a conscious spiritual awakening path in recent years, you cannot be in the world right now the way you have been. You have learned many things, read many books, listened to many workshops and teachers; your vibration has changed. IF you are in the midst of interior conflict and you are trying to do it the OLD way – and you feel disconnected. Because you are. The new way is not a natural response yet and it feels award and uncomfortable and is  called: TRANSFORMATIION. It feels like riding a rapid river. So, hold steady. Practice faith. Talk to the old way and tell it is no longer is your highest path to take…….you are now taking this path:

 “Today I let go and let God. I hand over this and this and this. I step away for the experience and KNOW that God is handling  this  better for everyone and my faith shows me; God knows best!”