The Nature of the Road

The idea of the nature of something. Everything has a nature. When we look at a thing ( person, experience, idea ) - we rarely see the nature of It, because our perception is shaded by our personal lens' of wounds, opinions, state of being.

From a sharing of mine recently, a beloved mentioned my bumpy road, in a sad manner, and wished me well...and I had to go back and reread what they had read. And it was in this experience I heard this: The nature of the road is that it is bumpy. Do not make the bumps wrong. ....and brilliance sparkled! I was awake at one AM basking in this truth - smiling and blissing while contemplating and writing about this from my cozy sheets.

So much awareness opened as I watched a movie play out of how this truth reigns in our lives. Do not make the bumps wrong - we do this well enough when we are learning something new, a class perhaps, we can be patient, knowing we are not yet supposed to know. The bumps are the not knowing. We do not make it wrong that we do not yet know.

And then we are in every day life, and as we traverse the bumpy plane we can become so disillusioned, disappointed and make things so WRONG - which are just the nature of the road. And from our fear labels the word wrong pops up, and an entirely new emotional bag of tools surfaces. We start blaming, finding ways we are right  or find ways to bury our self esteem even more, or the #1 choice; make another person wrong. 

The bumps are not wrong, they just are. Life has bumps, all kinds. It's okay. Observe them. See them. Oh, you're a bump. Oh, you are in my way. Let's see, is there another path I can choose?

The nature of fire is hot. We do not make it wrong, do we? Can we blame the fire if we put our finger in it and it burns?

If someone comes at us with anger, it will not feel good. The nature of anger is hot and sharp.

Disgareeing is the nature of being human - it does not have to mean fighting, or making wrong, or finding fault. It simply is the nature of being human and having two individual lives coming together at one moment - there may be two different opinions.

When we share our road with another person, they see it through their own lens and that is the individual makeup of their personality, which is a concoction of wounds, beliefs, ideas and thoughts. Given that, it is all too precious when someone DOES agree with us!

The road of spiritual awakening is not pretty and often messy. The end moment is mighty fine, but it could be aligned with making love.....the experience leading up to the reason we chose to do it can be hot, sweaty, exhausting and messy; but the end result makes it worth it; to many.

The nature of  the road of raising children is that there are many bumps. Daily living with little ones, which if we make wrong can be utterly unnerving and cause women everywhere to retaliate in thinking they have failed, are not doing enough and one of the undeniably most sad things I hear; I want a real job, this is not enough, I am not enough, I need to to do more.

The children are not wrong. The children, the experiences, the moments; they simply are. They are part of the road you chose.  Given that raising another human being, being one of the guides for a souls journey in this incarnation - well, there is no more important job in the entire world, than to raise conscious adults to move into the next phase of our earths existence with more awareness than the prior group did.  

As our children mature and grow into the next phase of thier paths, we may ask something of them they do not agree with. The nature of thier respone is they will not like it. It is the nature of coming into ones own skin - to not like anyone telling us how to do something. If you expect it to be easy, you are not respecting the nature of the road.

The nature of divorce and the severing of cords in the ending or letting go of any relationship is going to be challenging. That is the nature of the experience. Yet, if one comes at an experience without expectations and with love, it can ease the path and grace it with softness rather than sharpness.

The nature of the path of anything new is usually bumpy. Ok.

But what are the bumps made of? Opportunities.

And why do they hurt so much? Because we fight them so darn much. Because we label them wrong. Because our wounds bumping against the nature of the path itself hurts.

The bumps can either be slid over with grace, or grow sharp through our egos. But they are valuable and cannot be snuffed out, ironed flat, or ignored.

Try it. Stop making the nature of something wrong. Just let it be.

Stand Strong

The past few weeks have been what my niece in law says - "crazy!". I love when she says it - it sounds so alive; not negative, nor positive - simply crazy. That about wraps it up. But, it's an interesting topic - this hoopla energy - this colliding into myself energy - this I "am so tired just let me sleep and someone wake me up when its all over energy".

The waves of brilliance pouring through our universal soul overlay is immense; often and more powerful than anything I have ever felt. To be honest - I went to bed. Fever. Exhaustion. I stopped the crazy and retreated. I think its over, at least for now. I can get up again, see clients again. Zowie.

Over the past two weeks, I kept colliding into myself. I would  mention someone to a friend, and then they would appear. Instantly. I had the fullest week I have ever had in my private practice. A family member had surgery. Clients got mad at me. Clients pushed my buttons. I felt when I pushed their buttons. Excuse me, folks, your humanness is showing. And I went to bed. After a client I would need to go to bed..... just fall onto the bed with my clothes on...and sleep, for hours.

So sensative. Everyone. All of it. Everything is heightened.

I had a talk with God last week about wanting a glass of wine. I really wanted one. I am SO good ALL the time...it feels boring to me only when I get tired and get off balance. I was in the store and asked if I could PLEASE have just one, (yes, like a whining three year old, I admit) and 'they' said 'no'. And that little piece of myself which was exhausted (and very off balance) and not listening to my own advise, said back, I think I am going to anyways. I bought the wine, brought it home, put it on the top shelf above the cabinets where the wine lives.....went into the other room and heard a crash! Yes, somehow, (and we know how) the bottle fell forward (physically impossible) and broke dishes on the way to the counter and the floor, over two rugs, white tablecloth, dining room chairs, white counters...and did I mention it was deep red wine? And I said 'you could have just said no', and they said 'we did'. And I spent over an hour picking it up, cleaning it up, washing and bleaching it off the white counters, glass everywhere. Threw out both rugs, It was quite a bold statement even coming from the non physical realm. (They thought it was funny.)

Sometimes being an intuitive, clairvoyant, minister, guide.......has days that are exhausting. Voices, statements of intentions, of pure goodness.......guidance; all day long. All day, every day, knowing what any one person is feeling towards you...imagine. Knowing the moment you say something that offends another and you can feel them retreat. I know how my clients feel. Sometimes, they just don't want to hear it. I get it. Sometimes I just don't want to hear it either - even though I know 'they' are right.  I know that the 'they' I speak, no matter how you define it, all-ways has my and your best interest in mind. I know, that the world is all-ways collaborating on my and your behalf - all-ways.

I wonder what it is like to have a life where one has a degree in something linear, which tells you how to best do what you are doing. To have a job where there is a book, rules, guidelines - proven before, from which to use. Where one can turn to page 101 and find the answer. I wonder what it is like to say, oh, I read this and it is fact. To depend on what another has done, rather than what is flowing through you at any given moment. To even believe in fact must be a huge relief in this world. It has to be, people believe in them even when they do not work. I cannot even imagine. Even my concept of fact is not accepted in this linear world. Everyday, every thing I believe in is challenged. Every day. 

And every day I challenge another's idea of fact. I wonder what a day would be like to simply stop trying to define, and just be.

I joke with freinds about getting a job in a bakery and serving bagels with a smile at four am every day....but I know me, I'd hear someones dead mother giving them a message and I'd have to reach across the counter, tell them - and then I'd get fired. From a bagel shop.

Lately, there has been so much love pouring through emails - and then, SO much naught. So much complaining and fear based attitudes. The fear is gearing up, it already has geared up and it is out in force. Those who know love, stand strong. It is our time.

Waves of change through brilliant intelligence and awareness are upon us. (BIG TIME!) Several to take place this year, 2012.  All our fears and frailties. We humans. Wow - we know we chose this; but really?

Having to stand up against the fear - having to be in love at all times; well, it is not a human course. It is the job of God - of that Divine Holiness. That non-physicalness of life which when we listen does speak to us. I tell all my clients if we listen we better take action on what they say - that is why so many come to me - but what kind of teacher am I if I don't listen? Oh, yeah, human.