Before I begin my thoughts here I would like to share with you about the Solar Flare energies hitting the earths atmosphere this past week. One of them the strongest since 2006. This energy is said to bring powerful magnetic energies into the earths atmosphere and to mess up GPS, cellphones, etc. BUT we know WE are also electromagnetic beings and many are experiencing the intensity of these solar flares, this powerful electromagnetic sun energy!
My personal suggestion is to be aware of this, along with the most recent full moon it can be VERY uncomfortable - and to go into quiet meditation whenever possible - it helps.
Antagonism, hurt feelings, a power-filled mass of fire energy coming from deep within your being - and basic all around intensity of whatever is prevalent for you - are all effects. BREATHE. Surround yourself in Love.
I love discussing life after life - or rather the continuum of our soul selves. It is a favorite subject and one which I discuss often with my clients. I have experiences of overwhelming proof and many 'past life' experiences. I have also traveled back and forth between the layers or rather dimensions - which would no doubt make a believer out of anyone.
I love my purpose, my work, yet it is all about one thing - to create opportunities for others to know their souls, to see their eternal beingness, to understand this journey which at many times can appear unfair, painful, etc. As well as many times appear enormously wonderful! And when seeking understanding thru the human mind, this journey may appear all too non-sensical - yet, when seeking understanding through our soul level, we find peace.
Death is the ongoing teacher - the mystery above all mysteries for human man to fear due to the deep seeded ignorance surrounding this unknown. Yet, I do not believe it is an unknown.
Souls come to this earth journey to heal experiences & relationships from previous lifetimes, and in this process, the soul awareness is raised. When we are home in soul beingness, we are not 'perfect', as the illusion may think - we are who we are - but without judgement. If we are mean here in this earth body, in our soul beingness we see the meanness, yet choose a life where we set up the opportunities to move through this non loving trait.
My favorite aspect, which I mention often to those who know me, are our 'pods'. Our immediate soul beings who we are one with - the beings who we come back with time after time.....the ones who we love and who love us unconditionally - yet unconditionally, without judgement, is all we know in our soul beingness. Judgement is a human trait.
For me and my clients who can feel the remembering, death is a going home. The soul separates from the human vehicle and leaves the body to go home, to this other dimension where all souls live, heal, thrive.
This earth walk is school. It is whatever you need it be. Our understanding in this process allows us to walk through the divine set up with Faith that not only have we destined our own life maps - but we have implemented the answers also - it takes courage, courage will lead one through & to the answers.
It is a privilege to be in human form here - not because few are chosen, but because ones who choose this earth school are choosing the densest and most difficult place to do our soul healing work.
People ask me all the time - if this is so hard then, why not just go home where its all about unconditional love? Because it takes this journey here, on this dimension called earth to have all the relationship stuff, the emotional stuff, the stuff stuff stuff we need in order to learn what we are able to bring our vibration into purer form. At home, we are. Here, we work.
Think of the analogy of going to work each day if you go outside the home, into the work force of many other personalities - yet when you come home at the end of the day, like minded energies are hopefully surrounding you and your energies can rest. Or perhaps there is one room you love and feel at peace in - you are still you, but you are no longer bombarded with the outside stuff. When you 'die' & go home, you are still you; but lovingly accepted by yourself and others thru non-judgement and simply being.
Okay, dying. This soul separation from the body. I am a midwife for this process. We have birthing midwives, which is very wise because the coming into this world is extremely 'stunning' for a soul. A dark room, the quiet, the love, the faith, the scents, the warmth, the mothers heart beat - all imperative for a gentle welcoming here. Yet, there is a social oversight in not having a midwife for ones deathing process. Dying can be very hard work. Yet, if prepared, through hypnotherapy, guidance, beliefs and practice; it can be a peaceful and loving and beautiful experience.
I would love to see the deathing process be as celebrated with love as one's birth. To be able to say; your work is done. You are now able to go home to love, to God, to let go of this human form and allow your beautiful soul to soar! Light candles, play soft beautiful music, shine love into the deathing room, show no fear - for the other dimension I call home is most beautiful, loving, glorious place one cannot even imagine.
If you have a loved one in their active dying process, as you love them, sit with them, be with them; whisper gently - see the Light? Do not be distracted - pay attention to the Light, those who have gone before you will welcome you with love. Let's think of peace now, of love, pay attention to love, to the feelings of love - breathe into the Light, allow the warmth of it to comfort you. That's right, good job. Other souls are waiting to greet you, you are deeply loved.
My mother loved golf and as she made her way through her ADP, I would guide her to a golf course - to a great tee shot, to the imagination of a beautiful par 4 and the scope of the greens and the hills and the beauty of a fresh mowed green. She settled right into her process, relaxing into the familiar...then as she moved deeper into her process, as with all beings, we bring them into the Light, into the visioning of purple/amethyst rays, of white light which will fill them, become more familiar to them, attract them/guide them/call them into Divine Slumber.
Remember, our dying ones hear everything. Our loved ones in comas hear everything. It is imperative this known fact is honored for a peaceful transition.
I promise you home is magnificent beyond your wildest dreams! I promise you this is school and home is beyond any definition of Love we can manage in our human minds.
with big love,
Deborah
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Monday, February 14, 2011
The Imperfection of Perfection ...OR..... The Only Perfection is Love
I see humans suffer from what could be called the disease of perfection. It is such a huge yet simple subject I have been wondering how to approach it. Here is my effort:
The only perfection is love. It is eternal. It is all that matters. To be loving, to act loving, to respond in love, to have faith in the eternal existence of love as the essence of each of us. Love is that which heightens us to Itself, Love is what bridges us from heart to heart, Love is what kicks our weak little egos out the door and welcomes in harmony and ease. Love.
I use to have a bumper sticker on my car - creating heaven on earth. I believe many suffer from this concept also. It is misleading - thinking we are here to create a heaven like society - when we believe this; we see things, actions, people, experiences as wrong when they are not heaven like according to our individual perceptions. We are constantly seeing others, judging others as ones we will have nothing to do with because they are not perfect, not following this 'right' action, not taking this road - so we walk away. When we believe we are here to create heaven on earth we are seeking to change our exterior in order for it to conform to heaven, with all the traits, experiences, etc. that this 'other side' is like - or what we may believe the other side is like.
Living life believing there is a need for a perfect earth creates divisions, divides us and builds barriers. Perfection is heaven and all else is not.
When we seek a perfect world;
Students leave great teachers because the teacher has been diagnosed with a horrible disease and if they were really together they would not be getting that disease, can't they make themselves better? - I believe this is one reason Ram Das chose the road he did- to teach in a very public way that perfection lies within how WE individually respond to life and call upon love to carry us.
When we seek a perfect world:
There are bad and good experiences.
There are bad and good people.
When we seek a perfect world:
We are mad at ourselves when we feel or judge ourselves to be less than -
When we seek a perfect world we admire those we feel we cannot acsend to, those we say are better than us, know more than us, are more heaven like than us.
When we seek a perfect world:
We find fault with this one.
We judge.
We scale. We build levels. We create status.
We fear that which does not live up to what we perceive to be perfect.
Our perfection has nothing to do with our bodies or clothes or homes or jobs or health. Our perfection has nothing to do with what we do - our perfection is HOW we perceive, it is an interior awareness. Perfection is found deep within our souls. It is that awareness of the Divine Perfection of Love Itself which when we are aware of It and bridge our thinking, body, mind and heart to an awareness of Its Presence - we FEEL relief, we FEEL a glowing lift from all burdens, all misconceptions, all that is NOT of the Divine Perfection.
To believe that we are here in order to create this earth to become heaven like and in the process to dismiss all that is not like Itself - is to dismiss the exact purpose of being a spiritual being in a human experience here in this dimension. We come here to have the exact relationships and experiences that we have - we cannot have them anywhere else. It is only in this dimension, in this place called earth that we can see so blatantly the dark and Light - that we can see with such tactile and palpable existence how the ego, how fear, how that which is NOT of the Light can be. It is ONLY here, on this earth, in this sometimes challenging and amazing existence that we can BECOME that which we seek. The challenges which are the teachers, the rough times, the darkness; hold the lessons, hold the sacred availability of our very own expansion! It is so exciting to see the polarity which is offered here in this dimension as Divine Opportunities to Become that which is Love.
When we desire for everything to be nicy nice - for our worlds to be without negativity, challenges, disease...etc - then we seek to take away the very essence of this earth school. We seek to kick the teacher out of the room and think we can do it all on our own! We have to see the negative and take self responsibility for our perceptions of it in order to expand our consciousness, in order to raise our individual awareness of Spirit.
This does not mean life is not wonderful - life IS wonderful when we see perfection within OURSELVES. Only within yourself. Seek the harmony of feeling, emoting this blissful state of Divine Perfection from within your own heart and then you will be living as close to heaven like existence as possible on this earth plane. Recognize love.
All too many people seek the perfection of someone outside themselves - they build altars to their therapists, their ministers, their Gurus - they build altars to their diseases, their labels, their stories. Build only one altar - an altar to the Divine Perfection of Love within your own heart. And yet............the divine perfection is, that one cannot build an altar to/with Love within ones self until you learn that building an altar to anything else does not work.
Hence, this necessary journey here on this beautiful dimension which offers us perfection in the imperfection life of living in human bodies -
Seek the love in every experience you have. Find gratitude for the imperfections which unto themselves rattle your ego in order for you to choose to seek the Love which is your very own essence and the purity of Spirit Itself.
'To Love!
The only perfection is love. It is eternal. It is all that matters. To be loving, to act loving, to respond in love, to have faith in the eternal existence of love as the essence of each of us. Love is that which heightens us to Itself, Love is what bridges us from heart to heart, Love is what kicks our weak little egos out the door and welcomes in harmony and ease. Love.
I use to have a bumper sticker on my car - creating heaven on earth. I believe many suffer from this concept also. It is misleading - thinking we are here to create a heaven like society - when we believe this; we see things, actions, people, experiences as wrong when they are not heaven like according to our individual perceptions. We are constantly seeing others, judging others as ones we will have nothing to do with because they are not perfect, not following this 'right' action, not taking this road - so we walk away. When we believe we are here to create heaven on earth we are seeking to change our exterior in order for it to conform to heaven, with all the traits, experiences, etc. that this 'other side' is like - or what we may believe the other side is like.
Living life believing there is a need for a perfect earth creates divisions, divides us and builds barriers. Perfection is heaven and all else is not.
When we seek a perfect world;
Students leave great teachers because the teacher has been diagnosed with a horrible disease and if they were really together they would not be getting that disease, can't they make themselves better? - I believe this is one reason Ram Das chose the road he did- to teach in a very public way that perfection lies within how WE individually respond to life and call upon love to carry us.
When we seek a perfect world:
There are bad and good experiences.
There are bad and good people.
When we seek a perfect world:
We are mad at ourselves when we feel or judge ourselves to be less than -
When we seek a perfect world we admire those we feel we cannot acsend to, those we say are better than us, know more than us, are more heaven like than us.
When we seek a perfect world:
We find fault with this one.
We judge.
We scale. We build levels. We create status.
We fear that which does not live up to what we perceive to be perfect.
Our perfection has nothing to do with our bodies or clothes or homes or jobs or health. Our perfection has nothing to do with what we do - our perfection is HOW we perceive, it is an interior awareness. Perfection is found deep within our souls. It is that awareness of the Divine Perfection of Love Itself which when we are aware of It and bridge our thinking, body, mind and heart to an awareness of Its Presence - we FEEL relief, we FEEL a glowing lift from all burdens, all misconceptions, all that is NOT of the Divine Perfection.
To believe that we are here in order to create this earth to become heaven like and in the process to dismiss all that is not like Itself - is to dismiss the exact purpose of being a spiritual being in a human experience here in this dimension. We come here to have the exact relationships and experiences that we have - we cannot have them anywhere else. It is only in this dimension, in this place called earth that we can see so blatantly the dark and Light - that we can see with such tactile and palpable existence how the ego, how fear, how that which is NOT of the Light can be. It is ONLY here, on this earth, in this sometimes challenging and amazing existence that we can BECOME that which we seek. The challenges which are the teachers, the rough times, the darkness; hold the lessons, hold the sacred availability of our very own expansion! It is so exciting to see the polarity which is offered here in this dimension as Divine Opportunities to Become that which is Love.
When we desire for everything to be nicy nice - for our worlds to be without negativity, challenges, disease...etc - then we seek to take away the very essence of this earth school. We seek to kick the teacher out of the room and think we can do it all on our own! We have to see the negative and take self responsibility for our perceptions of it in order to expand our consciousness, in order to raise our individual awareness of Spirit.
This does not mean life is not wonderful - life IS wonderful when we see perfection within OURSELVES. Only within yourself. Seek the harmony of feeling, emoting this blissful state of Divine Perfection from within your own heart and then you will be living as close to heaven like existence as possible on this earth plane. Recognize love.
All too many people seek the perfection of someone outside themselves - they build altars to their therapists, their ministers, their Gurus - they build altars to their diseases, their labels, their stories. Build only one altar - an altar to the Divine Perfection of Love within your own heart. And yet............the divine perfection is, that one cannot build an altar to/with Love within ones self until you learn that building an altar to anything else does not work.
Hence, this necessary journey here on this beautiful dimension which offers us perfection in the imperfection life of living in human bodies -
Seek the love in every experience you have. Find gratitude for the imperfections which unto themselves rattle your ego in order for you to choose to seek the Love which is your very own essence and the purity of Spirit Itself.
'To Love!
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Comfort
Several years ago I intitiated the "lets move to warmer climate" conversation with my husband. In the financial realm it was a good time to try it, but he/we hesitated due to familiy commitments. As I look back on that decision today, living in Massachsuetts I say 'ugh'.
Winter is always a quiet time for me. It is the nautral time to go inward, to regroup, to listen. I believe that is Gods way for us, the universal path of nature. Yet, this winter dons a bit more of it, for I am now living in the midst of 30 acres, no other houses, lots of snow and this morning lots of ice. Clients rescheduling, me rescheduling clients, people busy with shoveling.....getting the plow man, the ice man and all coordinated.....the list goes on. This quiet time has taken me into a deeply introspective journey - looking from another perspective on this thing called life.
During the holiday season I was very busy with clients/beloveds in hospice and at end of life rituals. When anyone has three deaths in one week, our energies need a breather - a respite for the heart. And yet I see it as what has been the perfect sedge way into this reclusive philosophical mode I am in. I have found myself standing outside looking in more than usual - and for me, that is quite a bit.
How emotions drive us - in our humanness, this idea of when we do not have the tools to deal with life on an emotional level - we shut down. Truly. Everyone does it. Some of us shut down for one conversation, others for a lifetime. Any of us who are honest at looking within ourselves has to admit, emotional health is where we find our balance. But where does it come from? If the rational mind is in charge, we shut our hearts off from feeling. If our hearts are in charge, we shut off our rational mind from having a say and pulling us out of the goop that is built up in our heart centers.
The other day I witnessed a wonderful, kind, loving mother have a hard conversation with her six year old about dying. The family had recently experienced an unexpected death of the six year olds' great aunt, who was an active part of the family. It was a difficult conversation; not only due to the topic and the age of the interrogator, but because this family does not have strong religious or spiritual foundation - no active faith in the non physical realms. It pained me to listen and when offered to share my wisdom, I was challenged to not look into this childs eyes and say; Honey, your aunt has gone home to heaven to be with God and all her angels. She is never far from your heart, her love will always be with you.
At this tme, it was not my place to bring God or heaven into this family, respecting their beliefs. I believe I said we go home to where we came from, our bodies change into light
and transform into the sky..........but for a six year old, going home to God in heaven may have been a bit more comforting if heaven or God had been a weekly part of their lives. In my eyes, what they do have faith in leads them no where.
I love this family. They are loving and fabulous and going thru a challenging time. Other than the late aunt, there is also depression in the family effecting all of them. Everytime I am with them, I cannot help but be reminded how ones faith in the non physical realm of life is all ways a comfort. Without faith in that which we cannot see, (which is what hope is) a mystery, how does one have emotional health? Emotional balance? If I thought this was it, if like my atheist relatives & aquaintances I believed there was nothing more than 'this' - where in ones heart do we find any comfort? How do I comfort the 75 year old father whose 50 year old daughter just died when he believes this is it, when he believes everything about his daughter is done. Non existent. What does he do with the pain in his heart? I knew his daughter for a year and a half. Her dying left a hole in my heart - I cannot imagine what it left in her families.
But my hole was rapidly filled with acknowledging the loss and knowing she is home with God, at peace and she & I commune at will.
When we do not believe in the non physical apsects of healing, of healing from within, where is the hope for balance? Where is the comfort - the pain will move through my body and one day I will be able to feel my loved one again, hear her voice, watch for signals of her attempting to reach me from the other sdie? Where is the hope?
I often speak of finite vs infinite and in my deep pondering the infinite takes precedant. I see the pain in clients lives who have no faith in a greater goodness. I see the struggle in their lives when they cannot find a sensible, 'rational' way to see the potential of good in a situation. If one only believes in what is in front of them - why even have an imagination, a heart, a prayer?
As I continue my path as a minister, counselor and healer, I come to know more and more each day, that those without faith in the non physical, a spiritual sense of life - suffer the most. I do not like to say this, it sounds too crass, too porochial, too know it all. I hear that, I really do. It takes all I have to write this, to admit it. But I have to. Both my rational mind and my heart see the same thing - when one has no faith in an existence beyond this earthly humanness - dying is hard. To them, death is devastating, a punshment to those left here on this plane. When one cannot lift themselvs up by thier hope filled boot straps in times of darkness - knowing this too shall pass - they wade into the deep end of a dark pool and have to control their existence which then shuts them off from feeling anything at all. Death in body or death in heart?
As I have witnessed many leave this phsyical form, I have witnessed those who feel safe leaving, who have faith in God, who have faith in an after life - leave in peace. Leave beautifully. They have a foundation of faith that this is not it - and believe they are moving into a better life.
I watch souls who suffer from depression and other emotional challenges and my heart opens to their paths. They have chosen difficult paths of resistance -
My hearts goes out to the millions of souls who do not have emotional health, a healthy loving heart - a heart that says yes! There is more, there is another, there is something better! My heart opens to those who do not honor the natural cyles of life and death in all things and believe death is punshment.
We are each here doing the best we can do at any given time, but our potential is always more and we tap into that potential through communion with Spirit. If you are reading this right now and are one of the ones who do not have a conscious spiritual life - PLEASE, create one. Look at the stars and wonder. Go to YOGA. Visit a house of worship/celebration. Contemplate what is behind the thought. Ask before you go to sleep at night to be shown a way to hope, a way to learn about the nonphsyical apsects of this thing we are doing called existing. Please, find a way to have faith in the pure possibilities of a totaly irrational, crazy and unexplainable something. Your heart may just find it comforting.
I want this for you. You have my word, that moving through difficult times is eased with faith that it is better on the other side. With faith that this too shall pass. With faith that we are all right where we need to be. With faith that you have the same potential within you that I with in me and I see your Divinity. With faith that NOTHING is too big, or too hard or too sad or too far gone for God. Nothing.
(As I was finalizing this peice, my heart chakra is wide open, aching with the sharing of this truth. From my heart to yours, with love, Deborah.)
Winter is always a quiet time for me. It is the nautral time to go inward, to regroup, to listen. I believe that is Gods way for us, the universal path of nature. Yet, this winter dons a bit more of it, for I am now living in the midst of 30 acres, no other houses, lots of snow and this morning lots of ice. Clients rescheduling, me rescheduling clients, people busy with shoveling.....getting the plow man, the ice man and all coordinated.....the list goes on. This quiet time has taken me into a deeply introspective journey - looking from another perspective on this thing called life.
During the holiday season I was very busy with clients/beloveds in hospice and at end of life rituals. When anyone has three deaths in one week, our energies need a breather - a respite for the heart. And yet I see it as what has been the perfect sedge way into this reclusive philosophical mode I am in. I have found myself standing outside looking in more than usual - and for me, that is quite a bit.
How emotions drive us - in our humanness, this idea of when we do not have the tools to deal with life on an emotional level - we shut down. Truly. Everyone does it. Some of us shut down for one conversation, others for a lifetime. Any of us who are honest at looking within ourselves has to admit, emotional health is where we find our balance. But where does it come from? If the rational mind is in charge, we shut our hearts off from feeling. If our hearts are in charge, we shut off our rational mind from having a say and pulling us out of the goop that is built up in our heart centers.
The other day I witnessed a wonderful, kind, loving mother have a hard conversation with her six year old about dying. The family had recently experienced an unexpected death of the six year olds' great aunt, who was an active part of the family. It was a difficult conversation; not only due to the topic and the age of the interrogator, but because this family does not have strong religious or spiritual foundation - no active faith in the non physical realms. It pained me to listen and when offered to share my wisdom, I was challenged to not look into this childs eyes and say; Honey, your aunt has gone home to heaven to be with God and all her angels. She is never far from your heart, her love will always be with you.
At this tme, it was not my place to bring God or heaven into this family, respecting their beliefs. I believe I said we go home to where we came from, our bodies change into light
and transform into the sky..........but for a six year old, going home to God in heaven may have been a bit more comforting if heaven or God had been a weekly part of their lives. In my eyes, what they do have faith in leads them no where.
I love this family. They are loving and fabulous and going thru a challenging time. Other than the late aunt, there is also depression in the family effecting all of them. Everytime I am with them, I cannot help but be reminded how ones faith in the non physical realm of life is all ways a comfort. Without faith in that which we cannot see, (which is what hope is) a mystery, how does one have emotional health? Emotional balance? If I thought this was it, if like my atheist relatives & aquaintances I believed there was nothing more than 'this' - where in ones heart do we find any comfort? How do I comfort the 75 year old father whose 50 year old daughter just died when he believes this is it, when he believes everything about his daughter is done. Non existent. What does he do with the pain in his heart? I knew his daughter for a year and a half. Her dying left a hole in my heart - I cannot imagine what it left in her families.
But my hole was rapidly filled with acknowledging the loss and knowing she is home with God, at peace and she & I commune at will.
When we do not believe in the non physical apsects of healing, of healing from within, where is the hope for balance? Where is the comfort - the pain will move through my body and one day I will be able to feel my loved one again, hear her voice, watch for signals of her attempting to reach me from the other sdie? Where is the hope?
I often speak of finite vs infinite and in my deep pondering the infinite takes precedant. I see the pain in clients lives who have no faith in a greater goodness. I see the struggle in their lives when they cannot find a sensible, 'rational' way to see the potential of good in a situation. If one only believes in what is in front of them - why even have an imagination, a heart, a prayer?
As I continue my path as a minister, counselor and healer, I come to know more and more each day, that those without faith in the non physical, a spiritual sense of life - suffer the most. I do not like to say this, it sounds too crass, too porochial, too know it all. I hear that, I really do. It takes all I have to write this, to admit it. But I have to. Both my rational mind and my heart see the same thing - when one has no faith in an existence beyond this earthly humanness - dying is hard. To them, death is devastating, a punshment to those left here on this plane. When one cannot lift themselvs up by thier hope filled boot straps in times of darkness - knowing this too shall pass - they wade into the deep end of a dark pool and have to control their existence which then shuts them off from feeling anything at all. Death in body or death in heart?
As I have witnessed many leave this phsyical form, I have witnessed those who feel safe leaving, who have faith in God, who have faith in an after life - leave in peace. Leave beautifully. They have a foundation of faith that this is not it - and believe they are moving into a better life.
I watch souls who suffer from depression and other emotional challenges and my heart opens to their paths. They have chosen difficult paths of resistance -
My hearts goes out to the millions of souls who do not have emotional health, a healthy loving heart - a heart that says yes! There is more, there is another, there is something better! My heart opens to those who do not honor the natural cyles of life and death in all things and believe death is punshment.
We are each here doing the best we can do at any given time, but our potential is always more and we tap into that potential through communion with Spirit. If you are reading this right now and are one of the ones who do not have a conscious spiritual life - PLEASE, create one. Look at the stars and wonder. Go to YOGA. Visit a house of worship/celebration. Contemplate what is behind the thought. Ask before you go to sleep at night to be shown a way to hope, a way to learn about the nonphsyical apsects of this thing we are doing called existing. Please, find a way to have faith in the pure possibilities of a totaly irrational, crazy and unexplainable something. Your heart may just find it comforting.
I want this for you. You have my word, that moving through difficult times is eased with faith that it is better on the other side. With faith that this too shall pass. With faith that we are all right where we need to be. With faith that you have the same potential within you that I with in me and I see your Divinity. With faith that NOTHING is too big, or too hard or too sad or too far gone for God. Nothing.
(As I was finalizing this peice, my heart chakra is wide open, aching with the sharing of this truth. From my heart to yours, with love, Deborah.)
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Determination
Last week I clicked the TV to Joyce Meyers Ministry - now you know, if you did not already; I enjoy television Evangelists, ministers, etc. Yes, even Benny Hinn sometimes gets my attention. But, back to Joyce. I really like her. Really. Yes, she interprets the bible more traditionally than I - but we seem to get to the same place.
What do I like about her? I love her passion for what she does. I love that I heard her once tell the story that when she was newly married, she thought something was wrong with her - she did not care about the garden, the laundry, the housework, the dinners, the color of the walls. All she cared about was preaching. She stated how much easier her life may have been had she been able to be like her perfect housewife neighbor; but alas, she was to preach and that is what she does.
The other day Joyce Meyers was speaking about determination. I never thought of it as spiritual attribute before - until I listened to her speak about how determined the (devil) is to get us. As I/we may say; our ego (egding God out) is out to get us! Our ego will do whatever it takes to make us believe it is in charge. We HAVE to be determined to know the good in this life. We have to be DETERMINED in our faith and belief and knowing that good prevails; even in the darkest of times.
I have been giving the word determined some time this week. Am I determined enough? Have I been
determined enough in my ministry, in my life, in my dreams. To answer honestly, no. I am determined enough in the moment of being with a loved one, in the very moments of giving a Sunday talk, in the action of a service of any kind - I am all-ways determined when it has to do with obvious God faithed moments - but what about the other moments?...and are not ALL moments God faithed moments?! What about the inner moments of doubt? Where is the determination then? And what allows a person to feel or rather to embody determination?
We KNOW when we are truly determined. And for me, being determined takes on a spiritual energy when we are determined even though the outcome on the linear plane looks not so great. We have to find ourselves determined for God! We must engage in determination when we want to see attributes of God flourishing in our lives.
The addict can doubt their own courage; but be determined to say NO! and see God come through with the courage. Determination which comes from ones Love for Spirit is opposite of determination which comes from the ego, the I can do this. I KNOW God can do this, I KNOW God can clean me up, can take away my anger, can calm my fears; I KNOW Gods courage can show up here and I am determined to see that courage, to feel that courage, to embody that courage.
In our darkest moments, in order to prevail, we say; God, I am determined here. I am utterly, purely and passionately determined to see You - so I will take this step, this one step and then watch for You. I will go to an AA meeting, I will walk into that clinic, I will tell the truth to my family, I will let go what I thought everything should look like, admit what it feels like and be determined to feel your Grace to pour through me!
Be determined to NOT let lack get you. Be DETERMINED to create space for goodness in your journey through waking the talk - show up - God WILL do the rest.
"Today I will do the best I can - and leave the rest to God."
What do I like about her? I love her passion for what she does. I love that I heard her once tell the story that when she was newly married, she thought something was wrong with her - she did not care about the garden, the laundry, the housework, the dinners, the color of the walls. All she cared about was preaching. She stated how much easier her life may have been had she been able to be like her perfect housewife neighbor; but alas, she was to preach and that is what she does.
The other day Joyce Meyers was speaking about determination. I never thought of it as spiritual attribute before - until I listened to her speak about how determined the (devil) is to get us. As I/we may say; our ego (egding God out) is out to get us! Our ego will do whatever it takes to make us believe it is in charge. We HAVE to be determined to know the good in this life. We have to be DETERMINED in our faith and belief and knowing that good prevails; even in the darkest of times.
I have been giving the word determined some time this week. Am I determined enough? Have I been
determined enough in my ministry, in my life, in my dreams. To answer honestly, no. I am determined enough in the moment of being with a loved one, in the very moments of giving a Sunday talk, in the action of a service of any kind - I am all-ways determined when it has to do with obvious God faithed moments - but what about the other moments?...and are not ALL moments God faithed moments?! What about the inner moments of doubt? Where is the determination then? And what allows a person to feel or rather to embody determination?
We KNOW when we are truly determined. And for me, being determined takes on a spiritual energy when we are determined even though the outcome on the linear plane looks not so great. We have to find ourselves determined for God! We must engage in determination when we want to see attributes of God flourishing in our lives.
The addict can doubt their own courage; but be determined to say NO! and see God come through with the courage. Determination which comes from ones Love for Spirit is opposite of determination which comes from the ego, the I can do this. I KNOW God can do this, I KNOW God can clean me up, can take away my anger, can calm my fears; I KNOW Gods courage can show up here and I am determined to see that courage, to feel that courage, to embody that courage.
In our darkest moments, in order to prevail, we say; God, I am determined here. I am utterly, purely and passionately determined to see You - so I will take this step, this one step and then watch for You. I will go to an AA meeting, I will walk into that clinic, I will tell the truth to my family, I will let go what I thought everything should look like, admit what it feels like and be determined to feel your Grace to pour through me!
Be determined to NOT let lack get you. Be DETERMINED to create space for goodness in your journey through waking the talk - show up - God WILL do the rest.
"Today I will do the best I can - and leave the rest to God."
Monday, January 3, 2011
What is my Religion?
Often I find it awkward trying to describe what it is I have faith in; exactly. That is, when asked by those who do not share my beliefs and/or have not had an experience of Spirit -God. But, I do believe this will change that. And please, let me begin by stating I overwhelmed in a very positive way, at the moment, with the palpable presence of Spirit.
A Story:
Last week I found myself at The Merrimack Valley Hospice, sitting with & supporting a beloveds family as she made her transition into the non-physical. Her name is Maureen. The last time we spoke, she and I had promised that I would remain open to her making her presence known to me, and she had my permission to try whatever she could to reach me from the other side.
In the midst of my being with her family I (coincidentally) received a phone call from a beloved who lives in Louisiana asking me about her friends end of life process and hospice. I also noticed a man I remembered. He was walking in and out of a patients room, I assuming it was a parent of his. I recognized him from having seen him a few years ago with an old friend of mine. They had been at a play, sitting in front of me, with this lovely woman I had known years and years ago. A woman who I had shared a past life with - a woman who had been an active part of my life twenty years ago. His presence made me think of her, this woman with who I shared so much - the same college, being an artist, dating the same men with hysterical frequency, children the same age..............and having shared the first portrait of Jesus I had ever seen, she had painted. We were ten years apart in age, but from the moment we met at her college graduation, we were akin. But, I did not know him, and simply sent blessings to his journey and his beloveds process.
The last day I was at hospice, Spirit told me to linger a while after my purpose had been fulfilled with her family. Shortly after that in came a new patient, escorted by her daughter who I had married. The patient was an acquaintance from Newburyport. I had a moment to be with her daughter. A blessing. Then Spirit told me to visit the chapel before I left. On
the outside of the chapel was there was a sign with the names of the givers - and I read the name of the man who oversees the Trust of the property I caretake.
I received the call Maureen had transitioned two days latter. As I drove into Newburyport from Boxford, on a road I have taken hundreds of times, I asked out loud for Maureen to let me know she had arrived safely - and I had to slow my car down and then I saw it, a road sign, Maureen Lane. I had never seen this before.
Yesterday as I was thinking about her memorial and planning my thoughts around my words I asked Spirit to show me her obituary. I awoke this morning in the wee hours to find my husband had bought the Globe, which since we are now a cyber paper reading family was odd. There it was, Maureen's obituary, just as I had asked. And also, there it was, the unexpected - my old friends obituary - she had died one day after Maureen, in the same hospice. The man I recognized had been with his beloved as she died. Our pathes continued to cross. I had walked by her room. Our lifelines, our knowing of one another, from lifetimes ago.
Twenty years ago I went for a past life regression and learned that this woman, called Erin in this life and I had been lovers. She had died in my arms during the Martin Luther religious wars. Her name had been Caterine, mine had been David. I was protestant, a soldier. She was Catholic, a maiden. When I shared my experience with her she cried. She had just written a short story the previous week and our story was her short story! And her daughter in this present life, her first word was Caterine - and no one knew why.
So it appears that Maureen let me know she arrived on the Other Side - and that Erin,(Caterine) and I shared another dying process.
And so it continues - my deep Faith in this called Life. That at any one moment all emotions and aspects of life and death are happening. That the bigness and infinite sense of this thing called Life is more immense than we could possibly imagine. That God is CONSTANTLY present - and that we are eternally connected. We are connected through the Great Creator and we will always be. Nothing dies - it continues in a new form. My religion? To remain open, at all times, to the non-physical aspects of God, that which connects us in Love.
A Story:
Last week I found myself at The Merrimack Valley Hospice, sitting with & supporting a beloveds family as she made her transition into the non-physical. Her name is Maureen. The last time we spoke, she and I had promised that I would remain open to her making her presence known to me, and she had my permission to try whatever she could to reach me from the other side.
In the midst of my being with her family I (coincidentally) received a phone call from a beloved who lives in Louisiana asking me about her friends end of life process and hospice. I also noticed a man I remembered. He was walking in and out of a patients room, I assuming it was a parent of his. I recognized him from having seen him a few years ago with an old friend of mine. They had been at a play, sitting in front of me, with this lovely woman I had known years and years ago. A woman who I had shared a past life with - a woman who had been an active part of my life twenty years ago. His presence made me think of her, this woman with who I shared so much - the same college, being an artist, dating the same men with hysterical frequency, children the same age..............and having shared the first portrait of Jesus I had ever seen, she had painted. We were ten years apart in age, but from the moment we met at her college graduation, we were akin. But, I did not know him, and simply sent blessings to his journey and his beloveds process.
The last day I was at hospice, Spirit told me to linger a while after my purpose had been fulfilled with her family. Shortly after that in came a new patient, escorted by her daughter who I had married. The patient was an acquaintance from Newburyport. I had a moment to be with her daughter. A blessing. Then Spirit told me to visit the chapel before I left. On
the outside of the chapel was there was a sign with the names of the givers - and I read the name of the man who oversees the Trust of the property I caretake.
I received the call Maureen had transitioned two days latter. As I drove into Newburyport from Boxford, on a road I have taken hundreds of times, I asked out loud for Maureen to let me know she had arrived safely - and I had to slow my car down and then I saw it, a road sign, Maureen Lane. I had never seen this before.
Yesterday as I was thinking about her memorial and planning my thoughts around my words I asked Spirit to show me her obituary. I awoke this morning in the wee hours to find my husband had bought the Globe, which since we are now a cyber paper reading family was odd. There it was, Maureen's obituary, just as I had asked. And also, there it was, the unexpected - my old friends obituary - she had died one day after Maureen, in the same hospice. The man I recognized had been with his beloved as she died. Our pathes continued to cross. I had walked by her room. Our lifelines, our knowing of one another, from lifetimes ago.
Twenty years ago I went for a past life regression and learned that this woman, called Erin in this life and I had been lovers. She had died in my arms during the Martin Luther religious wars. Her name had been Caterine, mine had been David. I was protestant, a soldier. She was Catholic, a maiden. When I shared my experience with her she cried. She had just written a short story the previous week and our story was her short story! And her daughter in this present life, her first word was Caterine - and no one knew why.
So it appears that Maureen let me know she arrived on the Other Side - and that Erin,(Caterine) and I shared another dying process.
And so it continues - my deep Faith in this called Life. That at any one moment all emotions and aspects of life and death are happening. That the bigness and infinite sense of this thing called Life is more immense than we could possibly imagine. That God is CONSTANTLY present - and that we are eternally connected. We are connected through the Great Creator and we will always be. Nothing dies - it continues in a new form. My religion? To remain open, at all times, to the non-physical aspects of God, that which connects us in Love.
Friday, December 31, 2010
Bloated Nothingness
"Let us get our bloated nothingness out of the way of Divine Circuits." - Ralph Waldo Emerson.
Okay, there you have it - my New Years resolution, prayer & cry! Dear God, Divine Perfection, Great Mystery - starting right now, in this very moment, may I get my bloated nothingness out of the way of Your eternal Perfection in all things. Talk about being set free!
Signs of BLOATED NOTHINGNESS
1. The inability to laugh at oneself.
2. The belief that everyone else is wrong.
3........or even that someone else is wrong.
4. The thought that you cannot be this until you have that.
5. The idea that you know more about someone elses life than they know about their own.
6. The idea that another person has to become something different in order for you to be happy.
7. In your vocabulary there is often these words heard: You should, I know, I want, I have to, You have to, Do it this way.......................................
8. You think your way is the only way.
9. You talk more than you listen.
10. You find yourself listening more to yourself, than discerning through Spirit.
I don't know abut your bloated nothingness, (chances are pretty good they are close in nature!) but mine can pop up at the most unusual places. In places that have nothing to do with itself - like your opinions, your thoughts, your ideas and your life style. My bloated nothingness thinks it has a say with your life. Imagine its audacity and humbleness when it finds out it has no more illusion of power to stomp around thinking it is, or it knows, or even that it exists at all!
I give it credit though, for nothingness it sure can be loud. This bloated nothingness can herald in my mind like 76 trombones about the most unimportant things! (Like why did you leave your sweater here, why didn't you take it upstairs, why did you say that? Why are you not thinking like me?...blah, blah, blah...) And in my years of this life experience, I have discovered through very finite & credible investigation that bloated nothingness loves to attach itself to the past, to what was. It is so full of nothingness that it sucks upon the past as if it is important! This bloated nothingness can tell stories in grand style, stories of what was and it can make you believe it will be that way again! This bloated nothingness feeds upon the tinest, weakest speck of *&^&^%$ and feeds it until it breaks out if its cage and can feel like slime throughout your heart and spirit! For nothingness it can sure weigh you down and cause you to doubt your own good. And the most amazing thing about our own bloated nothingness is the more we pay attention to it, the more space we think it takes up and this gerbil wheel of nothingness cranks itself up to high speed until we fall to our knees and say 'enough!'.
So, I invite you to join me in this New Years resolution to allow, yes, allow, with great faith in the yet unknown - to allow yourself to step out of the way of your bloated nothingness - that's it, simply step a bit to the left, a bit to the right, go ahead, like a swift cat bravely take the slightest curve in a new direction and get out of its way - and INTO the way of Divine Circuitry! That's it, step from one lane into another, from one thought to another, from one breath to another - go ahead, with intention say no to your bloated nothingness and say yes to the flow of Gods Goodness and Grace to pour through you. Go ahead, step right into Divine Circuitry and let the electric shocks of God love and immensity take you for the ride of your existence!
In this New Year may those who consciously choose, be magnified through the allowing of Divine Circuitry - passion, faith, joy, health, peace, kindness, hope, creativity, wealth, abundance, laughter, lightness, wisdom, Spiritual partnership, strength, courage........to all the good the Universe has prepared!
with my love & Spirit filled blessings of all that you can possibly dream -
Deborah
Okay, there you have it - my New Years resolution, prayer & cry! Dear God, Divine Perfection, Great Mystery - starting right now, in this very moment, may I get my bloated nothingness out of the way of Your eternal Perfection in all things. Talk about being set free!
Signs of BLOATED NOTHINGNESS
1. The inability to laugh at oneself.
2. The belief that everyone else is wrong.
3........or even that someone else is wrong.
4. The thought that you cannot be this until you have that.
5. The idea that you know more about someone elses life than they know about their own.
6. The idea that another person has to become something different in order for you to be happy.
7. In your vocabulary there is often these words heard: You should, I know, I want, I have to, You have to, Do it this way.......................................
8. You think your way is the only way.
9. You talk more than you listen.
10. You find yourself listening more to yourself, than discerning through Spirit.
I don't know abut your bloated nothingness, (chances are pretty good they are close in nature!) but mine can pop up at the most unusual places. In places that have nothing to do with itself - like your opinions, your thoughts, your ideas and your life style. My bloated nothingness thinks it has a say with your life. Imagine its audacity and humbleness when it finds out it has no more illusion of power to stomp around thinking it is, or it knows, or even that it exists at all!
I give it credit though, for nothingness it sure can be loud. This bloated nothingness can herald in my mind like 76 trombones about the most unimportant things! (Like why did you leave your sweater here, why didn't you take it upstairs, why did you say that? Why are you not thinking like me?...blah, blah, blah...) And in my years of this life experience, I have discovered through very finite & credible investigation that bloated nothingness loves to attach itself to the past, to what was. It is so full of nothingness that it sucks upon the past as if it is important! This bloated nothingness can tell stories in grand style, stories of what was and it can make you believe it will be that way again! This bloated nothingness feeds upon the tinest, weakest speck of *&^&^%$ and feeds it until it breaks out if its cage and can feel like slime throughout your heart and spirit! For nothingness it can sure weigh you down and cause you to doubt your own good. And the most amazing thing about our own bloated nothingness is the more we pay attention to it, the more space we think it takes up and this gerbil wheel of nothingness cranks itself up to high speed until we fall to our knees and say 'enough!'.
So, I invite you to join me in this New Years resolution to allow, yes, allow, with great faith in the yet unknown - to allow yourself to step out of the way of your bloated nothingness - that's it, simply step a bit to the left, a bit to the right, go ahead, like a swift cat bravely take the slightest curve in a new direction and get out of its way - and INTO the way of Divine Circuitry! That's it, step from one lane into another, from one thought to another, from one breath to another - go ahead, with intention say no to your bloated nothingness and say yes to the flow of Gods Goodness and Grace to pour through you. Go ahead, step right into Divine Circuitry and let the electric shocks of God love and immensity take you for the ride of your existence!
In this New Year may those who consciously choose, be magnified through the allowing of Divine Circuitry - passion, faith, joy, health, peace, kindness, hope, creativity, wealth, abundance, laughter, lightness, wisdom, Spiritual partnership, strength, courage........to all the good the Universe has prepared!
with my love & Spirit filled blessings of all that you can possibly dream -
Deborah
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Seasonal Greeting
Dear Beloveds;
From deep in my heart I greet you, hug you, wrap my arms around you - smile at you, witness you & feel your presence - welcome to another day.
We must always be reminded that nothing is against us - that God is all-ways for us. It is Spirits undeniable calling which rustles up the uncomfortable-ness and beckons us to call upon the attributes of God which will relieve us from our own disillusionments.
I know a man whose wife is dying. I sit with her and her light is so very bright, her presence of faith is palpable in every word she speaks. She is present with family, friends, and hospice support. Despite her earth walk; her mind is attached to faith in Good, to gratitude for this moment she is being given, to the love which surrounds her. Yet, he, her spouse; is filled with rage, anger and fear. He cannot be in a room with more than two people. Through immense vibration, his heart is forced open by the love in the room! Because his heart is so filled with anger, grief and rage at God, when he is in the vibration of so much love - he runs; his body, his pain is forced to be felt - for anything unlike the Light is released unto the Universal Presence - and all that will remain is the Love.
It is the releasing, the transitional time, the transformational process - those moments where if there is resistance - we will experience struggle.
It is always during this season of Light, this time of year when many are aware of the Love of the Creator - that darkness - or simply that which is not of God - is seen. It often is this time of year when family pain, conflict of the heart, struggles of the path are seen so clearly. The vibrations of the Light; the strength of Love shows all that is unlike Itself. God calling upon God.
And it is in these very moments; in these times of conflict when we can say:
“Lead me to The Love in my Heart - Lead me to that which is greater than I - take my hand and relieve me of any burdens - Spirit of Light, Divine Consciousness, I say yes to unconditional Love, I say yes to Faith in Goodness, I release control and choose You. I let go of fear, I discern from my heart center, I know the Light of You is in every cell of my being – I affirm the Light of You is in the cell of every being I know. I open to You – I am seeing, feeling and being in this time of transformation because You are shining so brightly! I am feeling this conflict, this pain, because You are calling the You within me – and in this very breath I get out of the way! I allow the God outside of me, to merge with the God within me; and through this at-one-ment I am healed. I am whole in this moment. I am knowing, feeling, aware of Your Divine Presence of Light – and all who are around me can see this, all who hear my voice can feel this – You! I thank you sweet Spirit for this moment of revelation – for revealing Yourself through me, through this experience of Oneness.”
God Blesses You - you are the Light of Spirit-
Deborah
From deep in my heart I greet you, hug you, wrap my arms around you - smile at you, witness you & feel your presence - welcome to another day.
We must always be reminded that nothing is against us - that God is all-ways for us. It is Spirits undeniable calling which rustles up the uncomfortable-ness and beckons us to call upon the attributes of God which will relieve us from our own disillusionments.
I know a man whose wife is dying. I sit with her and her light is so very bright, her presence of faith is palpable in every word she speaks. She is present with family, friends, and hospice support. Despite her earth walk; her mind is attached to faith in Good, to gratitude for this moment she is being given, to the love which surrounds her. Yet, he, her spouse; is filled with rage, anger and fear. He cannot be in a room with more than two people. Through immense vibration, his heart is forced open by the love in the room! Because his heart is so filled with anger, grief and rage at God, when he is in the vibration of so much love - he runs; his body, his pain is forced to be felt - for anything unlike the Light is released unto the Universal Presence - and all that will remain is the Love.
It is the releasing, the transitional time, the transformational process - those moments where if there is resistance - we will experience struggle.
It is always during this season of Light, this time of year when many are aware of the Love of the Creator - that darkness - or simply that which is not of God - is seen. It often is this time of year when family pain, conflict of the heart, struggles of the path are seen so clearly. The vibrations of the Light; the strength of Love shows all that is unlike Itself. God calling upon God.
And it is in these very moments; in these times of conflict when we can say:
“Lead me to The Love in my Heart - Lead me to that which is greater than I - take my hand and relieve me of any burdens - Spirit of Light, Divine Consciousness, I say yes to unconditional Love, I say yes to Faith in Goodness, I release control and choose You. I let go of fear, I discern from my heart center, I know the Light of You is in every cell of my being – I affirm the Light of You is in the cell of every being I know. I open to You – I am seeing, feeling and being in this time of transformation because You are shining so brightly! I am feeling this conflict, this pain, because You are calling the You within me – and in this very breath I get out of the way! I allow the God outside of me, to merge with the God within me; and through this at-one-ment I am healed. I am whole in this moment. I am knowing, feeling, aware of Your Divine Presence of Light – and all who are around me can see this, all who hear my voice can feel this – You! I thank you sweet Spirit for this moment of revelation – for revealing Yourself through me, through this experience of Oneness.”
God Blesses You - you are the Light of Spirit-
Deborah
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