Advent is a favorite time of year for me. The going within, the weekly reminders of the season - and this past first Sunday of Advent was a celebration of Faith. The church service I went to was perfect for me - faith was explained from the eyes of Mary - being asked to have faith in her calling to mother, to walk in faith as she was asked to do what was looked upon as irreverent, wrong and in biblical times; reason for stoning or worse - an unmarried woman, pregnant. We were brought to consider Mary's perception, fears and courage - it was, in all the first Advent Sunday Faith topics I have heard and given - perhaps my favorite. The music, the words, the energy - it was wonderful.
In my inner sanctum of self, the place I went to during this vibrant message was the virgin part - how we are each virgins in the essence of being asked to have faith in anything which is new to us. And of course, this is the only time we need faith, when something is new, when we have not done it before, when our built in ego screams; No! Usually we feel okay, unruffled when asked by Spirit to do something we have done before - something not new to us - BUT when we are guided to do yet another NEW thing - to get up and move, to say yes to a new endeavor, to take a brand new action - it is that uncertainty of exposure, that wavering and sometimes relentless voice of ego that we cannot succeed, that gut wrenching fear of the unknown which rears its ugly head.
What I have observed in my years of ministry is that it truly is fear itself, not the goal which takes our humanness over. Look at the conversations we avoid, the class we put off for literally years, the move we always yearn to take and never do, the volunteer program we seem to never have time for......that church we never get to. Take a moment and consider all the experiences you so neatly avoid.
I know, when the time is right, when the stars align, when all the pieces fall into place we will make the move. But, what about answering the call? What about trusting the vibrant call from God to say YES! Perhaps all that is missing is saying YES.
And this can be about what appears to be the smallest of actions, the least life changing choices, the simplest of shifts.
There is no doubt that our lives become easier when we have Faith in God, the Universal Isness, the Great Cosmic Perfection - to support our choices, our actions, our prayers. It is important for us to surround ourselves with others who support our dreams, our ideas, our hopes, our prayers. Some of us have that in partnership, others have family, or community - like minded souls where being in their vibration helps to support your own dreams and visions. Yet, when we take on God as our partner, all things are possible. When we take on the cloak of Faith in saying yes to our dreams and hopes - when we discern through prayer what it is we are to do - no matter how minute or 'unimportant' the action may seem; we are claiming our good.
Mary claimed her good through faith in God. When an angel speaks, one listens!
I was reading a piece today from Dr Ernest Holmes, founder of Religious Science. He spoke about the fact that the only reason it is more difficult to manifest one million dollars than a dime is because someone told us. Somewhere along the life path, someone said a million is better, worth more than a dime and therefore is more difficult to manifest. Because someone told us. The holy connection begins right there - someone told us.
Listen to people who love, adore and believe in you. Tell everyone you know; yes, you can succeed. Provide positive support to friends and family and strangers alike; Yes, you can. I feel my interior cringe when I hear people say no. No, that cannot be done - no, that is a bad idea - no, that won't work. No, that is too hard - no, that sounds too difficult - no, that is not necessary - no, I do not have enough money - no, I have to wait, no, no, no, no. NO, its too hard - no, it has not been done before - no, I have never done that - no, I have always done it this way. No, no, no. Way too many no's in the world.
Yes,......sometimes we have to say no to what we do not want in order to say yes to what we do want. Say no to the fears, no to the voices in the head, no to anyone who is not supportive. This also takes faith, trusting in the not yet revealed, knowing God is always working for our Good.
Mary said Yes. And in saying Yes through her faith in God, Joseph joined her. She was given all she needed. God provided. Faith in the unseen, in the yet not experienced. No to the old stories and fears. Our faith is the bridge to the Cosmicness of life - Yes to and through our Faith. Faith in God can give us the courage to surrender and simply say 'yes.'
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I said yes this past Sunday in going to a church I once had been part of, but had not been to in maybe two or more years. Seeing old friends and aquantiances fed me. And the BEST was there were other woman who had felt called and had not been for 1- 3 years! We all said yes. There was an old friend who just happened to be in town from Pittsburg! The joy list goes on and on. I said yes and it was wonderful!
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Driven to Distraction
In this most recent inward search I am presently in the midst of, every day more poignant and relative awareness's are revealed. God, this Great Isness of Life is all-ways working for us, if we would just get out of the way. But in our humanness, we are driven to distraction, as the title of one of the all time best selling books on ADD in adulthood is aptly named; away from a God focus and faith. It use to be called 'the devil' or others have called it 'satan', or as I like to say; error thinking. In error thinking the all time biggest and most relevant sin is the sin of omission - the omission of God awareness, faith in God - in any given moment. You see, it is so easy to stray from our Truth. To stray from what we know to be true for us; that we are children of God and all things are possible with God.
I have strayed. And I know this because I have felt the physical manifestations of misalignment's in my body. My heart sings of disgruntledness. My left arm has been in pain, telling me I am not receiving well and carrying too many burdens. And yesterday, in the midst of a healing session with me as the beloved; I heard my kidneys and other elements of flow speak loudly of their imbalance and need for attention.
We all stray. It is the nature of being human. Even the most faith filled, spiritually practiced being will find him or herself at some point being tempted to being distracted away from what they believe in. For me, I know God. I know and believe in God to heal, fix, align, speak, touch, create, answer........at my beckon call. I know for a fact and beyond a shadow of doubt that God is here for me, that as long as I listen and take action upon Spirits guidance; life works out amazingly! And yet, I allow myself to get distracted. I forget. I fail to call upon.
Distraction and spiritual practice are friends. In a deep spiritual practice, the element of distraction will always attempt to sway you. And in the midst of being distracted - God will always be calling. It is the Divine Nature of both.
Distraction looks different for everyone, but we all know it. For the alcoholic it is the old friend who still calls but your relationship is built around five pm cocktails. Old friends. Now that's a powerful distraction. That one comes in many relationships. We outgrow them, or grow through them and still hang on. Ex's, was-bands, platonic friends. It is the energy which bonds you. Sometimes, even our families distract us. (Who does not know this one?!) We know what we know and then one person says one thing and zoooooooooooooooooom - we get sucked right in to old habits of thought, not even realizing we are allowing the energy of that old, negative, non empowering thought to plant another seed in our spiritual awareness. In that moment we are straying from our faith.
Distraction can be as easy and simple as a dinner invitation - and you are too afraid to say no thank you to the meat in case you hurt someones feelings because you chose to become a vegetarian and took a personal vow to your guru that you would never eat another soul again. Distraction can be the person you respect saying to you; that's silly, do you have any proof? And you shy away like a puppy with your tail between your legs and the teeniest seed of doubt is planted...........distraction can be a mate who does not take the journey with us or a brother or sister who thinks we are nuts. Or the distraction can be ever so subtle - do you have a cold? ....and then you begin thinking...do I? Do I believe in colds? I don't believe in germs......why would I have a cold? I take Zinc everyday- but they think I have a cold, may be I do believe in colds.....blah, blah, blah.
Distraction is a nasty little varmint. It keeps us caged up in our own fears with God doing whatever it takes to get our attention because we are so deeply loved by Spirit. You and I are so deeply loved by God that in Its infinite power and wisdom, God will do whatever It takes to get us to know It. It is the very Nature of God to mirror our beliefs to us in the outside world so we have an opportunity to see ourselves clearly. And we all know, sometimes we do not like what we see.
Recently, I have allowed myself to be distracted. As a minister, counselor, teacher - I have gotten caught up in my beloveds stories. I have begun to believe the lies they tell me about themselves. I am sick, they say and then I pay attention to the illness, knowing full well they are NOT sick. They are NOT the sickness, they are experiencing a time of imbalance and God is speaking to them to get back on track and pay attention to the possibilities of life. This is too hard...they whine. I then believe it IS too hard.....I can get caught up in ego - that I am the one healing, fixing, aligning them. I can forget that this is Gods work and God is the one healing and the God in them is connecting with God outside of them and they are dancing together into the realm of balance and harmony. When I forget, when I begin to think I am separate from God and have any authority what so ever; I become disgruntled. My heart feels sad and disconnected from Its source of Love - and it is - I am distracted from the Truth.
If we are going to say we believe, if we are going to choose to walk with God the Good, if we are going to speak of Truth - then we have to Trust - and no matter how it looks, seems or appears from any one elses perception - we keep saying 'Yes, God, yes'.
Our bodies are the best vehicle God has for talking with us. This is where God knows It will get our attention. Hey, you allowed yourself to be distracted so this is going to hurt for a while until you get back on board with me! Can you hear me now?????
I admit lately, in vulnerable honesty, I have found myself exhausted from all the whiney-nss I hear. People whine a lot. They whine about this and that. They whine for YEARS about the SAME thing, over and over again. Since this whiney-ness has been bothering me so immensely I innately know and trust the Law; that I am the one who is whining. I am being shown that I am whining about something and I better get off the pot, sort to speak, and get going in another direction! I am whining because I became distracted and forgot that all things are possible with God. It doesn't much matter who distracted me, or why or how. What does matter is that in one fleeting moment of time I left my faith. I turned away from God, from my faith in goodness and all that I believe in and then that moment built on this and on that and it got bigger and larger and heavier and older until oooooooooops...... there it is. Oh, look at that. Yuck.
This is what happens when we turn away from ourselves. Which comes first, the turning away or the distraction? Can't see the distraction until you turn away...and cannot turn away unless there is a distraction..............................does it matter? No. What matters is the Truth.
Now, here is some real juiciness - when I met my husband he was part of a band called..."The Distractions". Ah-ha, yes, for real, honest. And it always bothered me, that name. It felt irreverent and I did not know why. Now I do.
In Gods Light and with much love, Deborah
I have strayed. And I know this because I have felt the physical manifestations of misalignment's in my body. My heart sings of disgruntledness. My left arm has been in pain, telling me I am not receiving well and carrying too many burdens. And yesterday, in the midst of a healing session with me as the beloved; I heard my kidneys and other elements of flow speak loudly of their imbalance and need for attention.
We all stray. It is the nature of being human. Even the most faith filled, spiritually practiced being will find him or herself at some point being tempted to being distracted away from what they believe in. For me, I know God. I know and believe in God to heal, fix, align, speak, touch, create, answer........at my beckon call. I know for a fact and beyond a shadow of doubt that God is here for me, that as long as I listen and take action upon Spirits guidance; life works out amazingly! And yet, I allow myself to get distracted. I forget. I fail to call upon.
Distraction and spiritual practice are friends. In a deep spiritual practice, the element of distraction will always attempt to sway you. And in the midst of being distracted - God will always be calling. It is the Divine Nature of both.
Distraction looks different for everyone, but we all know it. For the alcoholic it is the old friend who still calls but your relationship is built around five pm cocktails. Old friends. Now that's a powerful distraction. That one comes in many relationships. We outgrow them, or grow through them and still hang on. Ex's, was-bands, platonic friends. It is the energy which bonds you. Sometimes, even our families distract us. (Who does not know this one?!) We know what we know and then one person says one thing and zoooooooooooooooooom - we get sucked right in to old habits of thought, not even realizing we are allowing the energy of that old, negative, non empowering thought to plant another seed in our spiritual awareness. In that moment we are straying from our faith.
Distraction can be as easy and simple as a dinner invitation - and you are too afraid to say no thank you to the meat in case you hurt someones feelings because you chose to become a vegetarian and took a personal vow to your guru that you would never eat another soul again. Distraction can be the person you respect saying to you; that's silly, do you have any proof? And you shy away like a puppy with your tail between your legs and the teeniest seed of doubt is planted...........distraction can be a mate who does not take the journey with us or a brother or sister who thinks we are nuts. Or the distraction can be ever so subtle - do you have a cold? ....and then you begin thinking...do I? Do I believe in colds? I don't believe in germs......why would I have a cold? I take Zinc everyday- but they think I have a cold, may be I do believe in colds.....blah, blah, blah.
Distraction is a nasty little varmint. It keeps us caged up in our own fears with God doing whatever it takes to get our attention because we are so deeply loved by Spirit. You and I are so deeply loved by God that in Its infinite power and wisdom, God will do whatever It takes to get us to know It. It is the very Nature of God to mirror our beliefs to us in the outside world so we have an opportunity to see ourselves clearly. And we all know, sometimes we do not like what we see.
Recently, I have allowed myself to be distracted. As a minister, counselor, teacher - I have gotten caught up in my beloveds stories. I have begun to believe the lies they tell me about themselves. I am sick, they say and then I pay attention to the illness, knowing full well they are NOT sick. They are NOT the sickness, they are experiencing a time of imbalance and God is speaking to them to get back on track and pay attention to the possibilities of life. This is too hard...they whine. I then believe it IS too hard.....I can get caught up in ego - that I am the one healing, fixing, aligning them. I can forget that this is Gods work and God is the one healing and the God in them is connecting with God outside of them and they are dancing together into the realm of balance and harmony. When I forget, when I begin to think I am separate from God and have any authority what so ever; I become disgruntled. My heart feels sad and disconnected from Its source of Love - and it is - I am distracted from the Truth.
If we are going to say we believe, if we are going to choose to walk with God the Good, if we are going to speak of Truth - then we have to Trust - and no matter how it looks, seems or appears from any one elses perception - we keep saying 'Yes, God, yes'.
Our bodies are the best vehicle God has for talking with us. This is where God knows It will get our attention. Hey, you allowed yourself to be distracted so this is going to hurt for a while until you get back on board with me! Can you hear me now?????
I admit lately, in vulnerable honesty, I have found myself exhausted from all the whiney-nss I hear. People whine a lot. They whine about this and that. They whine for YEARS about the SAME thing, over and over again. Since this whiney-ness has been bothering me so immensely I innately know and trust the Law; that I am the one who is whining. I am being shown that I am whining about something and I better get off the pot, sort to speak, and get going in another direction! I am whining because I became distracted and forgot that all things are possible with God. It doesn't much matter who distracted me, or why or how. What does matter is that in one fleeting moment of time I left my faith. I turned away from God, from my faith in goodness and all that I believe in and then that moment built on this and on that and it got bigger and larger and heavier and older until oooooooooops...... there it is. Oh, look at that. Yuck.
This is what happens when we turn away from ourselves. Which comes first, the turning away or the distraction? Can't see the distraction until you turn away...and cannot turn away unless there is a distraction..............................does it matter? No. What matters is the Truth.
YOU are a bright, beaming, beautiful Light of God. YOU are an energetic spark of the Universal Consciousness we call God, this Great Isness of Life. YOU have within you an innate awareness of Love. This Love, when focused upon, paid attention to, nurtured, celebrated and given strength will continually expand, grow and magnify God the good as magnificence in your life.
Now, here is some real juiciness - when I met my husband he was part of a band called..."The Distractions". Ah-ha, yes, for real, honest. And it always bothered me, that name. It felt irreverent and I did not know why. Now I do.
In Gods Light and with much love, Deborah
Monday, November 15, 2010
Nothing is Ever Settled
Wow. When I use to dream about being in my mid fifties, I somehow had this unspoken image in my mind that life would be easier, that I would know more than I did then,whenever then was - that my heart would be settled, and that I would not only know what I wanted to be when I grew up, but that I would have done it already and be living off my substantial income, family investments and money wise opportunities which had come along at just the perfect time in my lovely life and right now benefiting me in such a way that the word retirement did not seem like an enemy. Of course, my life is NOTHING like that or I would have nothing to write about this early AM.
Somewhere along the psychological growth experience, my sub conscious had this imbedded dream that there was a cozy life wrapped up in beautiful cloud awaiting me. Did I come in with this misconception and/or did my family foundation enable this or perhaps both? A beautiful cloud. Really, I thought that any day now it would all shift to look like the cover of a Martha Stewart Magazine. NAUGHT!!!
Life is tough. There is simply nothing more about it to say. Anything else right now feels like a lie. Talanted friends are struggling, there is not enough work, money, opportunities, or the other to suffice. Every single day people struggle emotionally. We try. We try and every day we keep trying. We smile. We walk the line of what is 'good' and faithfilled and still.......there is unhappiness, struggle, awkwardness, pain, sorrow, sadness, anger, lying, lack of integrity, snippiness, snideness, indifference, and people who lie, manipulate and take advantage. There are misunderstandings, intolerance, unkindness, selfishness and down right meanness. There is thoughtlessness, insensitivity and scary things. Lots of scary things.
In my twenties I was married and a young mother. By the time thirty came along I was divorced. It was hard. It was hard for a plethora of reasons. Weather I was paying my karmic debts, or being just plain stupid, ignorant and naive - who knows? But it was really, really hard. It was hard emotionally with struggling in a loveless and dysfunctional marriage with an emotionally handicapped man who we now know was/is a psychopath. It was awful having to defend my choices when it was all too clear that it was all wrong. It was disgusting that my own family liked him better than me and tried to have me hospitalized. Evidently, I was an embarrassment for not going along with the stringent, upperclsss, New England guidelines of our family do's and don'ts.
In my early thirties my childhood was relived. My mid thirties, I met my second husband, endured a cancer diagnosis to health, opened an art gallery and my son went to college. My ex wandered in and out. Emotions still rocked. My heart brought me into myself and I took a stand in aligning myself with Love, Peace and what passed as righteousness. I entered the ministry, had my own televsion show, studied Buddhism, metaphysics, meditation, healing and all the items which fell under healthy, balance, alternative and harmonious.
My forties took me into marriage separation and back again. Caring for parents, illnesses and death of parents, pets and many - oh so many, parts of myself.
My fifties bring me to a perception of life which is incredibly big. Professionally, I started and closed a church, worked at several others, pioneered a www.globalministry, sat on numerous boards, volunteered at food pantries and had to swallow a few dreams along with a good percentage of my ego.
I look back at it all - I have been in and out of therapy, colored my hair at least 100 times,(last week red) been slim and heavy, brutally honest (which does not work well for me yet) and fearful to say anything (which is worse) and have yet to find a perfect way to be here, in this person I am. I have said yes, been obliging - said no, taken a stand. I have broken up with others in order to find myself, left jobs, been fired, painted, acted, published my own book and truly disliked peoples actions and even some people and continually judged myself for not being a good person because of my honest feelings......so then one tries to change their honest feelings so they can think of themselves as a good person. Exhausting. STOP the madness.
Every day is a journey into myself. I am self employed, have worked from bartending to my present life as a minister, counselor, healer. Actually, I am more of a teacher at the moment. I have never understood, nor had the grace of being labeled one thing. (As much as my parents would have liked.) You know, like my stepbrother; he is a stock broker. Nice. He has always been and when he dies he will be known as a stock broker. There was never any grey area as to how he made his living or what his business card said. I must have had at least 50 business cards.
There are moments in my self indulgentness whan I contemplate if I took the wrong road. You know, those moments of being at a V on our path and we go left instead of right? My mother always said, marry well(money) and raise a family. I laugh as I write this bacause I can hear her say; go to Texas to college, they have lots of rich, tall men. That was her advice to me. I did not listen. I never listened well to my parents - or perhaps I listened very well and did just the opposite.
Not once growing up was I asked what I wanted to do, or be, or accomplish. Not once was I offered the opportunity to dream of becoming. Once I allowed my inner dream to come out into conversation. I still can go there - to that moment in my childhood in my parents bedroom, they were getting dressed and I announced, with my heart wide open, in all my nine year old vulnerablity that I wanted to become an actress. Their response was it was hard and too many do not make it and ........go to Texas and find a tall wealthy husband.
The brutal truth is I do not know if any of us are ever settled. I yearn for settled. Part of my delusion. I was brought up to believe in settled. Settled feels like such a make believe agenda. But wouldn't settled be nice? Settled. All nestled in - nestled in a cozy, warm, abundant life with a circle of perfect friends and weekly gatherings. Nestled into a life with an overlfowing checkbook, flowing investments with 500 % returns on a quarterly basis and childern who are happy and grateful. Nestled. Summer houses and regular vacations.
Because I was brought up to believe in the illusion of settled, which now I intelligently know my parents life was not, but they lied well; I feel I am never going to attain the golden ring. I want to attain settled. And my path, my education, my knowledge, my innate awareness and the depth from which I veiw this existence lets me know in a not so gentle way that settled is most definitly an illusion. Nothing is ever settled. There is always going to be an opinion we don't like, something we want to say and feel uncomfortable even thinking about it, people we do not like, people who do not like us, people who dissapoint us and people who we dissapoint. All that is tres unsettling.
But, what we can attain is to be okay with being unsettled. To be okay with the truth that life is challenging, can be tremendously funny, joy is fleeting, humor helps, we are H-U-M-A-N. Nothing is ever going to be perfect. Perfection is the greatest illness of all. It will prevent us from discovering our selves and muddles our perceptions with a cloud of grey. Grey is boring.
Last night before going to bed I started a new Flower Essence. It reads that it will give me a 'crystalline clearness, greater independance and a confidence in my ability to skillfully handle whatever life may bring with strength and integrity of Spirit and rebalances co-dependant behavior patterns".
All this after only one dose. Wonder what I'll write tomorrow at 4:00 am?
Somewhere along the psychological growth experience, my sub conscious had this imbedded dream that there was a cozy life wrapped up in beautiful cloud awaiting me. Did I come in with this misconception and/or did my family foundation enable this or perhaps both? A beautiful cloud. Really, I thought that any day now it would all shift to look like the cover of a Martha Stewart Magazine. NAUGHT!!!
Life is tough. There is simply nothing more about it to say. Anything else right now feels like a lie. Talanted friends are struggling, there is not enough work, money, opportunities, or the other to suffice. Every single day people struggle emotionally. We try. We try and every day we keep trying. We smile. We walk the line of what is 'good' and faithfilled and still.......there is unhappiness, struggle, awkwardness, pain, sorrow, sadness, anger, lying, lack of integrity, snippiness, snideness, indifference, and people who lie, manipulate and take advantage. There are misunderstandings, intolerance, unkindness, selfishness and down right meanness. There is thoughtlessness, insensitivity and scary things. Lots of scary things.
In my twenties I was married and a young mother. By the time thirty came along I was divorced. It was hard. It was hard for a plethora of reasons. Weather I was paying my karmic debts, or being just plain stupid, ignorant and naive - who knows? But it was really, really hard. It was hard emotionally with struggling in a loveless and dysfunctional marriage with an emotionally handicapped man who we now know was/is a psychopath. It was awful having to defend my choices when it was all too clear that it was all wrong. It was disgusting that my own family liked him better than me and tried to have me hospitalized. Evidently, I was an embarrassment for not going along with the stringent, upperclsss, New England guidelines of our family do's and don'ts.
In my early thirties my childhood was relived. My mid thirties, I met my second husband, endured a cancer diagnosis to health, opened an art gallery and my son went to college. My ex wandered in and out. Emotions still rocked. My heart brought me into myself and I took a stand in aligning myself with Love, Peace and what passed as righteousness. I entered the ministry, had my own televsion show, studied Buddhism, metaphysics, meditation, healing and all the items which fell under healthy, balance, alternative and harmonious.
My forties took me into marriage separation and back again. Caring for parents, illnesses and death of parents, pets and many - oh so many, parts of myself.
My fifties bring me to a perception of life which is incredibly big. Professionally, I started and closed a church, worked at several others, pioneered a www.globalministry, sat on numerous boards, volunteered at food pantries and had to swallow a few dreams along with a good percentage of my ego.
I look back at it all - I have been in and out of therapy, colored my hair at least 100 times,(last week red) been slim and heavy, brutally honest (which does not work well for me yet) and fearful to say anything (which is worse) and have yet to find a perfect way to be here, in this person I am. I have said yes, been obliging - said no, taken a stand. I have broken up with others in order to find myself, left jobs, been fired, painted, acted, published my own book and truly disliked peoples actions and even some people and continually judged myself for not being a good person because of my honest feelings......so then one tries to change their honest feelings so they can think of themselves as a good person. Exhausting. STOP the madness.
Every day is a journey into myself. I am self employed, have worked from bartending to my present life as a minister, counselor, healer. Actually, I am more of a teacher at the moment. I have never understood, nor had the grace of being labeled one thing. (As much as my parents would have liked.) You know, like my stepbrother; he is a stock broker. Nice. He has always been and when he dies he will be known as a stock broker. There was never any grey area as to how he made his living or what his business card said. I must have had at least 50 business cards.
There are moments in my self indulgentness whan I contemplate if I took the wrong road. You know, those moments of being at a V on our path and we go left instead of right? My mother always said, marry well(money) and raise a family. I laugh as I write this bacause I can hear her say; go to Texas to college, they have lots of rich, tall men. That was her advice to me. I did not listen. I never listened well to my parents - or perhaps I listened very well and did just the opposite.
Not once growing up was I asked what I wanted to do, or be, or accomplish. Not once was I offered the opportunity to dream of becoming. Once I allowed my inner dream to come out into conversation. I still can go there - to that moment in my childhood in my parents bedroom, they were getting dressed and I announced, with my heart wide open, in all my nine year old vulnerablity that I wanted to become an actress. Their response was it was hard and too many do not make it and ........go to Texas and find a tall wealthy husband.
The brutal truth is I do not know if any of us are ever settled. I yearn for settled. Part of my delusion. I was brought up to believe in settled. Settled feels like such a make believe agenda. But wouldn't settled be nice? Settled. All nestled in - nestled in a cozy, warm, abundant life with a circle of perfect friends and weekly gatherings. Nestled into a life with an overlfowing checkbook, flowing investments with 500 % returns on a quarterly basis and childern who are happy and grateful. Nestled. Summer houses and regular vacations.
Because I was brought up to believe in the illusion of settled, which now I intelligently know my parents life was not, but they lied well; I feel I am never going to attain the golden ring. I want to attain settled. And my path, my education, my knowledge, my innate awareness and the depth from which I veiw this existence lets me know in a not so gentle way that settled is most definitly an illusion. Nothing is ever settled. There is always going to be an opinion we don't like, something we want to say and feel uncomfortable even thinking about it, people we do not like, people who do not like us, people who dissapoint us and people who we dissapoint. All that is tres unsettling.
But, what we can attain is to be okay with being unsettled. To be okay with the truth that life is challenging, can be tremendously funny, joy is fleeting, humor helps, we are H-U-M-A-N. Nothing is ever going to be perfect. Perfection is the greatest illness of all. It will prevent us from discovering our selves and muddles our perceptions with a cloud of grey. Grey is boring.
Last night before going to bed I started a new Flower Essence. It reads that it will give me a 'crystalline clearness, greater independance and a confidence in my ability to skillfully handle whatever life may bring with strength and integrity of Spirit and rebalances co-dependant behavior patterns".
All this after only one dose. Wonder what I'll write tomorrow at 4:00 am?
Saturday, October 30, 2010
Life Lines
Working with the non physical aspects of life creates its own unique work related struggles - my minister peers, therapist friends, fellow counselors in and acquaintances from an array of venues such as astrologers and healers to fellow intuits all tell the same frustration - which I like to describe as this:
Yes, it is their work. Yes, it is their life. Yes, yes, yes, I cannot do it for them. BUT there are moments when I want to. And just when I admit that, just when I allow my frustration, obviously coming from ego, that a client is not seeing the life line, not grabbing hold....and continues in the muck of their individualized journey to wholeness - I will then receive an email from another client - a client who is so grateful, so appreciative - a client who grabbed the life line, has seen the light and has risen from their own self imposed darkness. Ah, that is excellent!
Yet, in the back of my heart, is often the memory of the one that got away - the one that I believe I failed. The one who I wonder if I talked loud enough, clear enough, tough enough (sometimes.)
If I sold linens for a living, life would be so simple. I would show you some pretty fabrics, different patterns, compare them to your dishes and voila! You would choose this nice tangible object, buy a dozen and be on your way. Yes, the simple life.......
Emma Curtis Hopkins is my hero. Known as the teacher of teachers in the world of meta-physics. (1849-1925) There are many wonderful aspects of her journey I love to tell, but today's luscious tidbit is that she only taught 12 lessons. She took in students, taught twelve lessons in twelve weeks and kicked you out on your tushes to go live them. She really didn't want to hear from you again - she wanted you to live them!
Being an empath and multi sensory intuitive, I feel so very much for my beloveds that I make myself tres available for their journeys. I am learning. I am in the midst of redefining my work - or I should say, Spirit is in the midst of showing me some new definitions! I sometimes toss you so many lifelines at once, I think it may be difficult to decide which one to choose. But part of my charm(?*&^%$^)(many would not use that word!) - is that I do offer you multi scenarios to work through your experience, in order to embody the Truth of Love which is all our cores.
Gotta love Emma, twelve lessons, then out the door. But that is not me. However, my goal is for you to get it, then go live it. Right now, me is here, here is a banquet table and it is up to YOU to choose. I can teach you the Laws, I will hear what Spirit wants you to know, read the energy of your present situation and I will offer you how I see the Law working in your life so you may make a conscious choice to choose differently. In the end, twelve weeks or not, it is all up to you. No one can do it for you. No matter if it is your deceased Mother coming through and giving you a message or you feel the quickening of Holy Spirit through a moment of prayer or you have angels and other hands on you during a table session and are so blown away by the nonphysical-miraculous-woo-woo like experiences - it is what you DO, what you CREATE through all the experiences which matters. (I should say right now, what I do is a science, based on Law, energy and faith - it is not woo-woo, but sometimes, the term fits for the yet inexperienced. I have great respect for my work and for this work I am called to initiate. I am in all-ways devoted to the work, to this holy purpose.)
Even if I did sell linens - you might not like them when you got them home and would want to return them in a week anyway. At least you cannot return what I offer you, but you are in charge and can refuse to receive it.
So, I will joyfully and gratefully continue what I do: investigating, opening, allowing, moving energy, teaching, supporting, clearing..........loving.
Thank you to all those who dance with me in this journey, inviting me into their lives to assist their personal awakening. It is my deepest honor and joy to do so. I love you.
all we do is throw them a rope, a life line...and if they grab hold of it great! If not, they continue to be in the challenges of their experiences. And if they choose to reach for this rope, to grab hold of this life line - it is all up to them - our job, our purpose, our work is to caste a life line out upon the waters as clearly, lovingly and kindly as we can; the rest is up to them.
Yes, it is their work. Yes, it is their life. Yes, yes, yes, I cannot do it for them. BUT there are moments when I want to. And just when I admit that, just when I allow my frustration, obviously coming from ego, that a client is not seeing the life line, not grabbing hold....and continues in the muck of their individualized journey to wholeness - I will then receive an email from another client - a client who is so grateful, so appreciative - a client who grabbed the life line, has seen the light and has risen from their own self imposed darkness. Ah, that is excellent!
Hi Deborah,
I would like to share with you about my progress… my anger is HEALED… !!! I am FREE…. I have not yelled since before I saw you last… I am totally done with my anger… there has been opportunities that I would burst with rage and NOTHING… total PEACE… this is a Miracle… !!!! I tell you life is so much better with out anger… I am FREE… !!! Thank you so much for your help… keep up the good work… God is Good… I am devoted to pure LOVE energy for everyone.
Yet, in the back of my heart, is often the memory of the one that got away - the one that I believe I failed. The one who I wonder if I talked loud enough, clear enough, tough enough (sometimes.)
If I sold linens for a living, life would be so simple. I would show you some pretty fabrics, different patterns, compare them to your dishes and voila! You would choose this nice tangible object, buy a dozen and be on your way. Yes, the simple life.......
Emma Curtis Hopkins is my hero. Known as the teacher of teachers in the world of meta-physics. (1849-1925) There are many wonderful aspects of her journey I love to tell, but today's luscious tidbit is that she only taught 12 lessons. She took in students, taught twelve lessons in twelve weeks and kicked you out on your tushes to go live them. She really didn't want to hear from you again - she wanted you to live them!
Being an empath and multi sensory intuitive, I feel so very much for my beloveds that I make myself tres available for their journeys. I am learning. I am in the midst of redefining my work - or I should say, Spirit is in the midst of showing me some new definitions! I sometimes toss you so many lifelines at once, I think it may be difficult to decide which one to choose. But part of my charm(?*&^%$^)(many would not use that word!) - is that I do offer you multi scenarios to work through your experience, in order to embody the Truth of Love which is all our cores.
Gotta love Emma, twelve lessons, then out the door. But that is not me. However, my goal is for you to get it, then go live it. Right now, me is here, here is a banquet table and it is up to YOU to choose. I can teach you the Laws, I will hear what Spirit wants you to know, read the energy of your present situation and I will offer you how I see the Law working in your life so you may make a conscious choice to choose differently. In the end, twelve weeks or not, it is all up to you. No one can do it for you. No matter if it is your deceased Mother coming through and giving you a message or you feel the quickening of Holy Spirit through a moment of prayer or you have angels and other hands on you during a table session and are so blown away by the nonphysical-miraculous-woo-woo like experiences - it is what you DO, what you CREATE through all the experiences which matters. (I should say right now, what I do is a science, based on Law, energy and faith - it is not woo-woo, but sometimes, the term fits for the yet inexperienced. I have great respect for my work and for this work I am called to initiate. I am in all-ways devoted to the work, to this holy purpose.)
Even if I did sell linens - you might not like them when you got them home and would want to return them in a week anyway. At least you cannot return what I offer you, but you are in charge and can refuse to receive it.
So, I will joyfully and gratefully continue what I do: investigating, opening, allowing, moving energy, teaching, supporting, clearing..........loving.
Thank you to all those who dance with me in this journey, inviting me into their lives to assist their personal awakening. It is my deepest honor and joy to do so. I love you.
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Energy Medicine Basics
I have been doing so much teaching of late, and my practice has boomerang-ed into what we sometimes refer to as Turbo Mode -, that I am perfectly drawn to offering information to others on how, why and what; this thing called energy work is. So, hence begins this potential series; ( 2?, 4?, 100? - I have no idea) of blogs in order to fill in any gaps for my students, support my clients and intentionally guide the curious.
I actually have students who come to take energy classes who are surprised they experience pain, discomfort, releasing of any kind - and I am surprised that they are surprised! (I also have students who are in the bathroom half the class and thrilled to be letting go!)......... I often hear: I know we are all energy...but. Or I understand that we are made of our beliefs..but....
Much of embodying this understanding has to be experiential. Another words, you must experience the goodness of the releasing in order to see the benefits of the discomfort. You must have the experience of getting THROUGH to the other side to see the goodness in the process as a whole.
Everything is energy - not everything has energy in it or through it or around it - every.thing - is energy. Every thought, flower, rock, person, hand, toe, idea, table, house, family, mailbox, car, color, animal, bug, tree, food, dish, painting, hallway......you get it, right? EVERY.THING is pure energy. Within every.thing is a center of what we call Divine Perfection. This is the seed of harmony, balance.
Here we are referring to people, souls. As souls, our journeys take us (and we choose the pathes of this taking) into human lifetimes in order to experience relationships to others and other things which will promote us to consciously expand our awareness of Love. Each soul is unique. Not bad, or good or better than: Unique.
Each experience we sign on for in this present lifetime we have chosen from a few factors:
1. What our experiences have been in previous lifetimes - this brings us to a 'jumping off point' on our souls journey as to see what particular scenarios would benefit us more in the next/present lifetime.
2. We make all these choices before we incarnate. We make all these choices from love. We have made all these choices from a deep faith in knowing our faith in God can guide us through. We make these choices knowing what our true home is - not earth - this is school. Home is the non-physical 'heavenly' place where we reside when we are not in human form.
3. We make these choices with the guidance of our fellow souls or pods, our (spirit)guides, angels, the Masters and what is referred to as the Higher Council of Beings.
So, with this knowledge, our souls are made up of past experiences which through our own choice, bring us to this lifetime. Our soul is already vibrating at its own level at its birth. Then, we have experiences which release or add to the vibrational level of the soul. Everything has a vibration. From our human perspective we give it highs and lows and can access its numeroligical level.
Our personalities are what react to the journey, until we consciously seek a spiritual path and then we can see through our souls eyes which true to its nature will elevate our individual vibration.
Our individual vibrations are made up of our beliefs, which are fed through our repeated thoughts, which are fed through what we choose to look at, pay attention to, talk about,listen to, watch, read; etc.
Think of yourself as a garden. Whatever you pay attention to will grow in your garden. Whatever you pay attention to will plant itself in your personal grid pattern. And it will grow of its on true nature. A small ugly little fear based thought can become an idea, can be thought about often, contemplated and read about and become a belief. Then it is in your vibration and given its emotional vibration, has the potential to grow into a physical ailment in order to get noticed.
When one experiences a high level of vibrational energy work, depending on how deep the roots are in your personal garden; this will be reflected in the releasing process.
In working with wounds from ones childhood, the releasing process can be more dramatic and palpable than if we are working on a recent wound from a recent relationship. If one has had several relationships with repeated scenes just different players; the wound is old and deep. In an old and deep wound, after having an energy session, you may feel your body speaking to you. Your bodys wisdom is immense and everyones life would be more graceful if we would listen more and act with more integrity and respect to our bodys divinty.
Remember, its a garden. What happens to a garden when you let the weeds go and do not weed? They take over the garden. Your negative thoughts and refusal to look at your own work will do the same.
Sometimes we need to weed periodcally, no matter how beautiful the garden - and sometimes we need to till everything under and begin again!
Last night I had a session, as a client, with a beloved practitioner I trust with my life. I have been processing a deeply planted issue from lifetimes and prevelant in this particular childhood. During the session I had two episodes of discomfort and breathed through them both and in my mind I was saying GOOD! - GO! - I am done with you. I came home and felt like I had been kicked down the sidelines to the goal. I went to bed in a zombie like haze and slept, actually overslept. I felt nauseous all night. My solar plexis hurt. And just now, over twelve hours since my appointment, I am coming around. I am honoring the process, the work. I am honoring that God and my soul know how to heal, what to do and what needs to be done. I have complete faith in this process. I am going to get THROUGH this ugly little kernal of lack and when I am totally through to the other side, having met this belief in the face, shined light on it and kicked its butt; watch out! -I will be brighter than ever.
And that is how I want all my clients and students to feel - I want your experiences and everyone who is dealing with your own growth through acts of faith to KNOW that going through is the only mindful option. To stuff it makes for a really ugly garden, an unhealthy foundation for the next time around. Keep weeding. Keep planting love. Keep nurturing and watering your gardens with Gods love and your faith in the Universal Abundance of All.
And above all; do not get discouraged - you chose this. You know how to do this. You listen, you act. You make choices. Nothing is against you. Your challanges are FOR you - to meet in love, not fear.
Energy medicine healing is the deepest form of healing I know. With an excellent practictioner and the one who is right for you, you can release your weeds, your baggage, your sutff and let it go! You can then fly - feel freedom - and love freely.
Your journey is already blessed by God and all your non-physical guides.
with love, Deborah
I actually have students who come to take energy classes who are surprised they experience pain, discomfort, releasing of any kind - and I am surprised that they are surprised! (I also have students who are in the bathroom half the class and thrilled to be letting go!)......... I often hear: I know we are all energy...but. Or I understand that we are made of our beliefs..but....
Much of embodying this understanding has to be experiential. Another words, you must experience the goodness of the releasing in order to see the benefits of the discomfort. You must have the experience of getting THROUGH to the other side to see the goodness in the process as a whole.
Everything is energy - not everything has energy in it or through it or around it - every.thing - is energy. Every thought, flower, rock, person, hand, toe, idea, table, house, family, mailbox, car, color, animal, bug, tree, food, dish, painting, hallway......you get it, right? EVERY.THING is pure energy. Within every.thing is a center of what we call Divine Perfection. This is the seed of harmony, balance.
Here we are referring to people, souls. As souls, our journeys take us (and we choose the pathes of this taking) into human lifetimes in order to experience relationships to others and other things which will promote us to consciously expand our awareness of Love. Each soul is unique. Not bad, or good or better than: Unique.
Each experience we sign on for in this present lifetime we have chosen from a few factors:
1. What our experiences have been in previous lifetimes - this brings us to a 'jumping off point' on our souls journey as to see what particular scenarios would benefit us more in the next/present lifetime.
2. We make all these choices before we incarnate. We make all these choices from love. We have made all these choices from a deep faith in knowing our faith in God can guide us through. We make these choices knowing what our true home is - not earth - this is school. Home is the non-physical 'heavenly' place where we reside when we are not in human form.
3. We make these choices with the guidance of our fellow souls or pods, our (spirit)guides, angels, the Masters and what is referred to as the Higher Council of Beings.
So, with this knowledge, our souls are made up of past experiences which through our own choice, bring us to this lifetime. Our soul is already vibrating at its own level at its birth. Then, we have experiences which release or add to the vibrational level of the soul. Everything has a vibration. From our human perspective we give it highs and lows and can access its numeroligical level.
Our personalities are what react to the journey, until we consciously seek a spiritual path and then we can see through our souls eyes which true to its nature will elevate our individual vibration.
Our individual vibrations are made up of our beliefs, which are fed through our repeated thoughts, which are fed through what we choose to look at, pay attention to, talk about,listen to, watch, read; etc.
Think of yourself as a garden. Whatever you pay attention to will grow in your garden. Whatever you pay attention to will plant itself in your personal grid pattern. And it will grow of its on true nature. A small ugly little fear based thought can become an idea, can be thought about often, contemplated and read about and become a belief. Then it is in your vibration and given its emotional vibration, has the potential to grow into a physical ailment in order to get noticed.
When one experiences a high level of vibrational energy work, depending on how deep the roots are in your personal garden; this will be reflected in the releasing process.
In working with wounds from ones childhood, the releasing process can be more dramatic and palpable than if we are working on a recent wound from a recent relationship. If one has had several relationships with repeated scenes just different players; the wound is old and deep. In an old and deep wound, after having an energy session, you may feel your body speaking to you. Your bodys wisdom is immense and everyones life would be more graceful if we would listen more and act with more integrity and respect to our bodys divinty.
Remember, its a garden. What happens to a garden when you let the weeds go and do not weed? They take over the garden. Your negative thoughts and refusal to look at your own work will do the same.
Sometimes we need to weed periodcally, no matter how beautiful the garden - and sometimes we need to till everything under and begin again!
Last night I had a session, as a client, with a beloved practitioner I trust with my life. I have been processing a deeply planted issue from lifetimes and prevelant in this particular childhood. During the session I had two episodes of discomfort and breathed through them both and in my mind I was saying GOOD! - GO! - I am done with you. I came home and felt like I had been kicked down the sidelines to the goal. I went to bed in a zombie like haze and slept, actually overslept. I felt nauseous all night. My solar plexis hurt. And just now, over twelve hours since my appointment, I am coming around. I am honoring the process, the work. I am honoring that God and my soul know how to heal, what to do and what needs to be done. I have complete faith in this process. I am going to get THROUGH this ugly little kernal of lack and when I am totally through to the other side, having met this belief in the face, shined light on it and kicked its butt; watch out! -I will be brighter than ever.
And that is how I want all my clients and students to feel - I want your experiences and everyone who is dealing with your own growth through acts of faith to KNOW that going through is the only mindful option. To stuff it makes for a really ugly garden, an unhealthy foundation for the next time around. Keep weeding. Keep planting love. Keep nurturing and watering your gardens with Gods love and your faith in the Universal Abundance of All.
And above all; do not get discouraged - you chose this. You know how to do this. You listen, you act. You make choices. Nothing is against you. Your challanges are FOR you - to meet in love, not fear.
Energy medicine healing is the deepest form of healing I know. With an excellent practictioner and the one who is right for you, you can release your weeds, your baggage, your sutff and let it go! You can then fly - feel freedom - and love freely.
Your journey is already blessed by God and all your non-physical guides.
with love, Deborah
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Love
I awoke this morning feeling my cup literally running over with love. One of those days....TYG. It is intense - the fall equinox and the upcoming full moon in Aries are feeding & nurturing my spirit and I am so thank-filled. I love you. Whoever you are, I love you. You are loved. No matter what you have done, no matter what thought or thoughts you have ever been aware of, no matter how you are feeling at this very moment; you are deeply loved.
Yesterday I lead a client in a guided journey of love, to open her heart to feeling the love and then sharing it out into the universe one layer at a time......I think it's catchy! Whoa, what a ride of LOVE!
Sit down for a moment, just a moment, go ahead, you can make the time. Close your eyes...(or not!)...go to your heart.....place your dominant hand over your heart chakra...breathe....now remember one moment when you felt love - giving it, receiving it...now breathe it.
Breathe into the love and let it, allow it, to eminate from your heart. Now, let that fill your body. Feel it from your head to your toes. Let that vibration of love fill your body, your pores, your cells, your bones. Then, asyou breathe deeper, let it fill the room you are in. Let pour into the floor, the ceiling, the walls, the fabrics, the furniture. Let the love from your heart expand into the room and fill it...then let it creep through the walls into the entire building...and breathe into it. Then let the love go out into the street, to your neighbors, other buldings...until it fills the entire community. Breathe it.
Now, let that love eminating from your heart chakra go beyond, to the entire town or city and then the state! Watch it, feel it pour itself to the entire state....and beyond. Let it flow across America! Then let it flow to and through every person in North America and beyond! Let the vibration of love you feel in your heart be shared and expand and grow and resonant across the globe! Pour Love into every ocean, river, across every mountain, into every valley. Let the love you feel in your heart be shared and watch it, feel it spread across Mother Earth. Let it saturate the earth, the dirt, the depths of the grounds across the globe. Now, let your vibration of love soar into the heavens. Watch it go into the sky, the clouds, the stars, the planets, the Milky Way......let your love pour into and through every constelation, every gasous like thingy in the universe! Let it saturate the darkness and beyond.
Now breathe.
Breathe love.
Feel your heart pulse with the vibration of giving.
Now, allow your body, heart, spirit and being to feel this love come back to you. Let the love from the Infinite heavens pour down into your world, your globe, your earth, your waters, your land, your town, your building, your room, your body, your heart.
Breathe.
"I AM alive with love."
Yesterday I lead a client in a guided journey of love, to open her heart to feeling the love and then sharing it out into the universe one layer at a time......I think it's catchy! Whoa, what a ride of LOVE!
Sit down for a moment, just a moment, go ahead, you can make the time. Close your eyes...(or not!)...go to your heart.....place your dominant hand over your heart chakra...breathe....now remember one moment when you felt love - giving it, receiving it...now breathe it.
Breathe into the love and let it, allow it, to eminate from your heart. Now, let that fill your body. Feel it from your head to your toes. Let that vibration of love fill your body, your pores, your cells, your bones. Then, asyou breathe deeper, let it fill the room you are in. Let pour into the floor, the ceiling, the walls, the fabrics, the furniture. Let the love from your heart expand into the room and fill it...then let it creep through the walls into the entire building...and breathe into it. Then let the love go out into the street, to your neighbors, other buldings...until it fills the entire community. Breathe it.
Now, let that love eminating from your heart chakra go beyond, to the entire town or city and then the state! Watch it, feel it pour itself to the entire state....and beyond. Let it flow across America! Then let it flow to and through every person in North America and beyond! Let the vibration of love you feel in your heart be shared and expand and grow and resonant across the globe! Pour Love into every ocean, river, across every mountain, into every valley. Let the love you feel in your heart be shared and watch it, feel it spread across Mother Earth. Let it saturate the earth, the dirt, the depths of the grounds across the globe. Now, let your vibration of love soar into the heavens. Watch it go into the sky, the clouds, the stars, the planets, the Milky Way......let your love pour into and through every constelation, every gasous like thingy in the universe! Let it saturate the darkness and beyond.
Now breathe.
Breathe love.
Feel your heart pulse with the vibration of giving.
Now, allow your body, heart, spirit and being to feel this love come back to you. Let the love from the Infinite heavens pour down into your world, your globe, your earth, your waters, your land, your town, your building, your room, your body, your heart.
Breathe.
"I AM alive with love."
Saturday, August 21, 2010
Intensity Re.defined
In the past few days I have attempted to write, yet there appears so much wordiness and repetition - I even bored myself. It feels as if any of us, from the world wide big famous well known kahuna like authors and spiritual teachers to the tiny can you hear me bloggers like myself, have been saying the same thing over and over again for the past few years. Stay focused. Work on yourself. Oooops, we fell back a bit. Okay, here we go. Keep focused. Keep the faith.
Sounds like growing up, doesn't it? Especially familiar to the pre teen years when we fall back a bit into old ways, before we fully spread our wings in teenage years which on a good day merges into young adulthood. So many labels, words and explanations. We, us humans; are very, very good at giving wordy explanations to the scenarios.
With that said, let me be as simple as I can be. Knowing full well, like any other philosophical, esoteric, thought filled gotta share spiritually focused teacher being; this is simply my perception, from my lens. Having shared this knowing verbally with beloveds and felt a resonate wave of understanding and knowing comfort was received, I share this with you.
Everything is now magnified. Love and fear.
We are closer to Oneness than we have ever been.
The journey to Oneness has been the path of choice by many due to their thinking this would lead us all to Love, all to sharing only the joy. And ultimately it will. But here, here on earth, on this plane, where the nature of life as human itself is yin and yang - hence we will always have the choice, the action of free will to choose.
(Friends, our Creator blessed us with free will; if there was not also given choices along with that, free will would make no sense!) The closer we get to Oneness, as we are now, we feel ALL of it. To feel the joy we also feel the grief. To experience the fullness of love, the immensity of the love of humankind; we also open ourselves to the fear of humankind.
Many hearts are opening. They have traveled the road from the head to the heart and they expected to ONLY feel the Love when they arrived. Why not? This is why they focused on it in the first place. To FEEL the love. Not to cry the tears of all of humanity. Not to feel your heart ripped opened due to yet another horrible natural disaster in the world. Not to see homelessness, illness, war and feel it so deeply it may as well be you. This was not what you expected.
Yet, you see, that is love. To feel your sisters and brothers pain as your own. To be One in the Heart of Compassion, that you have visceral responses to another persons experience. Do you ever wonder if God feels all our pain? If every day this wondrous Isness of Life from which all is created looks upon Its Beloveds and feels our pains? If so, our Love, our Joy is also felt.
The most basic of spiritual teachings are helpful right now. To see, feel, acknowledged the pain, the discomfort, the war of human on human; and yet to stay unattached through the Light, our Faith of God; knowing we have free will and there does exist the place of Love which cradles us in comfort. In doing what is humanly possible as an individual; giving of time, money or our personal gifts. Being as unattached, which is non fearful, of the fear itself. To stand in the Light of your faith and know God is present and it is our joy to see It revealed.
The most basic of teachings; turning your cheek, it is done to you according to your faith, paths of righteousness. Remember, the fear is simply an empty vessel awaiting to be filled with Gods Love, Power, Presence. Fill it with compassion, understanding, kindness.
Be grateful you are feeling. If you are one of the many who are in the experience of the pain of humanity, with deep fears coming to the surface and you are witnessing them; be grateful. The greater the fear, the bigger the empty cup! God can fill any vessel with love. The song is so true - ain't no mountain high enough, ain't no river deep enough to keep me from YOU! Nothing is impossible with God.
Be grateful you are feeling. Know you cannot fix the war by yourself. You cannot mend the pain of Katrina by yourself. You cannot house every homeless animal, foster child or feed every person who is hungry; but your ability in Oneness to acknowledge the pain, to feel the expression of fear - is also your great ability to feel Love, to share in love.
A friend of mine, her family just lost an angel on earth in an unexpected death. We shared how big families, mean big love, create big loss. And in that pain of the loss is also the strength of the love. It is One. Which do you choose to see?
As we create more openings to the One Great Heart, we become the family of humankind which has called us. In a family there is pain, disconnections, love, dysfunctions.....etc, etc, etc.....all of it. In committing to the Path of Oneness to seek the Joy of God; know along with that is great responsibility in feeling all of it.
If you are one of the many beings who are in the experience of Love - Love as big, as outwardly, as compassionately as you possibly can. Love all you see, send Love to all beings, Love your enemies, your wounds, your challenges. Love, give it away.
Again, in this moment in time; fear and love are being magnified. Breathe. Detatch. Love.
Any particular questions or scenarios? I can be reached at revdeb@amethystlightministry.org
Thank you for your time.
Sounds like growing up, doesn't it? Especially familiar to the pre teen years when we fall back a bit into old ways, before we fully spread our wings in teenage years which on a good day merges into young adulthood. So many labels, words and explanations. We, us humans; are very, very good at giving wordy explanations to the scenarios.
With that said, let me be as simple as I can be. Knowing full well, like any other philosophical, esoteric, thought filled gotta share spiritually focused teacher being; this is simply my perception, from my lens. Having shared this knowing verbally with beloveds and felt a resonate wave of understanding and knowing comfort was received, I share this with you.
Everything is now magnified. Love and fear.
We are closer to Oneness than we have ever been.
The journey to Oneness has been the path of choice by many due to their thinking this would lead us all to Love, all to sharing only the joy. And ultimately it will. But here, here on earth, on this plane, where the nature of life as human itself is yin and yang - hence we will always have the choice, the action of free will to choose.
(Friends, our Creator blessed us with free will; if there was not also given choices along with that, free will would make no sense!) The closer we get to Oneness, as we are now, we feel ALL of it. To feel the joy we also feel the grief. To experience the fullness of love, the immensity of the love of humankind; we also open ourselves to the fear of humankind.
Many hearts are opening. They have traveled the road from the head to the heart and they expected to ONLY feel the Love when they arrived. Why not? This is why they focused on it in the first place. To FEEL the love. Not to cry the tears of all of humanity. Not to feel your heart ripped opened due to yet another horrible natural disaster in the world. Not to see homelessness, illness, war and feel it so deeply it may as well be you. This was not what you expected.
Yet, you see, that is love. To feel your sisters and brothers pain as your own. To be One in the Heart of Compassion, that you have visceral responses to another persons experience. Do you ever wonder if God feels all our pain? If every day this wondrous Isness of Life from which all is created looks upon Its Beloveds and feels our pains? If so, our Love, our Joy is also felt.
The most basic of spiritual teachings are helpful right now. To see, feel, acknowledged the pain, the discomfort, the war of human on human; and yet to stay unattached through the Light, our Faith of God; knowing we have free will and there does exist the place of Love which cradles us in comfort. In doing what is humanly possible as an individual; giving of time, money or our personal gifts. Being as unattached, which is non fearful, of the fear itself. To stand in the Light of your faith and know God is present and it is our joy to see It revealed.
The most basic of teachings; turning your cheek, it is done to you according to your faith, paths of righteousness. Remember, the fear is simply an empty vessel awaiting to be filled with Gods Love, Power, Presence. Fill it with compassion, understanding, kindness.
Be grateful you are feeling. If you are one of the many who are in the experience of the pain of humanity, with deep fears coming to the surface and you are witnessing them; be grateful. The greater the fear, the bigger the empty cup! God can fill any vessel with love. The song is so true - ain't no mountain high enough, ain't no river deep enough to keep me from YOU! Nothing is impossible with God.
Be grateful you are feeling. Know you cannot fix the war by yourself. You cannot mend the pain of Katrina by yourself. You cannot house every homeless animal, foster child or feed every person who is hungry; but your ability in Oneness to acknowledge the pain, to feel the expression of fear - is also your great ability to feel Love, to share in love.
A friend of mine, her family just lost an angel on earth in an unexpected death. We shared how big families, mean big love, create big loss. And in that pain of the loss is also the strength of the love. It is One. Which do you choose to see?
As we create more openings to the One Great Heart, we become the family of humankind which has called us. In a family there is pain, disconnections, love, dysfunctions.....etc, etc, etc.....all of it. In committing to the Path of Oneness to seek the Joy of God; know along with that is great responsibility in feeling all of it.
If you are one of the many beings who are in the experience of Love - Love as big, as outwardly, as compassionately as you possibly can. Love all you see, send Love to all beings, Love your enemies, your wounds, your challenges. Love, give it away.
Again, in this moment in time; fear and love are being magnified. Breathe. Detatch. Love.
Any particular questions or scenarios? I can be reached at revdeb@amethystlightministry.org
Thank you for your time.
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