Greetings from my world! Been a while, I realize. Life, as everyone is saying, LIFE!

This has been quite a summer - no matter what moves you; ascension discussions, politics, the weather, family, healthcare, world crisis,religion, energy, spirituality; there is always something to dish about. For me, it is and has been not the immediate, but the larger focus; how do we see the blessing in all this, how are we allowing the good to be our guide, how do we faith our way through whatever the experience is at the moment? How do I reframe it for myself as well as others?

Right now, and this summer has been a rush of ascension symptoms. If this term is new to you, it refers to our individual responses of our individual consciousness' expanding into LOVE, under and with the great umbrellas of what is happening in the energetic over soul of our Universe. Simply, are we allowing the Good to permeate our lives? 

The most recent experience has been one of individuals being challenged to be true to
themselves. We each have certain beliefs which we use as a foundation for our lives. This has especially been showing up in whatever are our relationships, no matter what the relationship. weather it is personal, work, animal or human. We may feel challenged to accommodate another. We may be asked to do our work differently, not a huge shift, a very slight one, BUT it is a huge calling to stand firm in what we have made our own truth. At any other time or place in Life none of these would be such a huge experience, but now; if you are NOT true to yourself, you will get a spiritual 2x4 bump on the butt.  Examples:

- you are a black and white photographer only, it is what moves you, it is your passion, and a close friend wants to be your client, but please use color. You do it, and they come out awful, they are not happy with
them. Or they are happy and you do not want your name on them because you know they are not good.

***be honest, suggest a great color photographer for your friend.

- you are a therapist, and an old and dear
client wants to come to you for only an  hour, BUT the way you work, the way you have learned works best for you is a mix of many modalities which takes 2-3 hours. BUT you WANT to accommodate them.


- you only work from noon to 6. a client begs for an 8:00 am appointment.

***be honest, you are not available, but you will help them find or you will recommend others that you trust.

- you are no longer taking new patients, you get call from an old client who needs you.

- you have learned that in conversations it is best for you to wait until you are asked to enter it, to be invited, and one night you jump in. ( and this does not turnout well.)

- you have promised yourself you WILL manifest your new home. BUT others doubt, they tell you it is impossible to find such and such....and you feel fear rising...and you only look at what you do not want and it feels horrible.

- you make any promise to yourself; to not drink wine at the next family gathering, to not eat such and such, to only make choices which enhance your life, not pull you down; and then you balk, then you are untrue to yourself; and you wonder why the experience turned out so terribly.

At this moment in time, we cannot be untrue to ourselves. We CAN spend time shifting our consciousness and making a different choice; BUT it MUST be done with intention and in a conscious manner. NOT done out of fear, only shifted out of love. 

Only make choices out of love.

Do not betray yourself.

Show up on your life as YOU ARE! If you do not, the Good awaiting you cannot find you.

This is the same law used throughout all choice making. Remember when you were young and wanted so desperately for that boy or girl to like you and you went and wore clothes, or faked interests, JUST to get them to like you? BUT THEY WERE NOT LIKING YOU! You were not being YOU.

Please, be you the kind, loving, magnificent self you came here to be. 

Infinite Blessings & Love, Deborah 

how far can you think?

last evening i sat on our porch watching the fireflies dance and admiring the almost full moon bathe the fields in light. in these moments I know the great mystery.

this morning i sit on the same porch, in gratitude for the air which is circulating. i wonder if the leaves and limbs and brush are grateful for the movement? i wonder if  when the curtains blow and move they feel anything? if life force is in all things, then why not?

i wonder why the birds bathe in the dirt, fluttering their wings as if in water? does the dirt help to remove sticky stuff?

i wonder if when the birds are in the birdbath, are they singing with gratitude for the wetness and coolness against their teeny bodies?

i wonder, when I step outside and the mother deer rises from the fields, does she hear me sharply as I open the slider door or do her instincts tell her to raise herself from sleep? I wonder, does the baby speckled fawn consciously follow the mother or stand and jump off of her own knowing?

i wonder why every one does not realize that it is the love connection we seek. I wonder why it is so unclear with wounded distractions that one cannot simply see that love is why we are here and love is what every person seeks. it is in love and loving that we are aware of our innate connection with God.

i wonder if at any time on earth, will all souls realize together, that the Love of God is all we are seeking - that any other love falls short.

i wonder how many people realize that addictions/distractions - (sexual, drug, alcohol, lying, food, pain, etc.) - are ways to distract one from the fact that they are avoiding opening their hearts to God?

i wonder how many truly feel the love of God, of the Great Mystery in their lives as the One, the connection of all connections.

i understand why we each have to walk our own paths and do our own journey and that no one else can do it for us - and I wonder, would we have humanness without the need to evolve?  would there still be a cosmic need for the human form if we did not require THIS journey to support our individual and therefore collective involution?

i believe that the ones who make it tough for us on earth, who challenge our egos, who dislike us, who hurt us: we love the most when not in body. they help us to evolve in love. this allows me gratitude for/ to them.

i believe that when we hate, anger and condemn we are building disease in our own human instrument.

i love you through the love I am aware with God. it is the only way to truly love.

how far can you think?

Ridin' the River!

July 2013

In Honor of my beloved clients/congregants:

July 2013 may go down in spiritual involution history as a mega month.  The level of potential the universal overlay has expanded to is so very immense, so filled with love, so deep, wide and of such pure unconditional love; that every cell of your being is being touched. We have before us, in this moment, every opportunity to become all which we have dreamed we could ever be.

Then why is it so difficult? Why is this pain in the butt issue resurfacing itself again when you thought it was over? Why can you not get OVER or through that particular experience? Why can you know something SO well intellectually, but NOT get to the shift you KNOW is possible? Why? Why? Why?

Understand this: the massive heat waves are reflections of what is happening in the universal overlay. Think about it. Imagine a pressure cooker………………………

Imagine this: You are going down a river in a boat. You are in it all by yourself. You can see the end…you can sense there is a finish…the stream is carrying you – you realize if you try to control it, another words fighting or going against the nature of the ride, you will rock the boat, you may tip over – so you sit and watch. You may hit some rough spots, watch them go by. You may lose some items from the boat as you bash the rocks or a wave takes them or the rapids carry you. But you keep holding your center. Your hands are on the seat, you breathe, you imagine the end. You imagine the calmness, the gentleness of the drifting into the settled feeling of the end of this ride. You imagine the moment when the bottom of your boat touches land and the movement of the waves, the turbulence of the river itself, the very nature of the water against rocks; ceases. No more jets, no more unexpected waterfalls, no more rocks, no more rapids.

Was it worth the ride?

All you can do is watch. Keep your center. You cannot get out and move the rocks. You cannot stop the rapids – they are part of the nature of the river. The nature of change is discomfort, especially when you hold on too tight. People hold on too tight when they lack faith, when they try to control. Change CAN be rather entertaining – when we let go and let God.

This stream of God consciousness is all around you and has avenues of life force pouring through you – it is always moving, always calling, always beckoning you towards and as it – BUT if you are in the way – well, can you say spiritual 2 x 4?

*You know you are in the way if you are in pain.

*You know you are in the way if you are emotionally attached to anything.

*You are in the way if you are trying to figure out what to do.

*You know you are in the way if your story hasn’t changed.

*You are in the way if you’re wondering what your next move should be.

*You are in the way if you are ‘worried’ about anything.

 

Oh, you’re a rock. I see you.

Oh, you’re a rapid. I feel you.

Oh, you’re a jetty…..look at you swirl the boat around.

 

LET GO AND LET GOD. No matter what it is, do it.

Last week a client asked me how come always have time for her? Why aren’t  I busier?

I am busy. Very busy. My schedule is full. BUT I let God handle my schedule. It is always perfect. I never worry what if, will I have time, how many clients? I also never time hard boiled eggs. I always get a prod when they are done. HAND IT OVER.

 

Take yourself out of it. That is what the river ride teaches us. You may not have conscious control over the ride, but you DO have choice as to how you see it and that perception will instantly shift how you experience it.  And that experience will in turn shift your vibration and your future experiences.

 

Intellectual understanding is the first level of getting something – of understanding the laws I offer. BUT change does not happen at the level of understanding. Change happens at the level of vibration. The feeling level. The emotional level. The vibe level. The God connection level.

The moment many are experiencing is the moment of understanding intellectually – but not yet embodying.  The moment many are experiencing is that they have the mind part – they FEEL relief when with me, when we talk – BUT in the everyday they have yet to let go and let God. How do I do that? Tell me what to do Deborah and I will do it! 

Change your face – look at something different. Pray. Meditate upon the good. Give to others what you wish for. Do anything which brings you JOY. Faith is a practice.  Knowing something intellectually and the spiritual path of unraveling  is like learning the piano – you can play a piece well when it is front of you – practice goes well, you learn more and more the more you practice – but at the moment you are onstage – you freeze. Or now is like college – okay, you have a degree, good for you – know go learn how to use it. Now is what happens when someone is very smart – mind  intelligence is good, it is on the road map to the heart – but not until you let go and fly will you  know God…or know what you REALLY know at a deep level.

In this moment in time, many are experiencing a rough ride, an intense ride focused on a long term kernel at the bottom of the popcorn bowl.  That one piece which is left uncooked and if you gnash down on it will break a tooth. Don’t. Let it be. Trust. Now is the time to let go and fly – to watch God work miracles. Step out of the way – give it over.

*You will know you have handed something over when you truly do not think about it anymore.

*You will know you have handed something over when your answer is, God is in charge of this. Not me.

*LOVE is the bridge. Intellectual understanding leads us to practice, practice leads us to Love, love leads us to trust and trust brings us to letting go.

We are in the letting go facet  – the hardest part. The most profound part.  Up till this point you have practiced – now, you are in the big leagues! You may have practiced on things which you were not that attached to, you may have practiced with folks you did not have emotional connection with, you may have practiced with experiences which you could take or leave – BUT NOW you can take all the faith you can muster and give it over, this important something, this experience, this painful whatever it is – and behold God.

 

Recent Ascension Symptoms:

* The moment you make a decision to do something, you forget.

* The moment you decide to go there, (wherever there is) you forget why.

* The moment you try to have control over your schedule, SOMETHING comes in and messes it up!

* You are in pain about something; physical or emotional.

* Sleeplessness.

* You feel strongly / attached about a choice YOU made and then BAMM ! An outside something changes it. (You are in the WAY!)

* LightBeings are finding increased sensitivities to foods – knowing what you can and cannot take in your body.

* LightBeings are hearing another voice, which is not referred to as a guide or from spirit(non-physical) realm, but their own higher voice, their own innate wisdom…...the wisdom of God, the wisdom which IS.

 

If you have been on a conscious spiritual awakening path in recent years, you cannot be in the world right now the way you have been. You have learned many things, read many books, listened to many workshops and teachers; your vibration has changed. IF you are in the midst of interior conflict and you are trying to do it the OLD way – and you feel disconnected. Because you are. The new way is not a natural response yet and it feels award and uncomfortable and is  called: TRANSFORMATIION. It feels like riding a rapid river. So, hold steady. Practice faith. Talk to the old way and tell it is no longer is your highest path to take…….you are now taking this path:

 “Today I let go and let God. I hand over this and this and this. I step away for the experience and KNOW that God is handling  this  better for everyone and my faith shows me; God knows best!”

 

May these thoughts bless your journey with grace. - Deborah

 ~  Saying we are in interesting times doesn’t feel enough, or isn’t close enough to the vibration of the present and pending change, is it?  This is a passage of time with themes, and perhaps hearing my perception of them, reading of them, may help support your individual journey.

 

1.    The theme of  LANGUAGE

There is an obvious language and communication discrepancy.  The less dense or some may say higher vibrations which are being experienced have no words in our human language which explain them to others.

Many times, I find myself ‘searching’ my mind for a word or phrase which can offer the equal vibration of whatever it is I am attempting to offer. The reason I am attempting to offer IT is because their soul is calling out for the mind to catch up with the more loving vibration it has reached. My searching for words can evidently look quite pained to someone who is still in their head; ‘just say it!’ – I will hear. I cannot. The reason I cannot is because the soul of the individual is prepared to be at the new level of realization, but their mind is stuck at the old, so the bridge is the offering. So, I have learned that offering a parable like tale works best. Sharing an experience which vibrates at the same level of expansion as the point I am attempting to offer is how I am able to clearly share with another. The tale does not have to have any similarities at all on the linear plan to the present moment story, crisis or communication – it is the like vibration of emotional cords which help to explain the ‘point’ and therefore the bridging of one’s mind and heart. I did not do it; the vibration of the offering is what actually causes the shift to take place for the beloved.

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2.    The theme of  - TAKE ‘I’ OUT OF IT

At this time in space and life, as you are wrestling with understanding anything, it helps to take all pronouns out of the conversation. This is a tool / bridge which can support the releasing of the energy of the ego.

“I did this, I did that”. – No, you did not. When you truly think about whatever it is you think you did, you will realize there is no way you could have done it. Something greater than you did it, and for the sake of this writing we will call that God/Spirit.

Come see my garden – I planted and grew all my own vegetables.  No, you didn’t. You could not know how to grow a vegetable if you tried. God and the Divine Perfection within the seed did it. Yes, you tended it. Yes, you followed plant protocol. Yes, you weeded and watered – but, you did not grow them.

Come behold the vegetables God grew for us!

Come witness how beautiful this garden is.

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“I manifested this! I co created this!” 

In our humanness we can not manifest anything. I never manifested any home I have lived in – God revealed them to me. I did not co create anything either. Again, the ego is fed through the teaching that I/we had anything at all to do with anything being revealed to u -- except for the ALLOWING of.  Something we desire and dream of may certainly be revealed to us, and yes, through our faith and SURRENDER we allow the Holy Spirit to work through us – but God is doing the manifesting of the revelation and nothing is being created because ALL of it is already created. Just think how hard people work at co creation. Of course they work hard, to teach that YOU have to create ANYTHING is I/ego. Too many people are tired from trying to manifest something they want in their lives – and this is a reflection of the discordant energy which is brought into the stream of consciousness through the belief that a human has to create anything – it brings instant conflict because it is an untruth. AND it keeps you in your HEAD.  

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I am sad. I am angry. I am poor. I am rich. I am lonely.

As you heal, take I AM this or that out of it.  And ALWAYS speak the words out loud.

I am experiencing sadness. I am witnessing anger in this experience.

 I am experiencing the energy of lack. I am aware of the energy of loneliness.

I AM is the most sacred term, energy, vibration. The moment you state I AM anything, you instantly BRIDGE your vibrational cords to the vibration of that particular word or words. (This is the reason in The 4 – T’s class on prosperity, it is the first tool offered to say out loud as many times a day as you can: I AM RICH.)

The I AM energy is one which is always stated out loud, even in the most unconscious situations. It is often a phrase which is repeated over and over again – depending how wretched or joyful one feels at the time.

By stating and turning your face away from I AM associated with lack awareness and stating an experience of anything, you instantly separate yourself from the vibration of whatever it is. You instantly take yourself OUT of the energy field and allow yourself to be outside it and to become an observer or witness of an experience OF --- rather than the experience itself. As well as, to consciously CHOOSE the experience you DO want to be aligned with.

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3.    The theme of Conflict / Discordant Energy

An awareness of Spirit, an awakening of Lightness, a healing at any depth, forgiveness of self or others; none of these can possibly take place in an energy field of discordancy – which comes from conflict. Once you bring an energy of being/going against anything; conflictive energy is birthed. (This can be birthed in unkindness, thoughtlessness, uncaringness, vacancy, being without compassion, narrow perceptions.) It simply does not feel good – you may feel angst in your belly, a headache, and/or tightness in your back, chest or neck. And if you are open to energies, being in the midst of it is quite uncomfortable.

Loving something free is the path of least resistance which is the only path from which Spirit may be seen, felt, reflected, experienced.

In the moment you go up against anything – you create a discordant energy which prevents you from FEELING Holy Spirit.

Fear, anger, repression, re-actions,  getting back at someone, blame, forcing an opinion on someone, making someone wrong so you can feel right, finding fault, making a person, place or thought ‘bad’; any energy in thought, opinion or other which is lack instantly brings about discordant energy which in that moment prevents one from aligning with Divine Love. It is never that Divine Love is not present; it is our allowing of It to pour through us in our thoughts, words and actions which lifts us.

Offered in Light and Love,

Deborah

.......two roads diverged in a wood and I.......

I realize, through past experiences, this may offend some folks. If you get angry at democrats, you may not want to read this. If you are fighting tooth and nail to hang on to old ways, you may not want to read this. If you believe that my position as a minister is crossing the line in giving my political views, you really do not want to read this. If you are the least bit curious how I/we could possibly put a spiritual metaphysical spin on politics, then you want to read this.

For the past few weeks I have been treading water, politically speaking. Yet, after I sat in the humbleness and magnificence of Michelle Obama’s 2012 speech, I had an epiphany.

In my family I have two strict republicans who I respect and love; my sister and my son. One of them lives in the same house with me, and is an excellent explainer of politics and this not so clear system I have never found to fully understand, nor grasp.  I have felt for weeks, like oh so many of us, that this election and our upcoming individual vote is critical. I have been swayed moment to moment, cautious of the aspect of choice I and we must make. I am now surer than ever of my personal direction.

As I heard Mrs. Obama’s words I found my own voice, radiating in my head, repeating my life’s mission. I am a minster, counselor, teacher and spiritual mentor. I encourage Oneness and the sanction of humanity. I am a soulful independent, who believes in the seed of power within all beings. I believe it takes a tribe. We are not, nor are we ever alone. I see now, that this is not an election of men; nor of parties. It is a choice of ego or soul, of lack or oneness, of head or heart.

In past few weeks I heard what the republicans were saying and read numbers put together by who knows who, and I felt my ego and my belly begin to fear ‘what about the economy – what about the money – what about the good ole American way?’.

In my own head I was hearing what some may term republican voices. It was amazing to me – for my own private practice has never been so abundant as it is right now,  in over 20 years and my family has many blessings of the linear plan, our lives are good, rich and full. Why was I hearing it? I knew something within was off. I was feeling out of balance. I was feeling pulled. I took the head path and asked questions, listened to ‘the other views’. My heart told me, ‘do not be afraid to hear what the others say, make a clear, full and strong choice!’.

I often suggest to my clients; either you choose to move (forward) or not. I can support you to go there, I can offer you tools, but it is all your choice. I cannot do it for you. Either you have faith in your choice, the choice which calls you; or not. Either you are willing to invest in yourself or not. I also explain to them that going from what was to what will be can be VERY messy. Transformation is never pretty. To unload old beliefs, inner structures, thoughts and ways can be a significantly frightening experience. But, having faith in what you KNOW IS POSSIBLE is the key.

It is all too easy, in our humanness, to sway to the ego, to say yes to fear, to cop out before the revelation!!  As the fierce Mrs. Obama said, this office of presidency does not change you; it reveals the person you are. I believe my personal inner challenge to choose in this election has also revealed who I am.

In our personal journeys, the aspect of change reveals who we are. The idea of transformation, of shifting to another way of being, of doing even the slightest thing differently; can be scary – yet when we do, we are empowered beyond measure, for that aspect of ourselves that said yes, which started with a what if, begins to shine, pulse and create more goodness than before.

Years ago I voted for Obama. I felt that this was a good, decent man. I had no idea what kind of politician he was. I went with my gut. He was refreshing. I am sure I am not alone on this. Some of us choose elections with our gut, it’s just the way it is, I admit it. I dare say, most of us do not understand the political machine as it is; no doubt, not even some folks on the inside.

Now, after listening to Clinton, as well as to last night’s final evening of the DNC; I know more than ever. This is a clash between the lack and the promise of that which is yet revealed. As in our own lives, we are asked to keep the faith, our eye and heart on what has yet to be seen; until it is revealed to us. It is always the darkest before the dawn.

My response to my many relatives  who adamantly,  passionately and what I see as fearfully believe in the republican ticket simply because of their experience of a horrible economy; is I thank you for being so loud, so emotionally violent against the what is yet to be – we are in the midst of a grave transformation my friends. We are heading into 12/2012, the end of the Mayan calendar as it has been stated – we have the awe inspiring choice to be part of supporting the foundation of our ancestors as well as our future beings - to be part of an age of humanity. 

President Obama and his circle of speakers stated it honestly; we are not yet where we want to be. In transformation as in change, it is ALWAYS messy. But does that mean we give up? NO!

I personally see and believe we are at a fork, of great magnitude, in the road of our civilization. A fork of right or left. A fork of oneness and wholeness or singular independent stand aloneness. I believe this is IT! I believe this same fork, with different plots and players have been the downfall of prior civilizations. Some of us may have imagined this coming of the golden age would commence with a vision of angelic beings and heavens opening up or imagined Jesus would stand before us or Archangel Michael’s sword would cut us loose from our own tangled egos – but the truth is WE DO THAT. Is that not what I say to everyone?! We, are our own savior and only we can make the choice to choose love or not. At each turn we choose to say yes to God or no, to push back or forge ahead. Every action we take, every choice we make brings us closer to wholeness or it keeps us apart. Every choice.

And I state with my most open heart possible; now, we are at that choice. Now. Right now is a time of choice to vote for the goodness of humanity, to support the truth we, at the ALM speak of - that to see an awareness of God as every being, is our  work – or, we shy away, hunker down in the catacombs of victimhood laced with monetary fear and blame.

Since my freshman year in high school, this has been a favorite:

TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference. Robert Frost

 

Bless our journey’s, choices, hearts and the world. May we each keep faith is that which has not yet been revealed.

Thank you. – Rev. Deborah Evans Hogan

Sparkle to Sparkle

(Written by a young light-being visitor on thier first venture to this plane.)

There is so much I do not understand. From a psychological perspective, energy perspective, I do get it, I took the course in human life, (101 only) ; and yet, being here with you all - there is a blatant simplicity to all of IT, and I continue to wonder, why more people don't get IT? Why do humans insist on staying, standing, 'being in their own way'? It is actually being in the way of God, of Love. Why don't humans simply surrender, step aside and allow love to flow in their lives? Why after all the books, hallmark movies, some great big screen films, teachers we have sent, everyday moments you each have had; do you STILL shy away from loving? ( I know, not all of you, but many...........)

So why do you think people tend to see the negative instead of the love?  What is it in the human make up which creates such a drastic connection to the lack? (Which is not bad, this lack is simply an empty energetic vessel waiting to recognize God.)

You do an incredible job in sticking to what did not go well, rather than what does go well. It is an art form. Some days I can observe anywhere of 3 or 4 millions souls who have had incredibly good and great moments in their lives on a particular day; and by the end of it they are expelling energy on what is not, what goes wrong, what will not be, what if.....

And why are you so busy? What is it about filling every single moment of your day? Why are you in such a hurry? You insist on going rather than being. Utterly exhausting for you. It is very disconcerting to us. Stop. Watch a sunrise, a sunset, a child playing. Look at an elders face, look in someones eyes. Listen to birds. Its all here for you. Look.

And this thing you do about drawing attention to greed, murder, illness, all the lack stuff. Yes, its there as part of the optional pathway design for human life; BUT it does not mean you have to pay attention to it! Stop making movies, stop going to the movies that are made about it, stop reading the books, stop filling your heart with such deafening energy. Wherever you pay attention to grows. It is up to you. Yes, the journey can be hard, but that does not mean impossible. It means you pray for assistance and make it a practice to look the other way, to what is whole, healthy, kind and GOOD for your heart.

Take grieving: I see that humans do not understand that life continues, that you will meet again and again and again. I see that not having these memories is beneficial for your spiritual growth; BUT, when you have had wonderful relationships with other souls, when you have laughed, loved, played together, when you have had intimacy with others, when your soul has been opened through the love of another person; when they come home, why do you grieve? I understand you see loss, but what stops you from seeing the Love? What stops you from seeing, remembering, feeling how wonderful it was, how great it was to share this thing you call life with one another. Why when you have had it all as some of you say; do you concentrate on what you feel you no longer can have; rather than rejoice in what you did have? Do you have any idea how hard you all make the idea of relationships? I'll give you the fact that they are challenging, that God gave them to you in order to expand consciously; but you MUST remember, you CHOSE to come here; so why not have faith that this too is good? Why do you attach yourself to loss rather than gratitude? The gratitude will help you tremendously. Gratitude is one of the most beautiful divine healing methods God designed. The moment you allow yourself to feel gratitude, your heart energy shifts and you FEEL better.

Plus, your loved ones who leave their bodies, get to come home. Dust to dust as your big book says; or how about sparkle to sparkle; between you and me this is more accurate. Believe me, it is gorgeous on this other side as you say; magnificent beyond your imagination. Besides, your 'deceased' loved ones are not really gone, they are just out of body. The body gets tired, it is not perfect, but its the best form of transportation that has been designed so far for the earths atmosphere.

Why do you feel anger helps any situation? How can that possibly help? Think about it. You feel anger, as if that is destroying another person when what it is doing is destroying you. Anger harbors a nasty vibration which is dense and corrupt. It comes from forgetting; we chose to come here, every thought you have, every action you take brings you to where you are right now; all of your life here is a BIG MIRROR. Look in it and see yourself. Be honest. Forgiveness is the key. Once you can step aside from blame, and know that every soul in human disguise has walked in another persons path - we have each been this or that, there is understanding. Often, you choose to take it all so personally, you take in the anger and damage your own heart.  Please don't do this. Stand in forgiveness and understanding that whatever one has been through has brought them to where they are right now; and loosen your rightness reigns and allow understanding to flow. Understanding is NOT acceptance by the way. Understanding does NOT mean you agree. Understanding was designed so you could soften and not cause damage to your own vibration. We all here get very concerned at all the damage you cause your hearts with this very finite way of looking at life.(They are wrong, I am right. They did bad, I am good. I don't deserve this, they are mean. Okay, what if you did have an experience with a lack energy - how is it beneficial to keep making it your story?)) Life is so much more infinite than your minds can manage. I know you may think this is foolish, but I would never chance coming here and being with you if all this were not the Truth. Anybody who has truly forgiven can tell you how freeing it is. Talk to them if you don't believe me. 

Trust the Good.

And finally, I wish you would stop trying to figure out so much. Your unique energy package was designed so you could feel your way through your journey. Yes, you have a thinking mind, but once you take the time to know yourself, and make different choices as to how you wish to show up here, and then your heart is fully opened to Spirit; you can feel your way through it all. God gave you an inner compass - directives to yes and no, do or don't, go or stay. This interior compass vibration does not come through your head or figures on paper; it comes through your heart feeling center. And I do not mean emotions; those emotions will get in your way also; I mean, know yourself. Sit with your being-ness, align with loving , kind thoughts, clear the density from your interior vibration and THEN, you can feel your way through your journey and no matter what happens; you will be okay. More than okay. You will be detached, clear, unconditionally loving, kind, supportive and in your glowing Oneness. 


Good visions! I hope I get to come back again. If this is helpful, I will be allowed. Thank you.

We're human - get over it.

Once again I struggle with 'the attachment to what you do syndrome.' Please forgive me. (Yes, I've read Ruiz. No, I do not take it personally. Yes, I know you see only from you own perception.) It is a real pain in my day when my humanness decides to remind me I am in this body, on this earth, living and breathing just like the rest of you. damn. This attachment disorder creates havoc in my life - if only for the most minute moment. It will cause me to have restless sleep, sit in company of others with nothing to say because my internal wheels are moving at record speed and depth about who said what, who did what and is there any need for me to shamefully walk myself to the city center and ask to be hung in the gallows by my peers. Yup, that bad. And just when I was having such an incredibly great week. damn again.

This doesn't rear its ugly head very often, most days it is the sleeping nightmare, willing to lay so low and angelically quiet I can pretend it no longer exists, causing me to feel very evolved. (come on now, you know what I mean.)  Fortunately for my spiritual growth, this is not a permanent state of being. Unfortunately, for my open heart and costume of humanness I am wearing in this lifetime -  it holds quite a mean kick in ones own butt. The worse part of it is you have NO idea you have yourself on a pedestal until you are laying splat on the ground awaiting all the kings-men to put you back to together again. know what? they never show. damn those childhood stories. no white knights and no kings-men.

Rarely, but it does happen, I awake from a restless nights' sleep, waiting and wishing to take yesterday and roll it up in a ball, (like stripping the bed of unclean sheets), and tossing the ball away. Pure & simply. Just take all of yesterday and cause it to disintegrate. Sigh. Just forget about it, make it non existent. Yup. Sounds good to me.

Oh, but then, the juicy uncomfortableness which causes me to stretch myself in contorted thinking and emotional gymnastics would be naught. my spirit would lay stagnant - or would it?
Can we truly be non attached to another persons opions, beliefs and actions? Is it humanly possible to call upon our selves to not care, to think of ourselves as so detached and 'evolved' that what ever you do has no affect on me?
Can we live by this code :(......maybe, but will we thrive?)

I do not want to have any say, feeling, response or thought at all (silent or other) about  what you do, how you do it or why you do it. i respect whatever choice you make, simply because you're choosing. and i expect the same from you. 

Do you ever find yourself trying too hard to be good?  (Come on...you know you do.) Trying too hard to convince yourself and everyone around you, you are saintly, nice and live by the golden rules? Do you ever feel that you just want to scream: We're human-get over it!!!!

I know that when my words or actions place me in a position of telling you how to behave, I feel awful. It is SO wrong. I know that in the depths of my soul, even when it shows up in the most subtle of ways, when I use the excuse of guidelines, or boundaries, or this is my business......when I make stuff up to fit my ego driven humanness; that I find myself quickly doing the walk of shame. It feels terrible, really terrible. In these moments I am so deeply aware of forgetting God, of forgetting love....I feel sick.  I really want to not care what you do. None of it. I do a pretty good job of this - I live an honest existence of allowing others to be - yet, there are rare times when I kick myself in the butt with this thing of judging what you do - and boy, it is a very uncomfortable, painful, HUGE spiritual 2 x 4. Right upside my head. Damn, that hurts.   

So, once again I thank an unknown to you soul, who majestically entered my life to allow me to see this dried up popcorn kernel seed in the depth of my spirit - this  ego driven piece of yuckiness. (This doesn't mean I want you back in my life, it just means next time, I will do it differently.) Once again I will go to my client guidelines and change things, create new information, tweak the ideas, offer it a new way. One day, I can only pray, that in this incarnation, I will get it "right". I will be able to feel truly and honestly so separate from your stuff, so centered in my own knowing, that no matter what your lovely, majestic and beautiful self does; it has no affect on me.