Several years ago I intitiated the "lets move to warmer climate" conversation with my husband. In the financial realm it was a good time to try it, but he/we hesitated due to familiy commitments. As I look back on that decision today, living in Massachsuetts I say 'ugh'.
Winter is always a quiet time for me. It is the nautral time to go inward, to regroup, to listen. I believe that is Gods way for us, the universal path of nature. Yet, this winter dons a bit more of it, for I am now living in the midst of 30 acres, no other houses, lots of snow and this morning lots of ice. Clients rescheduling, me rescheduling clients, people busy with shoveling.....getting the plow man, the ice man and all coordinated.....the list goes on. This quiet time has taken me into a deeply introspective journey - looking from another perspective on this thing called life.
During the holiday season I was very busy with clients/beloveds in hospice and at end of life rituals. When anyone has three deaths in one week, our energies need a breather - a respite for the heart. And yet I see it as what has been the perfect sedge way into this reclusive philosophical mode I am in. I have found myself standing outside looking in more than usual - and for me, that is quite a bit.
How emotions drive us - in our humanness, this idea of when we do not have the tools to deal with life on an emotional level - we shut down. Truly. Everyone does it. Some of us shut down for one conversation, others for a lifetime. Any of us who are honest at looking within ourselves has to admit, emotional health is where we find our balance. But where does it come from? If the rational mind is in charge, we shut our hearts off from feeling. If our hearts are in charge, we shut off our rational mind from having a say and pulling us out of the goop that is built up in our heart centers.
The other day I witnessed a wonderful, kind, loving mother have a hard conversation with her six year old about dying. The family had recently experienced an unexpected death of the six year olds' great aunt, who was an active part of the family. It was a difficult conversation; not only due to the topic and the age of the interrogator, but because this family does not have strong religious or spiritual foundation - no active faith in the non physical realms. It pained me to listen and when offered to share my wisdom, I was challenged to not look into this childs eyes and say; Honey, your aunt has gone home to heaven to be with God and all her angels. She is never far from your heart, her love will always be with you.
At this tme, it was not my place to bring God or heaven into this family, respecting their beliefs. I believe I said we go home to where we came from, our bodies change into light
and transform into the sky..........but for a six year old, going home to God in heaven may have been a bit more comforting if heaven or God had been a weekly part of their lives. In my eyes, what they do have faith in leads them no where.
I love this family. They are loving and fabulous and going thru a challenging time. Other than the late aunt, there is also depression in the family effecting all of them. Everytime I am with them, I cannot help but be reminded how ones faith in the non physical realm of life is all ways a comfort. Without faith in that which we cannot see, (which is what hope is) a mystery, how does one have emotional health? Emotional balance? If I thought this was it, if like my atheist relatives & aquaintances I believed there was nothing more than 'this' - where in ones heart do we find any comfort? How do I comfort the 75 year old father whose 50 year old daughter just died when he believes this is it, when he believes everything about his daughter is done. Non existent. What does he do with the pain in his heart? I knew his daughter for a year and a half. Her dying left a hole in my heart - I cannot imagine what it left in her families.
But my hole was rapidly filled with acknowledging the loss and knowing she is home with God, at peace and she & I commune at will.
When we do not believe in the non physical apsects of healing, of healing from within, where is the hope for balance? Where is the comfort - the pain will move through my body and one day I will be able to feel my loved one again, hear her voice, watch for signals of her attempting to reach me from the other sdie? Where is the hope?
I often speak of finite vs infinite and in my deep pondering the infinite takes precedant. I see the pain in clients lives who have no faith in a greater goodness. I see the struggle in their lives when they cannot find a sensible, 'rational' way to see the potential of good in a situation. If one only believes in what is in front of them - why even have an imagination, a heart, a prayer?
As I continue my path as a minister, counselor and healer, I come to know more and more each day, that those without faith in the non physical, a spiritual sense of life - suffer the most. I do not like to say this, it sounds too crass, too porochial, too know it all. I hear that, I really do. It takes all I have to write this, to admit it. But I have to. Both my rational mind and my heart see the same thing - when one has no faith in an existence beyond this earthly humanness - dying is hard. To them, death is devastating, a punshment to those left here on this plane. When one cannot lift themselvs up by thier hope filled boot straps in times of darkness - knowing this too shall pass - they wade into the deep end of a dark pool and have to control their existence which then shuts them off from feeling anything at all. Death in body or death in heart?
As I have witnessed many leave this phsyical form, I have witnessed those who feel safe leaving, who have faith in God, who have faith in an after life - leave in peace. Leave beautifully. They have a foundation of faith that this is not it - and believe they are moving into a better life.
I watch souls who suffer from depression and other emotional challenges and my heart opens to their paths. They have chosen difficult paths of resistance -
My hearts goes out to the millions of souls who do not have emotional health, a healthy loving heart - a heart that says yes! There is more, there is another, there is something better! My heart opens to those who do not honor the natural cyles of life and death in all things and believe death is punshment.
We are each here doing the best we can do at any given time, but our potential is always more and we tap into that potential through communion with Spirit. If you are reading this right now and are one of the ones who do not have a conscious spiritual life - PLEASE, create one. Look at the stars and wonder. Go to YOGA. Visit a house of worship/celebration. Contemplate what is behind the thought. Ask before you go to sleep at night to be shown a way to hope, a way to learn about the nonphsyical apsects of this thing we are doing called existing. Please, find a way to have faith in the pure possibilities of a totaly irrational, crazy and unexplainable something. Your heart may just find it comforting.
I want this for you. You have my word, that moving through difficult times is eased with faith that it is better on the other side. With faith that this too shall pass. With faith that we are all right where we need to be. With faith that you have the same potential within you that I with in me and I see your Divinity. With faith that NOTHING is too big, or too hard or too sad or too far gone for God. Nothing.
(As I was finalizing this peice, my heart chakra is wide open, aching with the sharing of this truth. From my heart to yours, with love, Deborah.)
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Determination
Last week I clicked the TV to Joyce Meyers Ministry - now you know, if you did not already; I enjoy television Evangelists, ministers, etc. Yes, even Benny Hinn sometimes gets my attention. But, back to Joyce. I really like her. Really. Yes, she interprets the bible more traditionally than I - but we seem to get to the same place.
What do I like about her? I love her passion for what she does. I love that I heard her once tell the story that when she was newly married, she thought something was wrong with her - she did not care about the garden, the laundry, the housework, the dinners, the color of the walls. All she cared about was preaching. She stated how much easier her life may have been had she been able to be like her perfect housewife neighbor; but alas, she was to preach and that is what she does.
The other day Joyce Meyers was speaking about determination. I never thought of it as spiritual attribute before - until I listened to her speak about how determined the (devil) is to get us. As I/we may say; our ego (egding God out) is out to get us! Our ego will do whatever it takes to make us believe it is in charge. We HAVE to be determined to know the good in this life. We have to be DETERMINED in our faith and belief and knowing that good prevails; even in the darkest of times.
I have been giving the word determined some time this week. Am I determined enough? Have I been
determined enough in my ministry, in my life, in my dreams. To answer honestly, no. I am determined enough in the moment of being with a loved one, in the very moments of giving a Sunday talk, in the action of a service of any kind - I am all-ways determined when it has to do with obvious God faithed moments - but what about the other moments?...and are not ALL moments God faithed moments?! What about the inner moments of doubt? Where is the determination then? And what allows a person to feel or rather to embody determination?
We KNOW when we are truly determined. And for me, being determined takes on a spiritual energy when we are determined even though the outcome on the linear plane looks not so great. We have to find ourselves determined for God! We must engage in determination when we want to see attributes of God flourishing in our lives.
The addict can doubt their own courage; but be determined to say NO! and see God come through with the courage. Determination which comes from ones Love for Spirit is opposite of determination which comes from the ego, the I can do this. I KNOW God can do this, I KNOW God can clean me up, can take away my anger, can calm my fears; I KNOW Gods courage can show up here and I am determined to see that courage, to feel that courage, to embody that courage.
In our darkest moments, in order to prevail, we say; God, I am determined here. I am utterly, purely and passionately determined to see You - so I will take this step, this one step and then watch for You. I will go to an AA meeting, I will walk into that clinic, I will tell the truth to my family, I will let go what I thought everything should look like, admit what it feels like and be determined to feel your Grace to pour through me!
Be determined to NOT let lack get you. Be DETERMINED to create space for goodness in your journey through waking the talk - show up - God WILL do the rest.
"Today I will do the best I can - and leave the rest to God."
What do I like about her? I love her passion for what she does. I love that I heard her once tell the story that when she was newly married, she thought something was wrong with her - she did not care about the garden, the laundry, the housework, the dinners, the color of the walls. All she cared about was preaching. She stated how much easier her life may have been had she been able to be like her perfect housewife neighbor; but alas, she was to preach and that is what she does.
The other day Joyce Meyers was speaking about determination. I never thought of it as spiritual attribute before - until I listened to her speak about how determined the (devil) is to get us. As I/we may say; our ego (egding God out) is out to get us! Our ego will do whatever it takes to make us believe it is in charge. We HAVE to be determined to know the good in this life. We have to be DETERMINED in our faith and belief and knowing that good prevails; even in the darkest of times.
I have been giving the word determined some time this week. Am I determined enough? Have I been
determined enough in my ministry, in my life, in my dreams. To answer honestly, no. I am determined enough in the moment of being with a loved one, in the very moments of giving a Sunday talk, in the action of a service of any kind - I am all-ways determined when it has to do with obvious God faithed moments - but what about the other moments?...and are not ALL moments God faithed moments?! What about the inner moments of doubt? Where is the determination then? And what allows a person to feel or rather to embody determination?
We KNOW when we are truly determined. And for me, being determined takes on a spiritual energy when we are determined even though the outcome on the linear plane looks not so great. We have to find ourselves determined for God! We must engage in determination when we want to see attributes of God flourishing in our lives.
The addict can doubt their own courage; but be determined to say NO! and see God come through with the courage. Determination which comes from ones Love for Spirit is opposite of determination which comes from the ego, the I can do this. I KNOW God can do this, I KNOW God can clean me up, can take away my anger, can calm my fears; I KNOW Gods courage can show up here and I am determined to see that courage, to feel that courage, to embody that courage.
In our darkest moments, in order to prevail, we say; God, I am determined here. I am utterly, purely and passionately determined to see You - so I will take this step, this one step and then watch for You. I will go to an AA meeting, I will walk into that clinic, I will tell the truth to my family, I will let go what I thought everything should look like, admit what it feels like and be determined to feel your Grace to pour through me!
Be determined to NOT let lack get you. Be DETERMINED to create space for goodness in your journey through waking the talk - show up - God WILL do the rest.
"Today I will do the best I can - and leave the rest to God."
Monday, January 3, 2011
What is my Religion?
Often I find it awkward trying to describe what it is I have faith in; exactly. That is, when asked by those who do not share my beliefs and/or have not had an experience of Spirit -God. But, I do believe this will change that. And please, let me begin by stating I overwhelmed in a very positive way, at the moment, with the palpable presence of Spirit.
A Story:
Last week I found myself at The Merrimack Valley Hospice, sitting with & supporting a beloveds family as she made her transition into the non-physical. Her name is Maureen. The last time we spoke, she and I had promised that I would remain open to her making her presence known to me, and she had my permission to try whatever she could to reach me from the other side.
In the midst of my being with her family I (coincidentally) received a phone call from a beloved who lives in Louisiana asking me about her friends end of life process and hospice. I also noticed a man I remembered. He was walking in and out of a patients room, I assuming it was a parent of his. I recognized him from having seen him a few years ago with an old friend of mine. They had been at a play, sitting in front of me, with this lovely woman I had known years and years ago. A woman who I had shared a past life with - a woman who had been an active part of my life twenty years ago. His presence made me think of her, this woman with who I shared so much - the same college, being an artist, dating the same men with hysterical frequency, children the same age..............and having shared the first portrait of Jesus I had ever seen, she had painted. We were ten years apart in age, but from the moment we met at her college graduation, we were akin. But, I did not know him, and simply sent blessings to his journey and his beloveds process.
The last day I was at hospice, Spirit told me to linger a while after my purpose had been fulfilled with her family. Shortly after that in came a new patient, escorted by her daughter who I had married. The patient was an acquaintance from Newburyport. I had a moment to be with her daughter. A blessing. Then Spirit told me to visit the chapel before I left. On
the outside of the chapel was there was a sign with the names of the givers - and I read the name of the man who oversees the Trust of the property I caretake.
I received the call Maureen had transitioned two days latter. As I drove into Newburyport from Boxford, on a road I have taken hundreds of times, I asked out loud for Maureen to let me know she had arrived safely - and I had to slow my car down and then I saw it, a road sign, Maureen Lane. I had never seen this before.
Yesterday as I was thinking about her memorial and planning my thoughts around my words I asked Spirit to show me her obituary. I awoke this morning in the wee hours to find my husband had bought the Globe, which since we are now a cyber paper reading family was odd. There it was, Maureen's obituary, just as I had asked. And also, there it was, the unexpected - my old friends obituary - she had died one day after Maureen, in the same hospice. The man I recognized had been with his beloved as she died. Our pathes continued to cross. I had walked by her room. Our lifelines, our knowing of one another, from lifetimes ago.
Twenty years ago I went for a past life regression and learned that this woman, called Erin in this life and I had been lovers. She had died in my arms during the Martin Luther religious wars. Her name had been Caterine, mine had been David. I was protestant, a soldier. She was Catholic, a maiden. When I shared my experience with her she cried. She had just written a short story the previous week and our story was her short story! And her daughter in this present life, her first word was Caterine - and no one knew why.
So it appears that Maureen let me know she arrived on the Other Side - and that Erin,(Caterine) and I shared another dying process.
And so it continues - my deep Faith in this called Life. That at any one moment all emotions and aspects of life and death are happening. That the bigness and infinite sense of this thing called Life is more immense than we could possibly imagine. That God is CONSTANTLY present - and that we are eternally connected. We are connected through the Great Creator and we will always be. Nothing dies - it continues in a new form. My religion? To remain open, at all times, to the non-physical aspects of God, that which connects us in Love.
A Story:
Last week I found myself at The Merrimack Valley Hospice, sitting with & supporting a beloveds family as she made her transition into the non-physical. Her name is Maureen. The last time we spoke, she and I had promised that I would remain open to her making her presence known to me, and she had my permission to try whatever she could to reach me from the other side.
In the midst of my being with her family I (coincidentally) received a phone call from a beloved who lives in Louisiana asking me about her friends end of life process and hospice. I also noticed a man I remembered. He was walking in and out of a patients room, I assuming it was a parent of his. I recognized him from having seen him a few years ago with an old friend of mine. They had been at a play, sitting in front of me, with this lovely woman I had known years and years ago. A woman who I had shared a past life with - a woman who had been an active part of my life twenty years ago. His presence made me think of her, this woman with who I shared so much - the same college, being an artist, dating the same men with hysterical frequency, children the same age..............and having shared the first portrait of Jesus I had ever seen, she had painted. We were ten years apart in age, but from the moment we met at her college graduation, we were akin. But, I did not know him, and simply sent blessings to his journey and his beloveds process.
The last day I was at hospice, Spirit told me to linger a while after my purpose had been fulfilled with her family. Shortly after that in came a new patient, escorted by her daughter who I had married. The patient was an acquaintance from Newburyport. I had a moment to be with her daughter. A blessing. Then Spirit told me to visit the chapel before I left. On
the outside of the chapel was there was a sign with the names of the givers - and I read the name of the man who oversees the Trust of the property I caretake.
I received the call Maureen had transitioned two days latter. As I drove into Newburyport from Boxford, on a road I have taken hundreds of times, I asked out loud for Maureen to let me know she had arrived safely - and I had to slow my car down and then I saw it, a road sign, Maureen Lane. I had never seen this before.
Yesterday as I was thinking about her memorial and planning my thoughts around my words I asked Spirit to show me her obituary. I awoke this morning in the wee hours to find my husband had bought the Globe, which since we are now a cyber paper reading family was odd. There it was, Maureen's obituary, just as I had asked. And also, there it was, the unexpected - my old friends obituary - she had died one day after Maureen, in the same hospice. The man I recognized had been with his beloved as she died. Our pathes continued to cross. I had walked by her room. Our lifelines, our knowing of one another, from lifetimes ago.
Twenty years ago I went for a past life regression and learned that this woman, called Erin in this life and I had been lovers. She had died in my arms during the Martin Luther religious wars. Her name had been Caterine, mine had been David. I was protestant, a soldier. She was Catholic, a maiden. When I shared my experience with her she cried. She had just written a short story the previous week and our story was her short story! And her daughter in this present life, her first word was Caterine - and no one knew why.
So it appears that Maureen let me know she arrived on the Other Side - and that Erin,(Caterine) and I shared another dying process.
And so it continues - my deep Faith in this called Life. That at any one moment all emotions and aspects of life and death are happening. That the bigness and infinite sense of this thing called Life is more immense than we could possibly imagine. That God is CONSTANTLY present - and that we are eternally connected. We are connected through the Great Creator and we will always be. Nothing dies - it continues in a new form. My religion? To remain open, at all times, to the non-physical aspects of God, that which connects us in Love.
Friday, December 31, 2010
Bloated Nothingness
"Let us get our bloated nothingness out of the way of Divine Circuits." - Ralph Waldo Emerson.
Okay, there you have it - my New Years resolution, prayer & cry! Dear God, Divine Perfection, Great Mystery - starting right now, in this very moment, may I get my bloated nothingness out of the way of Your eternal Perfection in all things. Talk about being set free!
Signs of BLOATED NOTHINGNESS
1. The inability to laugh at oneself.
2. The belief that everyone else is wrong.
3........or even that someone else is wrong.
4. The thought that you cannot be this until you have that.
5. The idea that you know more about someone elses life than they know about their own.
6. The idea that another person has to become something different in order for you to be happy.
7. In your vocabulary there is often these words heard: You should, I know, I want, I have to, You have to, Do it this way.......................................
8. You think your way is the only way.
9. You talk more than you listen.
10. You find yourself listening more to yourself, than discerning through Spirit.
I don't know abut your bloated nothingness, (chances are pretty good they are close in nature!) but mine can pop up at the most unusual places. In places that have nothing to do with itself - like your opinions, your thoughts, your ideas and your life style. My bloated nothingness thinks it has a say with your life. Imagine its audacity and humbleness when it finds out it has no more illusion of power to stomp around thinking it is, or it knows, or even that it exists at all!
I give it credit though, for nothingness it sure can be loud. This bloated nothingness can herald in my mind like 76 trombones about the most unimportant things! (Like why did you leave your sweater here, why didn't you take it upstairs, why did you say that? Why are you not thinking like me?...blah, blah, blah...) And in my years of this life experience, I have discovered through very finite & credible investigation that bloated nothingness loves to attach itself to the past, to what was. It is so full of nothingness that it sucks upon the past as if it is important! This bloated nothingness can tell stories in grand style, stories of what was and it can make you believe it will be that way again! This bloated nothingness feeds upon the tinest, weakest speck of *&^&^%$ and feeds it until it breaks out if its cage and can feel like slime throughout your heart and spirit! For nothingness it can sure weigh you down and cause you to doubt your own good. And the most amazing thing about our own bloated nothingness is the more we pay attention to it, the more space we think it takes up and this gerbil wheel of nothingness cranks itself up to high speed until we fall to our knees and say 'enough!'.
So, I invite you to join me in this New Years resolution to allow, yes, allow, with great faith in the yet unknown - to allow yourself to step out of the way of your bloated nothingness - that's it, simply step a bit to the left, a bit to the right, go ahead, like a swift cat bravely take the slightest curve in a new direction and get out of its way - and INTO the way of Divine Circuitry! That's it, step from one lane into another, from one thought to another, from one breath to another - go ahead, with intention say no to your bloated nothingness and say yes to the flow of Gods Goodness and Grace to pour through you. Go ahead, step right into Divine Circuitry and let the electric shocks of God love and immensity take you for the ride of your existence!
In this New Year may those who consciously choose, be magnified through the allowing of Divine Circuitry - passion, faith, joy, health, peace, kindness, hope, creativity, wealth, abundance, laughter, lightness, wisdom, Spiritual partnership, strength, courage........to all the good the Universe has prepared!
with my love & Spirit filled blessings of all that you can possibly dream -
Deborah
Okay, there you have it - my New Years resolution, prayer & cry! Dear God, Divine Perfection, Great Mystery - starting right now, in this very moment, may I get my bloated nothingness out of the way of Your eternal Perfection in all things. Talk about being set free!
Signs of BLOATED NOTHINGNESS
1. The inability to laugh at oneself.
2. The belief that everyone else is wrong.
3........or even that someone else is wrong.
4. The thought that you cannot be this until you have that.
5. The idea that you know more about someone elses life than they know about their own.
6. The idea that another person has to become something different in order for you to be happy.
7. In your vocabulary there is often these words heard: You should, I know, I want, I have to, You have to, Do it this way.......................................
8. You think your way is the only way.
9. You talk more than you listen.
10. You find yourself listening more to yourself, than discerning through Spirit.
I don't know abut your bloated nothingness, (chances are pretty good they are close in nature!) but mine can pop up at the most unusual places. In places that have nothing to do with itself - like your opinions, your thoughts, your ideas and your life style. My bloated nothingness thinks it has a say with your life. Imagine its audacity and humbleness when it finds out it has no more illusion of power to stomp around thinking it is, or it knows, or even that it exists at all!
I give it credit though, for nothingness it sure can be loud. This bloated nothingness can herald in my mind like 76 trombones about the most unimportant things! (Like why did you leave your sweater here, why didn't you take it upstairs, why did you say that? Why are you not thinking like me?...blah, blah, blah...) And in my years of this life experience, I have discovered through very finite & credible investigation that bloated nothingness loves to attach itself to the past, to what was. It is so full of nothingness that it sucks upon the past as if it is important! This bloated nothingness can tell stories in grand style, stories of what was and it can make you believe it will be that way again! This bloated nothingness feeds upon the tinest, weakest speck of *&^&^%$ and feeds it until it breaks out if its cage and can feel like slime throughout your heart and spirit! For nothingness it can sure weigh you down and cause you to doubt your own good. And the most amazing thing about our own bloated nothingness is the more we pay attention to it, the more space we think it takes up and this gerbil wheel of nothingness cranks itself up to high speed until we fall to our knees and say 'enough!'.
So, I invite you to join me in this New Years resolution to allow, yes, allow, with great faith in the yet unknown - to allow yourself to step out of the way of your bloated nothingness - that's it, simply step a bit to the left, a bit to the right, go ahead, like a swift cat bravely take the slightest curve in a new direction and get out of its way - and INTO the way of Divine Circuitry! That's it, step from one lane into another, from one thought to another, from one breath to another - go ahead, with intention say no to your bloated nothingness and say yes to the flow of Gods Goodness and Grace to pour through you. Go ahead, step right into Divine Circuitry and let the electric shocks of God love and immensity take you for the ride of your existence!
In this New Year may those who consciously choose, be magnified through the allowing of Divine Circuitry - passion, faith, joy, health, peace, kindness, hope, creativity, wealth, abundance, laughter, lightness, wisdom, Spiritual partnership, strength, courage........to all the good the Universe has prepared!
with my love & Spirit filled blessings of all that you can possibly dream -
Deborah
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Seasonal Greeting
Dear Beloveds;
From deep in my heart I greet you, hug you, wrap my arms around you - smile at you, witness you & feel your presence - welcome to another day.
We must always be reminded that nothing is against us - that God is all-ways for us. It is Spirits undeniable calling which rustles up the uncomfortable-ness and beckons us to call upon the attributes of God which will relieve us from our own disillusionments.
I know a man whose wife is dying. I sit with her and her light is so very bright, her presence of faith is palpable in every word she speaks. She is present with family, friends, and hospice support. Despite her earth walk; her mind is attached to faith in Good, to gratitude for this moment she is being given, to the love which surrounds her. Yet, he, her spouse; is filled with rage, anger and fear. He cannot be in a room with more than two people. Through immense vibration, his heart is forced open by the love in the room! Because his heart is so filled with anger, grief and rage at God, when he is in the vibration of so much love - he runs; his body, his pain is forced to be felt - for anything unlike the Light is released unto the Universal Presence - and all that will remain is the Love.
It is the releasing, the transitional time, the transformational process - those moments where if there is resistance - we will experience struggle.
It is always during this season of Light, this time of year when many are aware of the Love of the Creator - that darkness - or simply that which is not of God - is seen. It often is this time of year when family pain, conflict of the heart, struggles of the path are seen so clearly. The vibrations of the Light; the strength of Love shows all that is unlike Itself. God calling upon God.
And it is in these very moments; in these times of conflict when we can say:
“Lead me to The Love in my Heart - Lead me to that which is greater than I - take my hand and relieve me of any burdens - Spirit of Light, Divine Consciousness, I say yes to unconditional Love, I say yes to Faith in Goodness, I release control and choose You. I let go of fear, I discern from my heart center, I know the Light of You is in every cell of my being – I affirm the Light of You is in the cell of every being I know. I open to You – I am seeing, feeling and being in this time of transformation because You are shining so brightly! I am feeling this conflict, this pain, because You are calling the You within me – and in this very breath I get out of the way! I allow the God outside of me, to merge with the God within me; and through this at-one-ment I am healed. I am whole in this moment. I am knowing, feeling, aware of Your Divine Presence of Light – and all who are around me can see this, all who hear my voice can feel this – You! I thank you sweet Spirit for this moment of revelation – for revealing Yourself through me, through this experience of Oneness.”
God Blesses You - you are the Light of Spirit-
Deborah
From deep in my heart I greet you, hug you, wrap my arms around you - smile at you, witness you & feel your presence - welcome to another day.
We must always be reminded that nothing is against us - that God is all-ways for us. It is Spirits undeniable calling which rustles up the uncomfortable-ness and beckons us to call upon the attributes of God which will relieve us from our own disillusionments.
I know a man whose wife is dying. I sit with her and her light is so very bright, her presence of faith is palpable in every word she speaks. She is present with family, friends, and hospice support. Despite her earth walk; her mind is attached to faith in Good, to gratitude for this moment she is being given, to the love which surrounds her. Yet, he, her spouse; is filled with rage, anger and fear. He cannot be in a room with more than two people. Through immense vibration, his heart is forced open by the love in the room! Because his heart is so filled with anger, grief and rage at God, when he is in the vibration of so much love - he runs; his body, his pain is forced to be felt - for anything unlike the Light is released unto the Universal Presence - and all that will remain is the Love.
It is the releasing, the transitional time, the transformational process - those moments where if there is resistance - we will experience struggle.
It is always during this season of Light, this time of year when many are aware of the Love of the Creator - that darkness - or simply that which is not of God - is seen. It often is this time of year when family pain, conflict of the heart, struggles of the path are seen so clearly. The vibrations of the Light; the strength of Love shows all that is unlike Itself. God calling upon God.
And it is in these very moments; in these times of conflict when we can say:
“Lead me to The Love in my Heart - Lead me to that which is greater than I - take my hand and relieve me of any burdens - Spirit of Light, Divine Consciousness, I say yes to unconditional Love, I say yes to Faith in Goodness, I release control and choose You. I let go of fear, I discern from my heart center, I know the Light of You is in every cell of my being – I affirm the Light of You is in the cell of every being I know. I open to You – I am seeing, feeling and being in this time of transformation because You are shining so brightly! I am feeling this conflict, this pain, because You are calling the You within me – and in this very breath I get out of the way! I allow the God outside of me, to merge with the God within me; and through this at-one-ment I am healed. I am whole in this moment. I am knowing, feeling, aware of Your Divine Presence of Light – and all who are around me can see this, all who hear my voice can feel this – You! I thank you sweet Spirit for this moment of revelation – for revealing Yourself through me, through this experience of Oneness.”
God Blesses You - you are the Light of Spirit-
Deborah
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Yes to Faith
Advent is a favorite time of year for me. The going within, the weekly reminders of the season - and this past first Sunday of Advent was a celebration of Faith. The church service I went to was perfect for me - faith was explained from the eyes of Mary - being asked to have faith in her calling to mother, to walk in faith as she was asked to do what was looked upon as irreverent, wrong and in biblical times; reason for stoning or worse - an unmarried woman, pregnant. We were brought to consider Mary's perception, fears and courage - it was, in all the first Advent Sunday Faith topics I have heard and given - perhaps my favorite. The music, the words, the energy - it was wonderful.
In my inner sanctum of self, the place I went to during this vibrant message was the virgin part - how we are each virgins in the essence of being asked to have faith in anything which is new to us. And of course, this is the only time we need faith, when something is new, when we have not done it before, when our built in ego screams; No! Usually we feel okay, unruffled when asked by Spirit to do something we have done before - something not new to us - BUT when we are guided to do yet another NEW thing - to get up and move, to say yes to a new endeavor, to take a brand new action - it is that uncertainty of exposure, that wavering and sometimes relentless voice of ego that we cannot succeed, that gut wrenching fear of the unknown which rears its ugly head.
What I have observed in my years of ministry is that it truly is fear itself, not the goal which takes our humanness over. Look at the conversations we avoid, the class we put off for literally years, the move we always yearn to take and never do, the volunteer program we seem to never have time for......that church we never get to. Take a moment and consider all the experiences you so neatly avoid.
I know, when the time is right, when the stars align, when all the pieces fall into place we will make the move. But, what about answering the call? What about trusting the vibrant call from God to say YES! Perhaps all that is missing is saying YES.
And this can be about what appears to be the smallest of actions, the least life changing choices, the simplest of shifts.
There is no doubt that our lives become easier when we have Faith in God, the Universal Isness, the Great Cosmic Perfection - to support our choices, our actions, our prayers. It is important for us to surround ourselves with others who support our dreams, our ideas, our hopes, our prayers. Some of us have that in partnership, others have family, or community - like minded souls where being in their vibration helps to support your own dreams and visions. Yet, when we take on God as our partner, all things are possible. When we take on the cloak of Faith in saying yes to our dreams and hopes - when we discern through prayer what it is we are to do - no matter how minute or 'unimportant' the action may seem; we are claiming our good.
Mary claimed her good through faith in God. When an angel speaks, one listens!
I was reading a piece today from Dr Ernest Holmes, founder of Religious Science. He spoke about the fact that the only reason it is more difficult to manifest one million dollars than a dime is because someone told us. Somewhere along the life path, someone said a million is better, worth more than a dime and therefore is more difficult to manifest. Because someone told us. The holy connection begins right there - someone told us.
Listen to people who love, adore and believe in you. Tell everyone you know; yes, you can succeed. Provide positive support to friends and family and strangers alike; Yes, you can. I feel my interior cringe when I hear people say no. No, that cannot be done - no, that is a bad idea - no, that won't work. No, that is too hard - no, that sounds too difficult - no, that is not necessary - no, I do not have enough money - no, I have to wait, no, no, no, no. NO, its too hard - no, it has not been done before - no, I have never done that - no, I have always done it this way. No, no, no. Way too many no's in the world.
Yes,......sometimes we have to say no to what we do not want in order to say yes to what we do want. Say no to the fears, no to the voices in the head, no to anyone who is not supportive. This also takes faith, trusting in the not yet revealed, knowing God is always working for our Good.
Mary said Yes. And in saying Yes through her faith in God, Joseph joined her. She was given all she needed. God provided. Faith in the unseen, in the yet not experienced. No to the old stories and fears. Our faith is the bridge to the Cosmicness of life - Yes to and through our Faith. Faith in God can give us the courage to surrender and simply say 'yes.'
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I said yes this past Sunday in going to a church I once had been part of, but had not been to in maybe two or more years. Seeing old friends and aquantiances fed me. And the BEST was there were other woman who had felt called and had not been for 1- 3 years! We all said yes. There was an old friend who just happened to be in town from Pittsburg! The joy list goes on and on. I said yes and it was wonderful!
In my inner sanctum of self, the place I went to during this vibrant message was the virgin part - how we are each virgins in the essence of being asked to have faith in anything which is new to us. And of course, this is the only time we need faith, when something is new, when we have not done it before, when our built in ego screams; No! Usually we feel okay, unruffled when asked by Spirit to do something we have done before - something not new to us - BUT when we are guided to do yet another NEW thing - to get up and move, to say yes to a new endeavor, to take a brand new action - it is that uncertainty of exposure, that wavering and sometimes relentless voice of ego that we cannot succeed, that gut wrenching fear of the unknown which rears its ugly head.
What I have observed in my years of ministry is that it truly is fear itself, not the goal which takes our humanness over. Look at the conversations we avoid, the class we put off for literally years, the move we always yearn to take and never do, the volunteer program we seem to never have time for......that church we never get to. Take a moment and consider all the experiences you so neatly avoid.
I know, when the time is right, when the stars align, when all the pieces fall into place we will make the move. But, what about answering the call? What about trusting the vibrant call from God to say YES! Perhaps all that is missing is saying YES.
And this can be about what appears to be the smallest of actions, the least life changing choices, the simplest of shifts.
There is no doubt that our lives become easier when we have Faith in God, the Universal Isness, the Great Cosmic Perfection - to support our choices, our actions, our prayers. It is important for us to surround ourselves with others who support our dreams, our ideas, our hopes, our prayers. Some of us have that in partnership, others have family, or community - like minded souls where being in their vibration helps to support your own dreams and visions. Yet, when we take on God as our partner, all things are possible. When we take on the cloak of Faith in saying yes to our dreams and hopes - when we discern through prayer what it is we are to do - no matter how minute or 'unimportant' the action may seem; we are claiming our good.
Mary claimed her good through faith in God. When an angel speaks, one listens!
I was reading a piece today from Dr Ernest Holmes, founder of Religious Science. He spoke about the fact that the only reason it is more difficult to manifest one million dollars than a dime is because someone told us. Somewhere along the life path, someone said a million is better, worth more than a dime and therefore is more difficult to manifest. Because someone told us. The holy connection begins right there - someone told us.
Listen to people who love, adore and believe in you. Tell everyone you know; yes, you can succeed. Provide positive support to friends and family and strangers alike; Yes, you can. I feel my interior cringe when I hear people say no. No, that cannot be done - no, that is a bad idea - no, that won't work. No, that is too hard - no, that sounds too difficult - no, that is not necessary - no, I do not have enough money - no, I have to wait, no, no, no, no. NO, its too hard - no, it has not been done before - no, I have never done that - no, I have always done it this way. No, no, no. Way too many no's in the world.
Yes,......sometimes we have to say no to what we do not want in order to say yes to what we do want. Say no to the fears, no to the voices in the head, no to anyone who is not supportive. This also takes faith, trusting in the not yet revealed, knowing God is always working for our Good.
Mary said Yes. And in saying Yes through her faith in God, Joseph joined her. She was given all she needed. God provided. Faith in the unseen, in the yet not experienced. No to the old stories and fears. Our faith is the bridge to the Cosmicness of life - Yes to and through our Faith. Faith in God can give us the courage to surrender and simply say 'yes.'
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I said yes this past Sunday in going to a church I once had been part of, but had not been to in maybe two or more years. Seeing old friends and aquantiances fed me. And the BEST was there were other woman who had felt called and had not been for 1- 3 years! We all said yes. There was an old friend who just happened to be in town from Pittsburg! The joy list goes on and on. I said yes and it was wonderful!
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Driven to Distraction
In this most recent inward search I am presently in the midst of, every day more poignant and relative awareness's are revealed. God, this Great Isness of Life is all-ways working for us, if we would just get out of the way. But in our humanness, we are driven to distraction, as the title of one of the all time best selling books on ADD in adulthood is aptly named; away from a God focus and faith. It use to be called 'the devil' or others have called it 'satan', or as I like to say; error thinking. In error thinking the all time biggest and most relevant sin is the sin of omission - the omission of God awareness, faith in God - in any given moment. You see, it is so easy to stray from our Truth. To stray from what we know to be true for us; that we are children of God and all things are possible with God.
I have strayed. And I know this because I have felt the physical manifestations of misalignment's in my body. My heart sings of disgruntledness. My left arm has been in pain, telling me I am not receiving well and carrying too many burdens. And yesterday, in the midst of a healing session with me as the beloved; I heard my kidneys and other elements of flow speak loudly of their imbalance and need for attention.
We all stray. It is the nature of being human. Even the most faith filled, spiritually practiced being will find him or herself at some point being tempted to being distracted away from what they believe in. For me, I know God. I know and believe in God to heal, fix, align, speak, touch, create, answer........at my beckon call. I know for a fact and beyond a shadow of doubt that God is here for me, that as long as I listen and take action upon Spirits guidance; life works out amazingly! And yet, I allow myself to get distracted. I forget. I fail to call upon.
Distraction and spiritual practice are friends. In a deep spiritual practice, the element of distraction will always attempt to sway you. And in the midst of being distracted - God will always be calling. It is the Divine Nature of both.
Distraction looks different for everyone, but we all know it. For the alcoholic it is the old friend who still calls but your relationship is built around five pm cocktails. Old friends. Now that's a powerful distraction. That one comes in many relationships. We outgrow them, or grow through them and still hang on. Ex's, was-bands, platonic friends. It is the energy which bonds you. Sometimes, even our families distract us. (Who does not know this one?!) We know what we know and then one person says one thing and zoooooooooooooooooom - we get sucked right in to old habits of thought, not even realizing we are allowing the energy of that old, negative, non empowering thought to plant another seed in our spiritual awareness. In that moment we are straying from our faith.
Distraction can be as easy and simple as a dinner invitation - and you are too afraid to say no thank you to the meat in case you hurt someones feelings because you chose to become a vegetarian and took a personal vow to your guru that you would never eat another soul again. Distraction can be the person you respect saying to you; that's silly, do you have any proof? And you shy away like a puppy with your tail between your legs and the teeniest seed of doubt is planted...........distraction can be a mate who does not take the journey with us or a brother or sister who thinks we are nuts. Or the distraction can be ever so subtle - do you have a cold? ....and then you begin thinking...do I? Do I believe in colds? I don't believe in germs......why would I have a cold? I take Zinc everyday- but they think I have a cold, may be I do believe in colds.....blah, blah, blah.
Distraction is a nasty little varmint. It keeps us caged up in our own fears with God doing whatever it takes to get our attention because we are so deeply loved by Spirit. You and I are so deeply loved by God that in Its infinite power and wisdom, God will do whatever It takes to get us to know It. It is the very Nature of God to mirror our beliefs to us in the outside world so we have an opportunity to see ourselves clearly. And we all know, sometimes we do not like what we see.
Recently, I have allowed myself to be distracted. As a minister, counselor, teacher - I have gotten caught up in my beloveds stories. I have begun to believe the lies they tell me about themselves. I am sick, they say and then I pay attention to the illness, knowing full well they are NOT sick. They are NOT the sickness, they are experiencing a time of imbalance and God is speaking to them to get back on track and pay attention to the possibilities of life. This is too hard...they whine. I then believe it IS too hard.....I can get caught up in ego - that I am the one healing, fixing, aligning them. I can forget that this is Gods work and God is the one healing and the God in them is connecting with God outside of them and they are dancing together into the realm of balance and harmony. When I forget, when I begin to think I am separate from God and have any authority what so ever; I become disgruntled. My heart feels sad and disconnected from Its source of Love - and it is - I am distracted from the Truth.
If we are going to say we believe, if we are going to choose to walk with God the Good, if we are going to speak of Truth - then we have to Trust - and no matter how it looks, seems or appears from any one elses perception - we keep saying 'Yes, God, yes'.
Our bodies are the best vehicle God has for talking with us. This is where God knows It will get our attention. Hey, you allowed yourself to be distracted so this is going to hurt for a while until you get back on board with me! Can you hear me now?????
I admit lately, in vulnerable honesty, I have found myself exhausted from all the whiney-nss I hear. People whine a lot. They whine about this and that. They whine for YEARS about the SAME thing, over and over again. Since this whiney-ness has been bothering me so immensely I innately know and trust the Law; that I am the one who is whining. I am being shown that I am whining about something and I better get off the pot, sort to speak, and get going in another direction! I am whining because I became distracted and forgot that all things are possible with God. It doesn't much matter who distracted me, or why or how. What does matter is that in one fleeting moment of time I left my faith. I turned away from God, from my faith in goodness and all that I believe in and then that moment built on this and on that and it got bigger and larger and heavier and older until oooooooooops...... there it is. Oh, look at that. Yuck.
This is what happens when we turn away from ourselves. Which comes first, the turning away or the distraction? Can't see the distraction until you turn away...and cannot turn away unless there is a distraction..............................does it matter? No. What matters is the Truth.
Now, here is some real juiciness - when I met my husband he was part of a band called..."The Distractions". Ah-ha, yes, for real, honest. And it always bothered me, that name. It felt irreverent and I did not know why. Now I do.
In Gods Light and with much love, Deborah
I have strayed. And I know this because I have felt the physical manifestations of misalignment's in my body. My heart sings of disgruntledness. My left arm has been in pain, telling me I am not receiving well and carrying too many burdens. And yesterday, in the midst of a healing session with me as the beloved; I heard my kidneys and other elements of flow speak loudly of their imbalance and need for attention.
We all stray. It is the nature of being human. Even the most faith filled, spiritually practiced being will find him or herself at some point being tempted to being distracted away from what they believe in. For me, I know God. I know and believe in God to heal, fix, align, speak, touch, create, answer........at my beckon call. I know for a fact and beyond a shadow of doubt that God is here for me, that as long as I listen and take action upon Spirits guidance; life works out amazingly! And yet, I allow myself to get distracted. I forget. I fail to call upon.
Distraction and spiritual practice are friends. In a deep spiritual practice, the element of distraction will always attempt to sway you. And in the midst of being distracted - God will always be calling. It is the Divine Nature of both.
Distraction looks different for everyone, but we all know it. For the alcoholic it is the old friend who still calls but your relationship is built around five pm cocktails. Old friends. Now that's a powerful distraction. That one comes in many relationships. We outgrow them, or grow through them and still hang on. Ex's, was-bands, platonic friends. It is the energy which bonds you. Sometimes, even our families distract us. (Who does not know this one?!) We know what we know and then one person says one thing and zoooooooooooooooooom - we get sucked right in to old habits of thought, not even realizing we are allowing the energy of that old, negative, non empowering thought to plant another seed in our spiritual awareness. In that moment we are straying from our faith.
Distraction can be as easy and simple as a dinner invitation - and you are too afraid to say no thank you to the meat in case you hurt someones feelings because you chose to become a vegetarian and took a personal vow to your guru that you would never eat another soul again. Distraction can be the person you respect saying to you; that's silly, do you have any proof? And you shy away like a puppy with your tail between your legs and the teeniest seed of doubt is planted...........distraction can be a mate who does not take the journey with us or a brother or sister who thinks we are nuts. Or the distraction can be ever so subtle - do you have a cold? ....and then you begin thinking...do I? Do I believe in colds? I don't believe in germs......why would I have a cold? I take Zinc everyday- but they think I have a cold, may be I do believe in colds.....blah, blah, blah.
Distraction is a nasty little varmint. It keeps us caged up in our own fears with God doing whatever it takes to get our attention because we are so deeply loved by Spirit. You and I are so deeply loved by God that in Its infinite power and wisdom, God will do whatever It takes to get us to know It. It is the very Nature of God to mirror our beliefs to us in the outside world so we have an opportunity to see ourselves clearly. And we all know, sometimes we do not like what we see.
Recently, I have allowed myself to be distracted. As a minister, counselor, teacher - I have gotten caught up in my beloveds stories. I have begun to believe the lies they tell me about themselves. I am sick, they say and then I pay attention to the illness, knowing full well they are NOT sick. They are NOT the sickness, they are experiencing a time of imbalance and God is speaking to them to get back on track and pay attention to the possibilities of life. This is too hard...they whine. I then believe it IS too hard.....I can get caught up in ego - that I am the one healing, fixing, aligning them. I can forget that this is Gods work and God is the one healing and the God in them is connecting with God outside of them and they are dancing together into the realm of balance and harmony. When I forget, when I begin to think I am separate from God and have any authority what so ever; I become disgruntled. My heart feels sad and disconnected from Its source of Love - and it is - I am distracted from the Truth.
If we are going to say we believe, if we are going to choose to walk with God the Good, if we are going to speak of Truth - then we have to Trust - and no matter how it looks, seems or appears from any one elses perception - we keep saying 'Yes, God, yes'.
Our bodies are the best vehicle God has for talking with us. This is where God knows It will get our attention. Hey, you allowed yourself to be distracted so this is going to hurt for a while until you get back on board with me! Can you hear me now?????
I admit lately, in vulnerable honesty, I have found myself exhausted from all the whiney-nss I hear. People whine a lot. They whine about this and that. They whine for YEARS about the SAME thing, over and over again. Since this whiney-ness has been bothering me so immensely I innately know and trust the Law; that I am the one who is whining. I am being shown that I am whining about something and I better get off the pot, sort to speak, and get going in another direction! I am whining because I became distracted and forgot that all things are possible with God. It doesn't much matter who distracted me, or why or how. What does matter is that in one fleeting moment of time I left my faith. I turned away from God, from my faith in goodness and all that I believe in and then that moment built on this and on that and it got bigger and larger and heavier and older until oooooooooops...... there it is. Oh, look at that. Yuck.
This is what happens when we turn away from ourselves. Which comes first, the turning away or the distraction? Can't see the distraction until you turn away...and cannot turn away unless there is a distraction..............................does it matter? No. What matters is the Truth.
YOU are a bright, beaming, beautiful Light of God. YOU are an energetic spark of the Universal Consciousness we call God, this Great Isness of Life. YOU have within you an innate awareness of Love. This Love, when focused upon, paid attention to, nurtured, celebrated and given strength will continually expand, grow and magnify God the good as magnificence in your life.
Now, here is some real juiciness - when I met my husband he was part of a band called..."The Distractions". Ah-ha, yes, for real, honest. And it always bothered me, that name. It felt irreverent and I did not know why. Now I do.
In Gods Light and with much love, Deborah
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