I am humbled by many of my clients - yet none so deeply as a young woman I have been working with for several months. Upon her most recent appointment, when asked what her intention was for this particular session, she answered; 'more happiness'.
The session proceeded to be immense. The gravity of the work was beyond - simply beyond. The amount of release from old ways was huge - the energetic largeness of the work was incredible - I swept and swept and moved and moved old cords, emotional baggage carried for lifetimes filled the room; heat, volume, density was undeniable. If there is an equivalent - several sessions in one, perhaps. I had no words - and neither did she.
Since that experience, I have contemplated the simple prayer of happiness. We can become so deliberate, focused and controlling over what we think God should be/do for us - we often can hear ourselves telling God what we think we should want or have. It came to me, that the more finite we are in our prayers; the less room there is for God.
When we can trust God with all our hearts, what more can there be to affirm, but happiness. I am happy. Today, I am happy. More happiness, God & thank you.
Such a simple prayer - such a beautifully naive and full opportunity to allow for the Creator to do Its creating in our lives.
I hope you will take time today to contemplate the idea of the simple prayer of 'more happiness.' - with relief in the trusting of Gods will.
Saturday, April 30, 2011
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
Grandmother Wisdom
The past few weeks, month, year - have been at times, unruly. There are days when we feel we are being turned inside out - upheavel comes to mind. The world appears to be in crisis - and we are in its center. How do we flow, let it be, allow for the Light?
Yesterday morning, the 19th, I awoke a new. Be that it is Spring, Easter, Passover - all of this and more - it all feels quite signifcant. The recent fool moon tore away at us all our relationship 'garbage'. It provoked and allowed us to see ourselves in relationship, how we sound, how we are, how we react, respond, act. Grandmother Moon allowed for the great and glorious strength of Grandmother Spider to enhance our souls - to dance its web throughout our thoughts and lead us to its center. This moon also held the Light and Power for us to see and let go of all negativty we speak of. Like a waterfall our own negative words come to the surface and we see our wounds and ask the Wisdom of the Grandmothers to bless us. Grandmother wisdom can wrap around our souls and allow the Divine Feminine to step to the front and center in our being.
As I was given the blessings of this wisdom, I heard my own voice of annoyance, of aggravation - my ego view of the male energies - as I stepped into the initiation of the Grandmother wisdom I saw lack perceptions leave, I knew I no longer would feed my soul with what had in the past been fuel for my expansion. My heart opened to a new fullness of the Divine Feminine, to the intuit of our world.
If it caused me annoyance or aggravation it may no longer be part of my journey. I had to forgive myself for feeding my heart such draining experiences. I acknowledge how the journey into was driven by these forces and without them I would not be here. There is an odd and joyous revelation to the path we come to know which in itself is Holy in all its humanly perceived negativity.
I no longer dance with annoyance or aggravation. My partner is the wisdom of the Grandmother, the Grace of Spider Medicine. The web is woven through our hearts - connecting, circling, enhancing the qualities of loving what is and leaving all else alone.
http://www.animalspirits.com/index11.html
with great love, Deborah
Yesterday morning, the 19th, I awoke a new. Be that it is Spring, Easter, Passover - all of this and more - it all feels quite signifcant. The recent fool moon tore away at us all our relationship 'garbage'. It provoked and allowed us to see ourselves in relationship, how we sound, how we are, how we react, respond, act. Grandmother Moon allowed for the great and glorious strength of Grandmother Spider to enhance our souls - to dance its web throughout our thoughts and lead us to its center. This moon also held the Light and Power for us to see and let go of all negativty we speak of. Like a waterfall our own negative words come to the surface and we see our wounds and ask the Wisdom of the Grandmothers to bless us. Grandmother wisdom can wrap around our souls and allow the Divine Feminine to step to the front and center in our being.
As I was given the blessings of this wisdom, I heard my own voice of annoyance, of aggravation - my ego view of the male energies - as I stepped into the initiation of the Grandmother wisdom I saw lack perceptions leave, I knew I no longer would feed my soul with what had in the past been fuel for my expansion. My heart opened to a new fullness of the Divine Feminine, to the intuit of our world.
If it caused me annoyance or aggravation it may no longer be part of my journey. I had to forgive myself for feeding my heart such draining experiences. I acknowledge how the journey into was driven by these forces and without them I would not be here. There is an odd and joyous revelation to the path we come to know which in itself is Holy in all its humanly perceived negativity.
I no longer dance with annoyance or aggravation. My partner is the wisdom of the Grandmother, the Grace of Spider Medicine. The web is woven through our hearts - connecting, circling, enhancing the qualities of loving what is and leaving all else alone.
http://www.animalspirits.com/index11.html
with great love, Deborah
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
100 % Responsibility
My Aries fire has been lit up lately, as it has been universally, causing all our individual ‘stuff’ to be brought to the surface like rockets going off. The undertones of anger are immense and the laughter of freedom from previous density is often. It is amazing, exhausting and encouraging witnessing the effects of our planet shifting into a full 5th dimensional civilization.
In the midst of this journey which is giving an opportunity for our vulnerabilities to surface, I see one of my greatest flaws; it is that I assume.
I assume one knows this, or one is coming from here or one presently understands such and such. We all know what ‘assume’ means, and it gets me into uncomfortable spots. I do not like beginning at the beginning – I prefer to take off from where I am at – but I all too often forget, others may not be on the same page and yes, I am not on their page either. This can cause either painful communication breakdowns as well as heightened awareness and love brought about through joining together in the humor of the separation itself.
I have witnessed my assuming experience in high volume this past week. I have been at fault (or at love, depending on your perception!) for assuming souls were at a similar spiritual space as I, assuming others all ready were living from The Law of Creative Presence, the Law which expresses to us the great mirror of reflection – empowering us to take 100 % responsibility for our lives. Since I have found myself in this space of awkwardness and assumption, it feels like a perfect time to share the meaning, practice and awareness of 100 % responsibility and what this means – for that Is the core of the teachings, guidance & foundation of The Amethyst Light Ministry.
Like many ministers, I have given several Sunday sermons on ‘forgiveness’. The verbiage and message are based from my personal life experience of being brought up in an alcoholic home with many empty spaces, addictions, fears and obsessions. The sermon message is; I am not responsible for what another does; but I am fully responsible for how I respond, act and be in any situation. I also had learned that one can never run away from what is ours to grow from. (One may say lesson here, but I do not like that. Lesson sounds as if one is a child and has to pass such and such…) We each come here with the same purpose; to learn to love. In this purpose, we each choose life plots in order to open our hearts to unconditional love. Some learn thru abuse, others thru personal addiction, illness, others thru relationships, perhaps love, success, wealth, poverty, etc.
In order for a soul to grow through and into love, God asks of us to believe/do two things:
1. Own our choice to be in this expereince.
Many hear this and react with, ‘you blame me for this? You think I chose this? This is them doing it, not me’.
I believe we choose life themes/paths prior to coming here into this incarnation. I believe that we are constantly choosing and creating through our beliefs and that we can make a shift from creating unconsciously to creating consciously through our individual use of The Law (of God, Attraction, Creativity.)
How did I draw this experience into my reality?
A button is pushed – anger rises; uncomfortable-ness is the feeling, hurt, fear, and angst – a button is pushed. The understanding of The Law teaches us we have a wound which has been re-opened, scraped, touched, bruised once again, in other wards, shown to us – when a button is pushed. This is OUR wound, not theirs – they are the messenger only – we say thank you for exposing this to me again, showing me this is still part of my vibrational field and now I CAN DO my work around this which is crying out to be whole.
When finding one’s self in a situation of discomfort, in order to move through it and beyond it, we need only take responsibility for having chosen it. I chose it before I came here or I chose it unconsciously by my beliefs, or I chose it because my old wound is not yet healed and it is pretty loud and showing itself to me once again – I chose it.
Through faith in God we can see our way through any situation. It is in seeing our way through an experience, not around it, that an alignment of love is possible. If we leave a relationship or experience before we align with love and gratitude within our lives for the experience, we will meet up with it again and again – same plot, new players.
In having faith in The Law, ‘so above, as below/as within, without’ - we are then empowered through owning our conscious or unconscious choice to be in a particular experience.
When one does not take responsibility for an experience they fall victim to another person or experience and then their ability to act, choose or heal is not available to them.
This action of 100% responsibility does not make a horrible experience good, or a terrible experience better, or an uncomfortable experience less uncomfortable. IT DOES however allow us the room to appreciate seeing it with more clarity and asking; what is mine to do here? Owning our choice here allows us to not be angry at the other, but to say thank you for playing this role in my life that I can know my strength, my power, my faith, my ability to forgive, to love and/or to feel.
2. To own our responsibility before we leave the situation.
Here is the key – to own it before we leave, walk, slam a door, bolt, say good bye, run away or quit. If not, we leave a situation before we can forgive, be grateful for it, appreciate where it brought us and we miss an ( not THE only) opportunity to heal the wound.
Yes, one can leave and do the work afterwards; but the fact is, The Law will continually bring you into similar situations in order for you to be fully present in the midst of them and to ride the wave through them; into love.
As others have pointed out, does this mean you want me to stay in an abusive situation just to get the lesson?
No, I want you to understand The Law, make it work FOR you, so you can stand fully present and see what is yours to see, shift what is yours to shift within you, in order to move forward more empowered, more loving and less a victim to your own wounds.
Because I grew into a young mindless adult coming from the home I came from, I married yet another version of my parents. My wound called us forward. It was perfect! It had to get worse, before I grew spiritually enough for it to get better; but it got better than ever! I reached a space in my heart where I am so grateful to the souls who were my parents, for all their addictions, dysfunctions and conditional loving – without them I would not be who I am; and for that I know I am eternally grateful. Forgiveness to myself for choosing such a path! – forgiveness to the souls who were my parents, my first husband; for having had to have them be the people they were, so I could become I who I wanted to be -- gratitude all over the place! Forgiveness and joy!
Can you see how the most challenging of your situations is simply the same exact opportunity over and over again? If you can see this, try this:
1. Vision your soul, a presence of energy.
2. Imagine a spiral going around it, beginning at the (your feet) bottom, heading upwards, a perfect spiral, getting smaller, tighter as it elevates to a peak above your head.
3. The beginning is your birth in this carnation.
4. The peak is your God Realization Union.
5. In the bottom part of the spiral see a situation, experiences and the way you handled them. Watch as the spiral moves upward…..all the time you growing spiritually, becoming more enlightened…..and similar situations happening…..and you moving through them with a bit more ease and grace each time…….
6. Until above the center of the spiral you handle an issue of ego, of love, of illness, of abuse, of victimhood, of addiction; with 100 % responsibility.
7. You will no longer need to have that type, that theme of an experience.
I want this sharing to support you know than you know. Every one of you, who has ever been upset with me for saying 100 % responsibility, thank you. Because of you, I am sharing this. My prayer and intention is I know someone is going to benefit from this writing. In my years of spiritual practice, as a seeker, minister, counselor, healer and teacher; I have witnessed hundreds of souls raise themselves from personal pain and restriction through understanding The Law and creating through taking 100 % responsibility for their role in the play of their life.
With big love, Deborah
In the midst of this journey which is giving an opportunity for our vulnerabilities to surface, I see one of my greatest flaws; it is that I assume.
I assume one knows this, or one is coming from here or one presently understands such and such. We all know what ‘assume’ means, and it gets me into uncomfortable spots. I do not like beginning at the beginning – I prefer to take off from where I am at – but I all too often forget, others may not be on the same page and yes, I am not on their page either. This can cause either painful communication breakdowns as well as heightened awareness and love brought about through joining together in the humor of the separation itself.
I have witnessed my assuming experience in high volume this past week. I have been at fault (or at love, depending on your perception!) for assuming souls were at a similar spiritual space as I, assuming others all ready were living from The Law of Creative Presence, the Law which expresses to us the great mirror of reflection – empowering us to take 100 % responsibility for our lives. Since I have found myself in this space of awkwardness and assumption, it feels like a perfect time to share the meaning, practice and awareness of 100 % responsibility and what this means – for that Is the core of the teachings, guidance & foundation of The Amethyst Light Ministry.
100 % responsibility is birthed of unconditional love for ones self and humankind.
Like many ministers, I have given several Sunday sermons on ‘forgiveness’. The verbiage and message are based from my personal life experience of being brought up in an alcoholic home with many empty spaces, addictions, fears and obsessions. The sermon message is; I am not responsible for what another does; but I am fully responsible for how I respond, act and be in any situation. I also had learned that one can never run away from what is ours to grow from. (One may say lesson here, but I do not like that. Lesson sounds as if one is a child and has to pass such and such…) We each come here with the same purpose; to learn to love. In this purpose, we each choose life plots in order to open our hearts to unconditional love. Some learn thru abuse, others thru personal addiction, illness, others thru relationships, perhaps love, success, wealth, poverty, etc.
In order for a soul to grow through and into love, God asks of us to believe/do two things:
1. Own our choice to be in this expereince.
Many hear this and react with, ‘you blame me for this? You think I chose this? This is them doing it, not me’.
I believe we choose life themes/paths prior to coming here into this incarnation. I believe that we are constantly choosing and creating through our beliefs and that we can make a shift from creating unconsciously to creating consciously through our individual use of The Law (of God, Attraction, Creativity.)
The Law is the great mirror. We draw to us - as we witness our exterior we need only look within to see how and why it is present.
How did I draw this experience into my reality?
A button is pushed – anger rises; uncomfortable-ness is the feeling, hurt, fear, and angst – a button is pushed. The understanding of The Law teaches us we have a wound which has been re-opened, scraped, touched, bruised once again, in other wards, shown to us – when a button is pushed. This is OUR wound, not theirs – they are the messenger only – we say thank you for exposing this to me again, showing me this is still part of my vibrational field and now I CAN DO my work around this which is crying out to be whole.
As I do my work, as I open to a clearer alignment with God, with unconditional love -- bridges to wholeness are created, my vibration is raised, freedom is Spirits gift to an a awareness of love.
When finding one’s self in a situation of discomfort, in order to move through it and beyond it, we need only take responsibility for having chosen it. I chose it before I came here or I chose it unconsciously by my beliefs, or I chose it because my old wound is not yet healed and it is pretty loud and showing itself to me once again – I chose it.
As I seek within myself and see my beliefs, my stories - I choose to change them through forgiveness, acceptance and compassion.
In having faith in The Law, ‘so above, as below/as within, without’ - we are then empowered through owning our conscious or unconscious choice to be in a particular experience.
When one does not take responsibility for an experience they fall victim to another person or experience and then their ability to act, choose or heal is not available to them.
This action of 100% responsibility does not make a horrible experience good, or a terrible experience better, or an uncomfortable experience less uncomfortable. IT DOES however allow us the room to appreciate seeing it with more clarity and asking; what is mine to do here? Owning our choice here allows us to not be angry at the other, but to say thank you for playing this role in my life that I can know my strength, my power, my faith, my ability to forgive, to love and/or to feel.
2. To own our responsibility before we leave the situation.
Here is the key – to own it before we leave, walk, slam a door, bolt, say good bye, run away or quit. If not, we leave a situation before we can forgive, be grateful for it, appreciate where it brought us and we miss an ( not THE only) opportunity to heal the wound.
Yes, one can leave and do the work afterwards; but the fact is, The Law will continually bring you into similar situations in order for you to be fully present in the midst of them and to ride the wave through them; into love.
“I once told a friend, I was going to get through my relationship with my mother into love this lifetime, because I was **&^&^ sure I was NOT going to have to do another life with this expereince again!” (I am happy to say we did.)
As others have pointed out, does this mean you want me to stay in an abusive situation just to get the lesson?
No, I want you to understand The Law, make it work FOR you, so you can stand fully present and see what is yours to see, shift what is yours to shift within you, in order to move forward more empowered, more loving and less a victim to your own wounds.
Because I grew into a young mindless adult coming from the home I came from, I married yet another version of my parents. My wound called us forward. It was perfect! It had to get worse, before I grew spiritually enough for it to get better; but it got better than ever! I reached a space in my heart where I am so grateful to the souls who were my parents, for all their addictions, dysfunctions and conditional loving – without them I would not be who I am; and for that I know I am eternally grateful. Forgiveness to myself for choosing such a path! – forgiveness to the souls who were my parents, my first husband; for having had to have them be the people they were, so I could become I who I wanted to be -- gratitude all over the place! Forgiveness and joy!
Can you see how the most challenging of your situations is simply the same exact opportunity over and over again? If you can see this, try this:
1. Vision your soul, a presence of energy.
2. Imagine a spiral going around it, beginning at the (your feet) bottom, heading upwards, a perfect spiral, getting smaller, tighter as it elevates to a peak above your head.
3. The beginning is your birth in this carnation.
4. The peak is your God Realization Union.
5. In the bottom part of the spiral see a situation, experiences and the way you handled them. Watch as the spiral moves upward…..all the time you growing spiritually, becoming more enlightened…..and similar situations happening…..and you moving through them with a bit more ease and grace each time…….
6. Until above the center of the spiral you handle an issue of ego, of love, of illness, of abuse, of victimhood, of addiction; with 100 % responsibility.
7. You will no longer need to have that type, that theme of an experience.
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I want this sharing to support you know than you know. Every one of you, who has ever been upset with me for saying 100 % responsibility, thank you. Because of you, I am sharing this. My prayer and intention is I know someone is going to benefit from this writing. In my years of spiritual practice, as a seeker, minister, counselor, healer and teacher; I have witnessed hundreds of souls raise themselves from personal pain and restriction through understanding The Law and creating through taking 100 % responsibility for their role in the play of their life.
With big love, Deborah
I cannot change you – I can only change me.
I am not responsible for you – I am 100% responsible for me.
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Hello Chaos
(I guide my clients to speak to their wounds, as they are pure energy and a life force unto themselves. This is a prayer-rant that I recently wrote for a beloved. They are to be said outloud, daily, unitl you feel your energetic vibration shift. Perhaps this may support others journeys, so it is being shared.)
Hello chaos. I recognize you. You were what my family of origin used as their experience of motivation – you and all your ‘pure crazy’ got them to move – got them to change – go them to shift – got them to see. Chaos – you belong to them, not me. You are a re-action, not a re-sponse.
I do not choose you. I choose to re-spond to life. I see what you are what you were - I see more fully now how you are. You are in my cellular memory as my re-action to being here, to life – but I no longer choose you. I no longer choose the manic, crazy, chaotic experience of you.
Reaction is a cellular experience.
Response is my choice.
I recognize you Chaos, but I no longer want you. And more importantly I no longer need you. I can see how you have served me, in your appearance of too much, not enough, too hard, too this and not enough of that – but no more. You are born of fear and lack of faith.
YOU, Chaos, who motivated my family and use to be the prime instigator for my life is no longer needed. You, Chaos, have served me well – you created an artist. You helped to create me. But, Good bye. I have found Choice. I like Choice. It is stronger than you, more flexible than you, deeper than you, wider than you, higher than you. It serves me in a more productive way, in a more self loving way. Choice.
To my little girl who grew up in the house on the hill; I love you madly. You are me and now, I want you to know, we no longer choose Chaos. We no longer NEED chaos. We choose to speak up. We no longer have to speak up OVER the chaos or through the chaos. We no longer have to be crazy, or wild, or extreme to be seen or noticed or loved.
We can choose to be crazy, wild and perhaps a bit extreme if we WANT to – but those are part of chaos and now, now my little being and now my grown up woman; We choose to CHOOSE.
I am motivated by love. I am motivated by what feels good to me. I am motivated by what brings me joy. I am motivated by life, laughter, love, kindness and talk. Yes, talk. I have a voice. I speak in order to be seen. I do not have to yell, or scream or use any form of chaos to be heard. I am heard. Clearly and freely and lovingly.
Good bye Chaos
Hello Choice.
Hello chaos. I recognize you. You were what my family of origin used as their experience of motivation – you and all your ‘pure crazy’ got them to move – got them to change – go them to shift – got them to see. Chaos – you belong to them, not me. You are a re-action, not a re-sponse.
I do not choose you. I choose to re-spond to life. I see what you are what you were - I see more fully now how you are. You are in my cellular memory as my re-action to being here, to life – but I no longer choose you. I no longer choose the manic, crazy, chaotic experience of you.
Reaction is a cellular experience.
Response is my choice.
I recognize you Chaos, but I no longer want you. And more importantly I no longer need you. I can see how you have served me, in your appearance of too much, not enough, too hard, too this and not enough of that – but no more. You are born of fear and lack of faith.
YOU, Chaos, who motivated my family and use to be the prime instigator for my life is no longer needed. You, Chaos, have served me well – you created an artist. You helped to create me. But, Good bye. I have found Choice. I like Choice. It is stronger than you, more flexible than you, deeper than you, wider than you, higher than you. It serves me in a more productive way, in a more self loving way. Choice.
To my little girl who grew up in the house on the hill; I love you madly. You are me and now, I want you to know, we no longer choose Chaos. We no longer NEED chaos. We choose to speak up. We no longer have to speak up OVER the chaos or through the chaos. We no longer have to be crazy, or wild, or extreme to be seen or noticed or loved.
We can choose to be crazy, wild and perhaps a bit extreme if we WANT to – but those are part of chaos and now, now my little being and now my grown up woman; We choose to CHOOSE.
I am motivated by love. I am motivated by what feels good to me. I am motivated by what brings me joy. I am motivated by life, laughter, love, kindness and talk. Yes, talk. I have a voice. I speak in order to be seen. I do not have to yell, or scream or use any form of chaos to be heard. I am heard. Clearly and freely and lovingly.
Good bye Chaos
Hello Choice.
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
The Art of Receiving
I have been contemplating the art of receiving of late...yet maybe not, I was actually contemplating the act of giving - and just yesterday, one of the many souls I am blessed to witness mentioned to me how she was practicing receiving and how very wonderful it is. So, I got thinking...........
Are you good at receiving? So many take the conscious road of giving - of learning to tithe, giving of our time and talents and treasures.........some do it by buying a lot of things and gifting to others...some, like me, love the practice of receiving a complement and then offering the item as a gift - right then and there.
This happened two weeks ago - I was in what I call my blissful state of being - a smiley grin across my face, feeling "light as a feather!"....and was walking out of the florist holding a bouquet of white star gazer lilies and white hydrangeas. The woman had just locked her car, as she approached me saying...'those are the most beautiful flowers I have ever seen!' she was mesmerized - I stopped. I offered. She bent her head down toward her chest with a loud, 'oh, no, I caaaaaannnnnttttttttttttttttt!'........................and I offered again, explaining it would make me very happy to give her these - to bring her joy..............and again, the head bent down towards her chest, to hide her face and explain to me, 'oh, no, I caaaaaaaaaaaaannnnnntttttttt.'.......and one more time I explained how I had bought these for myself and I can do whatever I want with them and..................well, you get it.
She slowly backed away not knowing how to respond from random generosity, or random love...........and I shared there were more inside, perhaps she can buy her self some. That she could handle.
I have a beautiful client, an adorable 80 year old woman who is now doing her work, so many blessings! She and I had the recent conversation about this one person in her life who is not giving her what she wants and how in our humanness we blame that person for not being 'good', for not being 'polite', for not doing the 'right' thing. And of course God led us to the perfect picture, how this wonderful being, for 80 years, has always given/done for others, but never let others do for her. Never. Even now getting her to accept a moment of love is like seeing Jesus walk on water. It's more than rare. And the best part is she got it. The Universe is about giving and receiving and you are either ARE or you are NOT. And of course the perfect Spirit humor is that by receiving we are giving - being an opening for God, for others to experience the joy of giving. (One of Gods win-wins.)
Do you receive love freely? Do you allow others to do for you? Do you always have to be the one making the tea? Do you insist on others not doing..................are the one who always will be there for others but never let anyone be there for you?
How many times a day do you say no to love? How often do you say no thank you, I'm busy. Or not now, I have to work. How often do you look for ways to be important, but how often do you let others feel important?
Yes, I would love that!
Yes, you can drive me.
Yes, we would love to come for dinner.
Yes, I would be thrilled to live for free in your time share for three weeks.
Yes, I would LOVE those flowers.
Yes, you may gift me some bodywork.
Yes, I would LOVE that!
Yes, okay, go ahead, you can pay me more than I asked for......if you must!
Yes, you can come help me while I am sick.
Yes, you can walk my dog for me.
Yes, you can rub my feet.
Yes, yes, yes!
Do we feel forced to give anonymously because we are so not good at receiving?????
The act of giving to others is Spirit in action. We have many opportunities as a society to give to those less fortunate or in devastation; but how often do you allow others to give to you on a daily basis? To tithe to you personally, of their love, money, time, belongings; simply because they want to - simply because God has urged them from the inside out to love all over you!?
How often during your day can you recognize that God is giving to you through another human being?
Smile at people. Say hello. Greet others with a good day, have a blessed day, enjoy your day. Look them in the eye, stop, be present. Such a gift.
Receive freely and with great abandon all the good Spirit has for you. If you want great abundance in your life, if you want love, if you desire friendship, if you wish for community - giving and receiving are a complete circle.
I say bring it on. Bring on the love.
Are you good at receiving? So many take the conscious road of giving - of learning to tithe, giving of our time and talents and treasures.........some do it by buying a lot of things and gifting to others...some, like me, love the practice of receiving a complement and then offering the item as a gift - right then and there.
This happened two weeks ago - I was in what I call my blissful state of being - a smiley grin across my face, feeling "light as a feather!"....and was walking out of the florist holding a bouquet of white star gazer lilies and white hydrangeas. The woman had just locked her car, as she approached me saying...'those are the most beautiful flowers I have ever seen!' she was mesmerized - I stopped. I offered. She bent her head down toward her chest with a loud, 'oh, no, I caaaaaannnnnttttttttttttttttt!'........................and I offered again, explaining it would make me very happy to give her these - to bring her joy..............and again, the head bent down towards her chest, to hide her face and explain to me, 'oh, no, I caaaaaaaaaaaaannnnnntttttttt.'.......and one more time I explained how I had bought these for myself and I can do whatever I want with them and..................well, you get it.
She slowly backed away not knowing how to respond from random generosity, or random love...........and I shared there were more inside, perhaps she can buy her self some. That she could handle.
I have a beautiful client, an adorable 80 year old woman who is now doing her work, so many blessings! She and I had the recent conversation about this one person in her life who is not giving her what she wants and how in our humanness we blame that person for not being 'good', for not being 'polite', for not doing the 'right' thing. And of course God led us to the perfect picture, how this wonderful being, for 80 years, has always given/done for others, but never let others do for her. Never. Even now getting her to accept a moment of love is like seeing Jesus walk on water. It's more than rare. And the best part is she got it. The Universe is about giving and receiving and you are either ARE or you are NOT. And of course the perfect Spirit humor is that by receiving we are giving - being an opening for God, for others to experience the joy of giving. (One of Gods win-wins.)
Do you receive love freely? Do you allow others to do for you? Do you always have to be the one making the tea? Do you insist on others not doing..................are the one who always will be there for others but never let anyone be there for you?
How many times a day do you say no to love? How often do you say no thank you, I'm busy. Or not now, I have to work. How often do you look for ways to be important, but how often do you let others feel important?
Yes, I would love that!
Yes, you can drive me.
Yes, we would love to come for dinner.
Yes, I would be thrilled to live for free in your time share for three weeks.
Yes, I would LOVE those flowers.
Yes, you may gift me some bodywork.
Yes, I would LOVE that!
Yes, okay, go ahead, you can pay me more than I asked for......if you must!
Yes, you can come help me while I am sick.
Yes, you can walk my dog for me.
Yes, you can rub my feet.
Yes, yes, yes!
Do we feel forced to give anonymously because we are so not good at receiving?????
The act of giving to others is Spirit in action. We have many opportunities as a society to give to those less fortunate or in devastation; but how often do you allow others to give to you on a daily basis? To tithe to you personally, of their love, money, time, belongings; simply because they want to - simply because God has urged them from the inside out to love all over you!?
How often during your day can you recognize that God is giving to you through another human being?
Smile at people. Say hello. Greet others with a good day, have a blessed day, enjoy your day. Look them in the eye, stop, be present. Such a gift.
Receive freely and with great abandon all the good Spirit has for you. If you want great abundance in your life, if you want love, if you desire friendship, if you wish for community - giving and receiving are a complete circle.
I say bring it on. Bring on the love.
Friday, March 11, 2011
Earth Prayer
Mother Earth,
We love you - we calm our hearts in order for you to feel our humbling awe of your power and magnificence.
Let all life be secure in the unfoldment of your power.
Let our love instill and pour into your ground our vibrations of Oneness.
Let your oceans be stilled through our joy and serenity as we share our hearts with you.
Mother Earth, Father Sky, Calming Waters -
Let our awakening be filled with Grace as our soul vibrations expand to (an) awareness of universal Oneness.
Let our hearts see calm.
Let our hearts feel calm.
Let our hearts be calm.
My heart sees calm.
My heart feels calm.
My heart is calm.
My vibration of calmness spreads into the earth and seeps into the rivers and streams
and pours itself upon the grand waters -
and calming Grace is the only experience.
Thank you God, and so It Is!
We love you - we calm our hearts in order for you to feel our humbling awe of your power and magnificence.
Let all life be secure in the unfoldment of your power.
Let our love instill and pour into your ground our vibrations of Oneness.
Let your oceans be stilled through our joy and serenity as we share our hearts with you.
Mother Earth, Father Sky, Calming Waters -
Let our awakening be filled with Grace as our soul vibrations expand to (an) awareness of universal Oneness.
Let our hearts see calm.
Let our hearts feel calm.
Let our hearts be calm.
My heart sees calm.
My heart feels calm.
My heart is calm.
My vibration of calmness spreads into the earth and seeps into the rivers and streams
and pours itself upon the grand waters -
and calming Grace is the only experience.
Thank you God, and so It Is!
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
James Van Praagh/Michael Gerrish
Last evening I went to the Newburyport Firehouse and witnessed the renowned spiritual medium James Van Praagh with a rather new still getting his confidence medium; Michael Gerrish. The ticket was 75.00 and well worth the three hour time slot of a mid week night out. Well known psychic medium James Holland was in the audience supporting his friends, the self care author Cheryl Richardson was there as the wife of Michael Gerrish as well as being a dear soul friend of James, no doubt also the reason they were on the ticket for the evening (!) and the local flavor of Newburyport was buzzing with gratitude - as thousands of Spirits were trying to be loud enough in order to have James speak for them! The energy was raised and crown chakras were flickering with delight. The pre 'show' anticipation was on high.
As I sat in perfect audience mid stream, which I never do, (for I am an aisle girl for easy retreat and crowd control), I found myself questioning and delighted at this event. I had never seen James Van Praagh in person. Due to my own medium-ship and clairvoyance, I never felt the 'need'. Let me say he is no doubt the real deal. His years of paving the way for all of us, has created an entertaining, sweet and gifted soul.
The resonance of delight at any like event is that I get to see friends and peers I have not seen in a while - almost like a reunio -, hugs, smiles and 'how are you' are always heart opening gifts. My questioning was birthed of 'why?'. Or rather, what purpose does this information serve?
Since the very funny and authentic James reminded us that 'what another thinks about us is none of our business', I have to own up to my own ego centered perceptions. What does it serve to have another human being tell you what you are feeling, or as host Bob Olsen said, take the lid off your head and reach right into your mind and pull stuff out....? It's your stuff. What goodness does it serve to have a person confirm your accident you had year ago and that your back hasn't healed yet? You know that, right? How does someone telling you your dead grandmother wants you to take care of yourself, or you have arthritis in your left arm, which you know due to the pain, support your journey?
And as I hear these judgments and thoughts creating distance between myself and the joy of the evening, I also heard; well, this is one of things you do Deborah - don't you help? What's he doing that I don't? Could I be up there? (Oh, how we make it AAAAAAALLLLLLLLLLL about our selves! Zowie, hit me with a 2x4 please.)
The help and support which was shared last evening was immense. Many audience guests were pleased, relieved and empowered. The emotions of the evening come under the heading of validation. We seek validation in oh so many forms. Last evening, and the reason people go to psychics, mediums and others is to feel validation of something, sometimes any little thing, of life beyond this linear body.
As humans we crave a significant event to prove to us that this is not all there is. We desperately want to know that there is more than this singular life, more than our frail 30, 56, 72 or 99 years on this plane. Last night I was reminded of just how hungry people are. Last night I was reminded of just how relevant this work is.
The few chosen through James Van Praagh were offered significant proof via this person they have never met, telling them about their prior relationships with dead relatives and the lives of these relatives. He reinforced that our lives, relationships and connections continue beyond the framework of this earth existence. Others were given proof via the humble Michael Gerrish that there is more to you than your physical body - your emotions, choices and life resonate through and out to others. Validation and comfort. Important stuff, we crave it.
James Van Praagh has been around for thirty plus years as one of or perhaps the leader in the field of psychic medium-ship. Micheal Gerrish’s gift came to the surface in the past four years. He is a bodybuilder and health nutritional author and coach. I dare guess; this gift has rocked his world more than anyone else’s – as the unexpected always does. Michael continually spoke humble statements of recourse through his time on stage; that this psychic thing was new and he is fine tuning, learning and awakening to this gift. During and immediately after the evening I was not very patient with him - I felt he should begin with smaller venues, house parties, twelve to twenty folks - and away from his home town. I felt his humbleness bordered on apologies and set a foundation for doubt and insecurity - and to a degree I still do, but the truth is it took a huge amount of courage for him to walk on that stage. And for a man who for years has been a leader in a very different field; of course he is to be insecure in his offering of information he may feel is none of his business. But as a multi dimensional clairvoyant and empath myself ; I do offer you this Michael Gerrish - have faith in Spirit. The most you can do is offer and if someone says yes, then give them what you are offered. You are doubting yourself - that is your humanness, but do not ever doubt Spirit - that is your journey.
As I sat in perfect audience mid stream, which I never do, (for I am an aisle girl for easy retreat and crowd control), I found myself questioning and delighted at this event. I had never seen James Van Praagh in person. Due to my own medium-ship and clairvoyance, I never felt the 'need'. Let me say he is no doubt the real deal. His years of paving the way for all of us, has created an entertaining, sweet and gifted soul.
The resonance of delight at any like event is that I get to see friends and peers I have not seen in a while - almost like a reunio -, hugs, smiles and 'how are you' are always heart opening gifts. My questioning was birthed of 'why?'. Or rather, what purpose does this information serve?
Since the very funny and authentic James reminded us that 'what another thinks about us is none of our business', I have to own up to my own ego centered perceptions. What does it serve to have another human being tell you what you are feeling, or as host Bob Olsen said, take the lid off your head and reach right into your mind and pull stuff out....? It's your stuff. What goodness does it serve to have a person confirm your accident you had year ago and that your back hasn't healed yet? You know that, right? How does someone telling you your dead grandmother wants you to take care of yourself, or you have arthritis in your left arm, which you know due to the pain, support your journey?
And as I hear these judgments and thoughts creating distance between myself and the joy of the evening, I also heard; well, this is one of things you do Deborah - don't you help? What's he doing that I don't? Could I be up there? (Oh, how we make it AAAAAAALLLLLLLLLLL about our selves! Zowie, hit me with a 2x4 please.)
The help and support which was shared last evening was immense. Many audience guests were pleased, relieved and empowered. The emotions of the evening come under the heading of validation. We seek validation in oh so many forms. Last evening, and the reason people go to psychics, mediums and others is to feel validation of something, sometimes any little thing, of life beyond this linear body.
As humans we crave a significant event to prove to us that this is not all there is. We desperately want to know that there is more than this singular life, more than our frail 30, 56, 72 or 99 years on this plane. Last night I was reminded of just how hungry people are. Last night I was reminded of just how relevant this work is.
The few chosen through James Van Praagh were offered significant proof via this person they have never met, telling them about their prior relationships with dead relatives and the lives of these relatives. He reinforced that our lives, relationships and connections continue beyond the framework of this earth existence. Others were given proof via the humble Michael Gerrish that there is more to you than your physical body - your emotions, choices and life resonate through and out to others. Validation and comfort. Important stuff, we crave it.
James Van Praagh has been around for thirty plus years as one of or perhaps the leader in the field of psychic medium-ship. Micheal Gerrish’s gift came to the surface in the past four years. He is a bodybuilder and health nutritional author and coach. I dare guess; this gift has rocked his world more than anyone else’s – as the unexpected always does. Michael continually spoke humble statements of recourse through his time on stage; that this psychic thing was new and he is fine tuning, learning and awakening to this gift. During and immediately after the evening I was not very patient with him - I felt he should begin with smaller venues, house parties, twelve to twenty folks - and away from his home town. I felt his humbleness bordered on apologies and set a foundation for doubt and insecurity - and to a degree I still do, but the truth is it took a huge amount of courage for him to walk on that stage. And for a man who for years has been a leader in a very different field; of course he is to be insecure in his offering of information he may feel is none of his business. But as a multi dimensional clairvoyant and empath myself ; I do offer you this Michael Gerrish - have faith in Spirit. The most you can do is offer and if someone says yes, then give them what you are offered. You are doubting yourself - that is your humanness, but do not ever doubt Spirit - that is your journey.
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